wow, last day of 2003.. still pondering over whether i should go out for dinner.. and meet up with friends.. with my still-abit-swollen-but-can-at-least-walk-abit ankle.. harhar.. well.. shall see how bar..

oh my gosh.. one more day to the last day of 2003 and i'm still stuck at home with a badly sprained ankle.. dunno y.. it doesn't seem to recover with the speed i wan it to.. hehz, am i too demanding?? hurm.. i wanna go out on new year's eve!!!!!!!!!! *pants*

seems like the undertakings during the jolly season of thanksgiving have been pretty engaging for me... had a great xmas eve dinner with jasc yongling sam and ian at B.Boss.. the partying at O bar was fun.. thanks dudes for the treats.. *winkz*

jus a little disappointment though, i lost the christmas gift from ian.. *sobz* am really upset about it.. it was really sweet.. *sulks* thanks yar.. heng i read the note liaoz.. *smilez*

after the so-havoc party.. went to mark's place for gathering on xmas day! had a really nice catch up with the peepz, esp waiying and yonghui.. *muahahaha* guess it's time to clear up abit of the mess made... *winkz*

i was carrying my beloved bag out to town one day.. in search of some accesories.. to brighten my day.. *smilez* as i was browsing through the stuff in one of the shops, a sales personnel approached me, holding a bag in her hand.. i knew what she wanted to do at the instant. though it was absolutely not my initial intention to consider purchasing a bag, i did not hesitate to allow her to do her job.. in fact, i might have been slightly attracted to it by it's simple-yet-attractive appearance. for a split second, i wanted it very much..
i did not really pay attention to what was coming out of the salesgirl's mouth. instead, i put down my bag in a corner and tried carrying this one that was made known to me barely a few minutes ago.. this was better than my bag.. actually, it is almost similar to what i've been looking for.. the only thing was that i had no idea how much it costs to own it and whether this bag was ready to be part of my life..
what will happen to my bag if i decided to abandon it for good? it has been rather durable and "accomodating" for me although i find it hard at times to carry all the stuff i want to bring.. it has been nice to my eyes though it does not suit my outfit at times.. oh well.. i like my bag.. but i'm afraid i'm attracted to this new one at the moment.. maybe falling for it without realising..
perhaps i should continue with my shopping for accesories and not purchase the bag.. or i should consider this one while in search for other better bags.. maybe i can find similar ones in other places.. or i can own this bag..
why am i confused?? cos i'm not sure if i can find another identical one. cos it may be the last piece available..
being selfish basically, aren't i?? *lowers head*

right now, i'm at home with an elephant-look-alike right leg.. fell down steps of stairs just a couple of hours ago.. my right ankle's hurting real bad now.. damn.. and did i mention i've got phobia visiting sinsehs?? *bish*

jus came back from supper with robin at west coast market... first time on bike.. woohoo.. very nice feeling harhar!! want to go learn bike ar!! harhar, crasi me.. hmmm.. thanks zhu tou (oops.. mus be nicer).. thanks robin for the treat and the ride!! yep... we tok cok til forgot time... reach home aorund 1am liaoz.. wow.. quite amazing everytime go supper oso so much to tok about.. yeah...

watched scary movie 3 at JEC yesterday.. midnight show.. super lame lar the movie.. laugh til stomachache.. some ppl think it's a waste of money but welll, i think it's not bad... =) cos i've been wanting to watch the series since it started out but then it was R(A).. haiz.. now finally NC-16 so must go watch.. muahahahha.. but then i think it'll be much more entertaining if i've watched every single movie scary movie 3 uses to 'distort'.. hehz..

okie, this is abit the going reverse chronological order.. harhar... last friday.. 19th dec... went to school help out at annual ntu business sch vs nus bizad games day... West End Meet.. surprisingly this year we won many of the games.. ahrhar... oops.. me and yonghui and wendy were to take care of the participants' belongings at the gym.. basically we jus rotted there until some ntu players came to 'entertain' us.. no lar.. cos they wan to check their results and wendy was with her laptop.. so hehz. yalor.. started tokking to them, ask them wan to go bash or not.. blablabla... realised they were rather crappie... =)

well, after they check their results.. so since the laptop is there and on wireless connection.. one of the ntu players victor start using friendster.. added us and then slowly a few more lar.. harhar... so farni manz.. found him quite crappy.. well.. we felt like we're PR-ing with them.. wow.. not bad lar.. at least the day din go wasted in the end.. got to know some new friends from ntu... *smilez*

alrite.. back to now... after this whole week.. realise i got crush on a few people.. oops.. is it too much to have crush on more than 1 person??? hmmm... like when i see them i feel happy.. hehz... woohoo... *winkz* oh manz... gg crasi le wor.. *bangs wall*
*slap myself*
*wake up*!!!
haiz... crush awhile lar hor... passing phase?? hurm... *scratch head*

woohoo... today can be considered fruitful... raised some funds for FOC by assuming the role of garang guni... hahar! so the whole gang of us (FOC main com & frens) swept the area of Simei collecting old newspapers, old clothes, tv sets... etc. well, almost the whole area lar, hehz... couldn't finish every corner of the flats due to manpower and time constraints.. nevertheless i think it's not a bad start for future collections... =)

the experience was interesting... cos of the weird, hilarious, pleasant... blablabla incidents...

~encounter 1~

me : ho, we're from NUS doing a charity drive... do you have old newspapers or clothes or old tv sets... blablabla...
resident : i no money i no money....
me : erm... we're not here for money... jus wondering if you have unwanted stuff we can collect...
resident : i no money lar... "bo zho gang"(not working) no money...
me : erm, okie, nevermind, thanks...
resident : *close doors*
me : *scratches head* ???

~encounter 2~

me : (same opening as above)
resident : you're from?
me : NUS
resident : oh! okie, give me a minute or so...
me : sure, thanks! (later...)
resident : you alone collecting this floor? i get my son to help you bring the stuff down?
me : er, no need, it's okie, i 'll get my friends to help..
resident : oh, is it troublesome? it's alright, my son can help...
(the son came out, gosh... not bad looking sia... hurm... harhar)
me : it's alright really... my friends will be here in no time... (paiseh lar)
resident : oh, ok then... *smiles*
me : thanks alot!

~encounter 3~

(yonghui and me waiting for lift at 6th storey to go up to last storey)
malay guy : are you all going up?
me : erm, nope... =)
malay guy : ok, *carries the tv set outside lift*
me and yonghui : *puzzled*
(lift door closes)
me : is that tv set ours? did our ppl collected that from one of the families?
yonghui : not sure... erm, i think so... erm, maybe not, erm... ????
me : oops, if it's ours then... hurm... is that guy the garang guni who is trying to 'steal' our business?
yonghui : wa, if he is then we actually look at him and allow him to take our tv set?!?!
me : -_-"
(later we realise the tv set belongs to the malay guy...)
oops... can you imagine if we stopped the guy from carrying the tv set? *ponders*

there's some other encounters but too tedious to put them down.. some of the kids and dogs are really gorgeous and adorable... hehz... in short, it's tiring but fun...
oh yes! we(me and yonghui) thought it's rather boring to just collect stuff and collect stuff and collect stuff... so we started singing along our way... hehz... guess mark, nanda and irza can't stand our 'crasiness'... well, paiseh wor... jus want to make the atmosphere not so dull and quiet mar... hehz... yeah yeah... found 1 potential ktv kaki, kaweng... he oso sings when we're resting... hehz... goodie... din realise robin told him about the 2 of us 'siao char bors' at ktv the other day... until he told us he finally understands what robin meant... muahahahahha~

friends.. there'll be more collections coming up for fund raising... so please do come join me if ya want to be part of the fun okie okie?? no doubt it'll be physically texing.. but it'll be fun getting to know more ppl... strangers of new friends! \(^v^)/

wednesday had just passed... now thursday le... well... yesterday had been one of my worse days... the mixed emotions that purges my brain cells... not to mention the physical draining of energy...
it's been a long long time since i felt this way.. somehow i dun wish to feel so, however things jus turn out to be.. i've told not many about wat happend...
first call in the morning almost made my heart jumped right up to my mouth... grandpa fell at workplace... from his lorry... rushed down with my grandma... brain was in a blank.. cos dunno exactly wat happened... worried sick for my ah gong who's already passed 60 years and a carrier of some illness... too kancheong to go see him... forgot about my hp.. which is my like my life..esp for wednesday... i dunno why... the fear of losing one of my most precious special someone made me realise i can even forget abt my 'life'...
well, so after everything is settled... i finally get to go home to my 'life'... not that i want to leave my grand parents alone... but i need to face the consequence of forgetting my 'life'... wow... millions of missed calls and sms... rushed to pack my stuff and get on the bus to go sch for treasurer talk... called ppl to explain my absence in the morning.. it's my fault i comprehend... i deserve the reprimanding i suppose...
just that all those frustration and worry and helplessness when i couldn't contact them earlier was tough... plus the concentration needed and perhaps lack of rest as well... accumulated emotions... BOOM! that's it... hec care wat they are thinking.. i just dun haf enough energy to explain any further... go ahead and be angry... they should be... go ahead and think wateva u are thinking... i give up...
just my luck to be in this mess... whether it's to my blame or not...
great... jus when i thought things are going fine for my grandpa... a call from my grandma... he had a minor heart attack.. gotta be extra careful.. sheesh... oh manz... what haf i been doing these times? i haven eaten breakfast with him for a million donkey years... i haven talked to him about my sch, about my life now for a long time... i haven cared for him longer than what is enough... and though what happened today may be minor to some... it daunt upon me that i may one day lose him... there's so much things i want to say.. so many things i want to do with him... afterall my grandparents have been taking care of me since i was 6 mths old...
oh well... it definitely feels better after ranting... not that i can jus forget about everything... but it allows me to sort things out abit... wow... what the hec... i still no mood to explain to them... argh... or i dunno how to... wateva... bleahz... everything yesterday jus pisses me off...