i had a long post earlier on and dunno y when i published it, it miraculously dissappeared.. now let me recall..

rite.. i finally got my previous previous post up and running after uploading all the necessary photos wahaha.. tho my office comp is slow like tortoise.. my comp at home is like snail.. so aiya.. make do with it ba.. wahahaha..

remember i mentioned a birthday chalet at chevrons in september? BAD news.. saturdays from now til october all fully booked.. wow.. how lucky can i get? *hur*

so let it be at costa sands downtown east ba.. exceed my budget but nvm.. i'll work harder or save more lo.. BAD news again.. 10 sep is sch hols!! okie dokie.. i shall have it at the end of august.. sch jus started oso, not so busy.. shall confirm real soon.. so pEopLE.. keep your weekends in august FREE!! i'll be really devastated if you all can't make it.. really.. so must be free okie..

meanwhile i shall go source for necessary stuff.. haha and manpower.. woohoo.. tis is so fun..

every morning while waiting for my bus 51 (a fucked up bus cos the frequency is screwed), i'll always see this woman across the road waiting for cab.. the thing is.. pandan gardens is such ulu place that cab drivers hardly drive past.. so most of the time she calls for cab.. so.. booking charge and peak charge.. maybe she works nearby? haiz, i duno but it's definitely something i won't do.. everytime i wan to take cab i have to think 2 times 3 times 4 times 5 times lo.. unless u tell me you have been driving previously and it cost alot less to takecab everyday, or you sharing cab with 3 other ppl.. then i nothing to say la.. but if not hor.. saving cab fare = saving quite alot.. esp with all the extra charges..

sometimes it feels very strange to be saving and then at the same time wondering where the hell my money has gone to.. i think at the moment i try to save cos i wan to get something.. so not healthy sincei'll end up with the zero balance.. plus when i buy thngs for my sis or monkey and i see them happy i'll be happy too.. dun help in my savings plan at all wahahaha..

like now.. i dun shop so much cos i saving for birthday and phonebill and maybe even my new comp since my stupid mum used up my $400 again.. *big sigh*

you know the problem with my parents is they have extremely bad financial planning.. they are BRAINLESS when it comes to planning how to use the money.. plus.. they can't do proper housework for nuts.. by this i mean.. no matter how many times i remind them ortell them talk to them wrn them scold them scream at them.. they will still be the same old them refusing to mop the kitchen after cooking, leaving trails of black marks after washing clothes.. what the fuck?!?!

just in case you think i only all talk no action.. which idiot tells u i dun do housework? i kill the person lor.. with work and tuition you think i got energy and time everyday go home and mop the kitchen for them when i dun even eat at home? bullshit. and my father still dare to tell me "wait til very dirty then clean then got more satisfaction cos it wil then look clean" i was like what the fuck you talking about? now i dun really like to use my kitchen.. i love cooking.. but i just hate my kitchen.. if i'm the only one making the effort to clean it after i cook.. then?!?!?! might as well i dun use and let the place rot.. or i be the slave and slog all day and night trying to tidy the place 4 ppl live in.. i'm not saying i should not be cleaning.. but it shouldn't be a one person effort rite?

got time to watch tv read newspaper no time to do housework? never kena slapped by me before lor.. one and two and three idiots.. i dun evern watch tv or read newspapers when i got home k! bathe then pack abit then iron then make breakfast or lunch next day then sleep!

and one more thing.. don't you think it's logical for the last person to go sleep to empty the dustbin.. throw the trash.. to stop breeding more xiao3 qiang2 and ants alike? this one hor.. i can't be the one staying til they all go sleep then i can empty and go sleep rite.. i keepreminding them they still fucking throw the sweet stuff food stuff there and leave them overnite.. it really makes a difference if you stay with them since young.. look at my sister and me.. i dun grow up in my home.. so i'm abit different from my sis.. who abviously have no sense of cleanliness and tidiness..

when it comes to finances, worst still.. whose parents use up their children's savings without their knowledge til every single cent is spent? whose parents used up the money for uni education before the child start uni? whose parents need their parents to pay for their children's education, food, blablabla? whose parents borrow money from their children and never return them? whose parents scream at the children when she asks for money to pay the house phonebills? whose parents refuses to pay bills and let extra charges accumulate, at the same time refusing to cut cost by terminating the hp line? whose parents keep buying extra stuff here and there then tell the children sorry, i have no money for your exzink fare, sch shoes, band concert photos etc? whose parents are so stubborn they refuse to listen to their children's feedback and suggestions?

MINE..

i'm just sad things have to be this way..

they are alrite except for the above.. but then considering we are singaporeans.. living in singapore.. when you are brainless financially, many other things collapse as well..

before you shout at me saying i'm a bad daughter.. how many times must i say dun judge simply cos u are not me and u do not noe wat i've gone through..

do you have to cry at nite before sleeping knowing your parents spent ur money away again? because you run into deficit not because u spend too much on urself but cos you have to spend ur meagre intern pay on them and their stuff? NO? then shut up..

my grandma once told me what the parents suck at, the child excels.. i duno if it's true.. if really true, does it mean what the parents are good at thechild suck la? haha no la.. jus some rubbish from me..

i recognize that i'm still alot mre fortunate than many people and i'm grateful for that.. at least i have my relatives and friends.. it's just that i tot i should be receiving less and less help from them(esp relatives) since i'm turning 21.. cannot so stubborn like last time lor.. should take the burden le..

i still wish i'm outta house.. away from their bad financial planning and dirty habits.. i wanna clean and healthy place to stay in.. i wanna protect myself from trusting them again.. but things are different now.. cos i can't be so stubborn le.. ren3 ren3 ren3..