Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry, Y
ou don't know how lovely you are.
 
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
 
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start.
 
Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Its only science apart.
 
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.
 
I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.
 
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
 
Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start.
 
Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.
 
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.
 
it's been a rather interesting week for me at rag site.. taking lorry to ke7 to bathe.. sneaking into sheares and kr halls to shower.. getting cuts and blue blacks all overmt arms and legs.. macheing 0.5 * 0.5 mm pieces of paper with satay sticks.. talking and gossiping non stop abt everyone and anyone.. playing cards and fortune telling games.. chatting when we cant get to slp.. eating and eating and eating so getting fat.. becoming high with the slightest things.. i'm in lurve with our plague.. i hope everything turns out fine *cross fingers* it's only the first week.. more to come bar.. brain cant function well now actually.. but i'm sure i'm happy for now.. *smilez* cos i got a nice white cap from fren.. listening to the nice nice song from the nice nice cd borrowed from nice nice fren at the moment..
 
okie.. time to sleep..
 

it's a damn blardi gossipy place.. you better watch who you are messing with before ASSUMING who the heck it is or what the heck it is and spread like nobody's fucking business.. i don care, can't care anymore aint it.. but this is MY blog.. like i mentioned i can't even stand being judged by my closest buddies.. so all the more i despise ppl who don't know me well enough to judge me.. don't come and tell me ask me interrogate me or whatsoever.. alright... maybe judge is too strong a word but in my state of mind i can't locate a better word in my thesaurus.. obviously i don't wish anything bad to happen from now on.. *cross fingers*

i'm tired.. so tired.. dying mayb.. physical stress? nope.. more like mentally.. cos of rag? nope.. rag's stil fine for me..

few seconds ago i received an sms..
i wished it was from you, obviously it isn't. tell me i'm asking for too much once again. tell me there's no obligation. tell me words are cheap so it's of no significance whatsoeva.

minutes passed i'm taking my time to pack my stuff..
the worst has yet to come i believe. tons of work waiting to be completed. tell me i'm not jaded. tell me it's not gg to be as bad as it seems. i just can't stop being pessimistic. help!

almost 24 hours not even a note of concern expressed..
is this care of no importance? tell me you are too busy to peek at ur phone. tell me your phone's run out of batt. bloody come up with more excuses. be a monkey and do silly stuff. they're so not funny even a teeny weeny bit.

not even a week is gone, i'm already missing those laughter..
the surprise is as amusing to me as to anyone else. i'll take my time to forget about it. cos i just cant think the right way. kept feeling i don't deserve anything or anyone good. tell me i'm an idiot. tell me i'm paranoid. i should take it easy right?

i can't, at least for the moment. cos i'm blardi hell being a bitch ranting and cursing and swearing and whining and complaining.

school is starting soon. damn it. my room's in a mess. shite. my thoughts just won't take a break and stop running. what the hell. i'm falling into emotinal quicksand not seeking help. tmd..

Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say, let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out 'Heaven save me'
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say, let me say

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinkin
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me,
For you and me
For you and me

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking

Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down

Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to what I think is safe

~~one last breath `creed`~~

a m s o t i r e d f r o m r a g b a s h y e s t e r d a y . d r i n k s m a d e m e s o f u l l i p u k e d . p u k e d n o t b e c o s i ' m d r u n k . d a m n k o k z . r e a c h e d h o m e i n d a m o r n i n g 3 p l u s . s l e p t a t 5 3 0 a m . j u s t w o k e u p m o m e n t s a g o . w a n n a f i n d p p l t o h a f d i n n e r w i t h m e b u t v e r y l a z y t o g o o u t t o o * c o n t r a d i c t i o n * i ' m s o g g t o n u a a t h o m e m a n .

damn. not much time to nua le.. rag camp is coming!! argh..

portugal portugal portugal... portugal must win.. *prays hard*

ktv on 30june at cine kbox w kel yh del yy kaweng huiying wendy angeline zw was bersek.. as usual yh and me went crazy over jolin stef fish she sammi songs.. had fun of course.. realised sth new today.. i actually noe so many songs leh! u noe there are some songs i'll never find on purpose from the list.. only when the rest found them i realise eh, so familiar! i noe how to sing leh! kind of reaction harhar.. it was fun lar.. teasing ppl, rapping, singing or screaming shouting wateva.. hee..

then dinner at emerald foodcourt was simple but nice.. some ppl left, some ppl joined us.. i wasn't hungry.. so shared dumpling noodle w edmund.. crap along.. suan ppl kena suaned.. then met the rest for mambo! i've never gone to zouk at such an early time.. before 10pm.. we got the chop then went to kopitiam to sit and talk crap.. finally around 1045 we went in.. the whole lot of us when we went crazy partying at the dancefloor includes me coreen yy del weiherng yh kel edmund wendy val steve adel zw weisherng bel grace diana don and blabla i cant rem all of them.. it was a helluva time tho i kena a quite-an-impact kokz on my head.. heng jason mel came tok to me when i was stil okie if not i dunno wat rubbish i'll tell them when i become high.. which was after my lambo i guess.. thanks for da drinks from zw kel ws and (did i miss out anyone?) so paiseh from the numerous 'are u okie how's ur head?'.. hee.. but thanks anyway.. haven go partying with so many ppl and it sure was fun! trying to follow da mambo actions.. jumping abt to the beat of da songs.. making stupid faces at xiao mao where he did the same.. shall go for another one soon soon okie!! ktv oso! hee..

my dear fren.. i noe u noe i don mean it whenever i scold u suan u tease u hit u watnotz.. sure we're pals and obviously i don feel good to see u feel so down recently because of her.. but then again i have no right to forbid ur thoughts and feelings and actions.. tho i stil hope to cya tis sat.. tmr i mean.. then again.. she may well be the only one in ur eyes at the moment.. haven seen u like tt before and trust u to be rational enough eh.. take care wor.. enjoy ur date.. hee

sorrie lar.. i noe u ord le saw ur sms but my hp's giving me alot of probs so dun blame me for not replying okie? i may go get a new hp soon soon.. cos i cant stand the sometimes-not-working keypad of my present hp.. so yep.. if ya gg for the foc.. enjoy urself ya.. *winkz*