family are friends we cannot choose.. but friends are ppl i choose to be friends with..

so in actual fact i'm blessed with so many ppl i choose to know!

coreen is really an angel.. i'm a happier person oredi.. hee thanks ger!

i had a long post earlier on and dunno y when i published it, it miraculously dissappeared.. now let me recall..

rite.. i finally got my previous previous post up and running after uploading all the necessary photos wahaha.. tho my office comp is slow like tortoise.. my comp at home is like snail.. so aiya.. make do with it ba.. wahahaha..

remember i mentioned a birthday chalet at chevrons in september? BAD news.. saturdays from now til october all fully booked.. wow.. how lucky can i get? *hur*

so let it be at costa sands downtown east ba.. exceed my budget but nvm.. i'll work harder or save more lo.. BAD news again.. 10 sep is sch hols!! okie dokie.. i shall have it at the end of august.. sch jus started oso, not so busy.. shall confirm real soon.. so pEopLE.. keep your weekends in august FREE!! i'll be really devastated if you all can't make it.. really.. so must be free okie..

meanwhile i shall go source for necessary stuff.. haha and manpower.. woohoo.. tis is so fun..

every morning while waiting for my bus 51 (a fucked up bus cos the frequency is screwed), i'll always see this woman across the road waiting for cab.. the thing is.. pandan gardens is such ulu place that cab drivers hardly drive past.. so most of the time she calls for cab.. so.. booking charge and peak charge.. maybe she works nearby? haiz, i duno but it's definitely something i won't do.. everytime i wan to take cab i have to think 2 times 3 times 4 times 5 times lo.. unless u tell me you have been driving previously and it cost alot less to takecab everyday, or you sharing cab with 3 other ppl.. then i nothing to say la.. but if not hor.. saving cab fare = saving quite alot.. esp with all the extra charges..

sometimes it feels very strange to be saving and then at the same time wondering where the hell my money has gone to.. i think at the moment i try to save cos i wan to get something.. so not healthy sincei'll end up with the zero balance.. plus when i buy thngs for my sis or monkey and i see them happy i'll be happy too.. dun help in my savings plan at all wahahaha..

like now.. i dun shop so much cos i saving for birthday and phonebill and maybe even my new comp since my stupid mum used up my $400 again.. *big sigh*

you know the problem with my parents is they have extremely bad financial planning.. they are BRAINLESS when it comes to planning how to use the money.. plus.. they can't do proper housework for nuts.. by this i mean.. no matter how many times i remind them ortell them talk to them wrn them scold them scream at them.. they will still be the same old them refusing to mop the kitchen after cooking, leaving trails of black marks after washing clothes.. what the fuck?!?!

just in case you think i only all talk no action.. which idiot tells u i dun do housework? i kill the person lor.. with work and tuition you think i got energy and time everyday go home and mop the kitchen for them when i dun even eat at home? bullshit. and my father still dare to tell me "wait til very dirty then clean then got more satisfaction cos it wil then look clean" i was like what the fuck you talking about? now i dun really like to use my kitchen.. i love cooking.. but i just hate my kitchen.. if i'm the only one making the effort to clean it after i cook.. then?!?!?! might as well i dun use and let the place rot.. or i be the slave and slog all day and night trying to tidy the place 4 ppl live in.. i'm not saying i should not be cleaning.. but it shouldn't be a one person effort rite?

got time to watch tv read newspaper no time to do housework? never kena slapped by me before lor.. one and two and three idiots.. i dun evern watch tv or read newspapers when i got home k! bathe then pack abit then iron then make breakfast or lunch next day then sleep!

and one more thing.. don't you think it's logical for the last person to go sleep to empty the dustbin.. throw the trash.. to stop breeding more xiao3 qiang2 and ants alike? this one hor.. i can't be the one staying til they all go sleep then i can empty and go sleep rite.. i keepreminding them they still fucking throw the sweet stuff food stuff there and leave them overnite.. it really makes a difference if you stay with them since young.. look at my sister and me.. i dun grow up in my home.. so i'm abit different from my sis.. who abviously have no sense of cleanliness and tidiness..

when it comes to finances, worst still.. whose parents use up their children's savings without their knowledge til every single cent is spent? whose parents used up the money for uni education before the child start uni? whose parents need their parents to pay for their children's education, food, blablabla? whose parents borrow money from their children and never return them? whose parents scream at the children when she asks for money to pay the house phonebills? whose parents refuses to pay bills and let extra charges accumulate, at the same time refusing to cut cost by terminating the hp line? whose parents keep buying extra stuff here and there then tell the children sorry, i have no money for your exzink fare, sch shoes, band concert photos etc? whose parents are so stubborn they refuse to listen to their children's feedback and suggestions?

MINE..

i'm just sad things have to be this way..

they are alrite except for the above.. but then considering we are singaporeans.. living in singapore.. when you are brainless financially, many other things collapse as well..

before you shout at me saying i'm a bad daughter.. how many times must i say dun judge simply cos u are not me and u do not noe wat i've gone through..

do you have to cry at nite before sleeping knowing your parents spent ur money away again? because you run into deficit not because u spend too much on urself but cos you have to spend ur meagre intern pay on them and their stuff? NO? then shut up..

my grandma once told me what the parents suck at, the child excels.. i duno if it's true.. if really true, does it mean what the parents are good at thechild suck la? haha no la.. jus some rubbish from me..

i recognize that i'm still alot mre fortunate than many people and i'm grateful for that.. at least i have my relatives and friends.. it's just that i tot i should be receiving less and less help from them(esp relatives) since i'm turning 21.. cannot so stubborn like last time lor.. should take the burden le..

i still wish i'm outta house.. away from their bad financial planning and dirty habits.. i wanna clean and healthy place to stay in.. i wanna protect myself from trusting them again.. but things are different now.. cos i can't be so stubborn le.. ren3 ren3 ren3..

i wanna go blading with my gals.. so babes.. please reply my sms!!! dun ignore me can? can?? can???


i saw this at the roxy website.. think it's nice.. haha gotta get myself something like tt! black 3 quarts and a jacket.. hmmm..

when is my zara sale starting huh???

jasc is not replying me.. i'm sad.. =( she start work le then no reply me messages le.. hope she's okie.. gotta settle our outings, bookings, ramblings watnotz.. hahaha

getting all incoherent and cranky le.. see.. you get fat and your brain degenerates while working in a boring place.. *yawnz*

shall continue with my blog browsing and budgeting for my 21st bday.. (i know it's still early but i've got nothing better to do at the moment you see..)

i got a shock when the internet's down this morning.. heng everything's alrite now wahahah..

work is BORING.. at least mine is.. i wanna be tai tai.. haha.. counting down.. 5 more weeks maximum.. can't wait to have some real fun!

24 June

i cut my hair.. erm.. actually it's jus a trim.. haha.. my preious hairstylist y no longer works at je kimage so i decided to look for jy in stead.. she's erm.. not bad la.. very friendly person.. i'm still more used to y though.. anyhow.. i like the feel of my hair after the trim and wash! so soft and shiny! wahahaha..


not much diff in length i noe..


see now tie hair nicer le! haha

monkey watched initial D without me.. *sobz* i'm not happy. who wanna watch it with me? date me date me! i dun mind cute guys! wahahaha *crazy*

25 June

my uncle's wedding! went over to my aunt's place last nite to stay over.. discussing about the itenery for his BIG day.. haha.. it's a pretty simple wedding la.. no wedding banquet.. just buffet lunch, high tea and dinner.. the food's great!! one of the best caterer i've tried so far! there's actually 2 caterers.. one of it is best catering, got promotion for birthday and baby's full month leh!!

other than that.. we took lotsa fotos.. snapping away almost whenever possible.. wahaha.. can't show all the fotos la.. later take eons to load my page.. here's some of them.. hee



i did enjoy but it could get bored at times.. hee.. fell asleep for awhile in my grandparents' room haha.. on and off my grandma will ask for me and my cousin ht, bring us to see her friends/colleagues.. or our relatives.. cos they haven't seen us for a long time..

to me, these were the common words exchanged..
wa.. grown up already wor, so pretty.. so tall leh..
last time still so small and then always like to cry wan hor.. (bleahz, i'm a cry baby!)
eat more la, quite think hor.. (i'm oh so not skinny and i'm eating alot haha)
eh, you appeared on channel 8 one of the sim wong fu's show ar? (me: stunned, and then ????)
you look alot like xf ah yi when she's young leh! really so alike!
where you studying now? oh, graduating soon?
where's your other-half? why never ask him to come? (as if monkey dares to appear to be scrutinized ha, even my grandma kept asking me to ask him to come)

to my grandma..
wa, your grandchild so grown up le, you can relac liao lor.. can wait to drink her 'tea' liao..
all your grandchildren so pretty and handsome wor.. good la, can enjoy old age le.. (what's the link?)

this is ridiculous.. it's the same old stuff.. freak.. now i'm the eldest grandchild (maternal side la) guess what the relatives'll coment on the next time we gather? so expected.. *headache* no, i'm not pressured into settling down.. it has always been a dream of mine to settle down early (as if i haven't said enuff).. i'm not influenced or pressured i say again.. wahahaha..

anyhow.. my erm.. mum's cousin's children are so adorable leh!! yjia, yjun, m, j, b, b's little bro (i forgot his name) i haven't seen them in ages.. so adorable!!


yjun's only 2 years old and has a very healthy tan! he was having dinner and then fell off a stool.. he was so paiseh that he jus sat on the floor covering his face with his two hands!! when his father told him it's alrite and to get up, he lowered his head and continued to sit there with his face covered.. so adorable!


and b's little bro is very fond of the new bed!! he refuses to leave the room.. and even tried to climb back to the bed himself!! haha!


oooo, and my pretty pretty cousin lq!! she's so shy whenever i asked her to pose for a pic.. haha!

okie.. enuff of my obsessions with babies and children.. i can never have enough fun with (playing) with them.. haha..

at the end of the whole day.. i'm dead beat.. so i reached home at 12am.. bathed, and plonked on my nice comfy bed.. *ZzzZzzz*

monkey was enjoying his mahjong.. highlight of his game was 'all eat' qinq1 yi1 se4 zi4 mo1.. full tais.. haha..

i'm not too happy cos i din get to talk to him and wondered if he's going to sleep thru sunday as usual.. =(

26 June

i simply love slacking at home with monkey!! hee.. monkey's call woke me up (slightly).. i dun really remember wat he said except amk curry puff and prawn mee.. (i noe i'm a pig)

woke up, brushed teeth, realised my mum bought me prawn mee from nearby coffe shop.. i finished it *yum* and off i went to read my da vinci code.. fell asleep while reading (not that the book's boring.. i was too tired) and woke up again around 1245..

are you reaching yet? i dun wan to wait le lar!
yes, one more stop to je.. wait a while more okie..
i dun wan to wait!
i cannot fly leh.. wait awhile more only okie?
i dun wan dun wan dun wan dun wan wait! dun wan dun wan dun wan you!
wei =(
wei wei =(
wei wei wei =(
wei wei wei wei=(
...

haha tt's how silly i can get.. finally monkey reached after 1pm.. i had my amk prawn mee!! and curry puff!! monkey and i had to share one curry puff cos he din anticipate my mum to be home (he bought 4 and there's 5 of us haha) yum yum! munching on my puff and prawn mee while monkey constantly called me fat bee bom bom..

what's the best thing to do after lunch?

SLEEP!! haha.. pigging out session should include sleeping eh? wahahaha.. we slept all the way til 5pm.. then went je popular to buy assessment book.. walked to 7eleven for a simple and nice mr softie.. before heading home for dinner and spiderman! hehz..

monkey went home at 10pm..

fat bee bom bom sian diaoz..

cos monday gotta work..

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i dropped a sms to monkey saying i wan to see him.. hahahaha.. and he's here!!!!!!!! wahahahahahahahah.. he's never like tt leh!!!!!! wahahahahaha!!!!!

i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl..

enuff said.. i'm outta here!

i got my camera back with me yeah!!! (kiss my camera *muackz*)

tuesday wasn't good.. cos there's no sun! no sun = no tanning = raining = cold weather = waste my money = no mood = tired = feel like sleeping


haven't been to sentosa for eons.. now the tix looks like tt.. haha (suakoo)

initially tot i'll spent quite some amount (tix and dinner and drinking).. end up dinner provided! (cos alot of extra packets) and chill out session was not realised as i had to leave early.. later on oso can't make it for supper with the og kalta.. oh ya.. the dinner's not bad leh!! i think better than last year.. wahahaha..

no supper no staying over cos i working on wed.. very logical reason but it's barely enough to stop me.. so the overpowering reason and influence did the job..

yesterday after work went down to FOC sp nite.. at Baize China One.. Clarke Quay area.. beside Hooters on second floor.. the place's not bad la.. got many pool tables and chairs lor.. good for chill out.. not really for partying.. forgot to take pictures of the place itself *smack forehead*.. but managed to snap away with friends lor.. wahahah


erm, those pics taken later can see my face and neck abit red red from the beer.. (my gawd! it's only beer! i'd really lost touch)

monkey said the beer quite cheap haha..


monkey's the kai3 zi.. wahahah..

no clubbing no drinking too much no mambo no double o .. cos today working.. stil got tuition at nite.. cos i'm tired blablabla.. all the reasons logical but not put forth by me.. so end up leaving the bar at around 1045pm.. plonked on my bed after midnight..

(haha i'm just back from lunch! no apples today cos m and r brought us to havelock for yummy lor mee and prawn mee.. very quite abit paiseh m treat us la.. but yeah! lunch was fun! talk joke gossip complain wateva.. wahahaha.. )

feels kind of strange at the moment.. there's so many things i wan to say.. yet somehow words jus dun come.. erm.. can't exactly describe how i feel..

anything can be simplified.. it'll always be like that until u are in a r/s.. it's so simple yet complicated to say u love somebody.. many say r/s is jus like a roller coaster ride.. so there's ups and downs and swirling arounds.. at the end of it you'll either regret or be glad for the experience.. then u decide whether you'll take the ride again..

it's easier said than done rite.. jus a moment you can be on cloud nine and the next plummet into a deep valley.. you can feel so loved and protected at one moment and the next confined.. you can anticipate the date this instant and the next dread the itenery.. everyone if not most agrees give and take is necessary to strike a balance.. how to reach the balance?

many girls (i'm one of them) hope to meet Mr Right obviously.. and when they think that particular he is the one, there'll be no (or very difficult to) turn back.. especially when girls are serious in the r/s, they will try (very hard) to make it work.. simply becos they do not wish to shatter their dream.. and so subconsciously their demands become more compelling in the view of the guys.. and get utterly upset when their Mr Right does things that hurt them.. remember the girls are only hoping to realise their dream..

either wanting him to listen and be sensitive to her needs.. or to give her surprises to brighten her day.. to get along with every friend of hers.. or to put her in front of everybody else.. to accomodate to her requests.. or to give in to her stubborness.. to like almost everything she likes and stop doing all the things she do not like.. to be the first (or the only) to say sorry in an argument or to keep quiet and give in right from the start..

so what happens when he is more stubborn than her? when he stands by his principles and refuse to apologise? when he gives in but obviously unwillingly? when he can't get along with her friends? when there are just some things he can't stop liking or doing?

so where is the balance?

isn't it sometimes just a matter of perceptions?

she thinks tat she is the one always giving in to him, always the one giving him surprises.. wondering why hasn't the hell he been surprising her.. why doesn't he want to attend concerts and parties with her.. why does he puts his friends before her..

he thinks tat he has been putting in the effort, be sensitive to her emotions and treat her to many good dinners.. wondering why the hell she can't see it.. why does she have to force him to do things he don't like.. why does she not trust or understand him..

exasperated isn't it? you may think..

communciate la! talk it out lor! what the hell, sure got solution wan la!

no.. not so when you are facing the same situation yourself..

communication problems or not.. solving it or not.. when the same thing reoccurs too many times.. it comes to a point where both doubt the meaning of their r/s.. is it still worthwhile to continue with it? what should i do? continue to give in? stand up and be firm about certain aspects of my character and behavior? break up?

the most unintentional and hurtful words can just escape at the most apposite (or inapt) moment..

now, where is the balance?

or more so, how to attain the balance?

has she taken a step back and reflect.. whether it was a tad bit too much to demand certain things? whether there was room for allowance to give in to him instead? whether he has been putting in the effort? is it possible that she has overlooked the effort and magnified on his past doings?

has he on the other hand thought about how she feels for each action he took? how much more effort he has to put in for the balance? whether he needs to be firm regarding certain things or problems? whether he has not taken her needs seriousy enough?

there are indeed certain things that cannot be changed when it comes to character, behavior and hobbies.. he can always give in but ultimately she may chase him away with her own demands and aspirations.. similarly.. there's no point in staying with him if he doesn't see how she wants to be loved..

contradicting ain't it? ah ha.. there comes the notion of balance! give and take give and take give and take.. i can't and don't know exactly how simply becos it works differently in each r/s..

when zw wants to play 'expensive' mahjong.. i've learnt to sleep early, find my own entertainment.. when he doesn't like me clubbing esp when i've work the next day.. i've tried (and been successful since) to stop.. when i dun like the way he gets defensive, he accomodates to his best.. when i know he can't stand sitting in an auditorium for 2 hours watching ppl dance sing or act, i forget about inviting him to concerts.. when he can't seem to get along with my friends, i don't insist on him accompanying me to meet them.. when he hates the way i shout at him when i'm angry, i did stop shouting ever since.. when he complains i don't spend enough time with him, i reduced (tho sometimes reluctantly) my 'extra' activities.. when i disagree with his mentality with regards to shopping for clothes and whatnots.. i just decide not to shop with him as often.. when he gives in to me too much and complains to me about it, i ask him to not give in then..

the list can just go on and on.. we all have alot to learn..

i still am speculative of the 'balance'.. but at least i'm trying.. whenever in doubt i just ask myself

do i love him still?

and when i have the answer to this question, there's no uncertainty whether what i did was worthwhile or not.. *smilez*

quote from my friend.. you can love the person alot alot but you still need air to breathe.. never lose your friends for the one.. but if he/she forces too much things on you then she may as well not be the one..

how true..

a couple of days back i dreamt that i was getting married.. muahaha.. the funny thing is, i don't know who i was getting wed to! *laugh out loud loud*

and then since i have a little bit of time here before my half-day leave to join FOC.. let me continue to dream la..

i don't mind a wedding dress from here..

i wanna wear this(nine west) with my day gown..


then in the evening if my gown is pink then i wanna wear this(nine west)


so i can carry the pink bag!! (nine west)


eh? but brides dun carry bags wan hor? haiyaaa..

let me side track.. i like this pair.. pretty casual.. (nine west)


and i like this bag!! (nine west) simple la.. but nice leh..


but the bags dun look expensive according to monkey.. so he won't buy for me le lah!! *cries*

*slaps my face*
wake up le ba.. dun wan to dream le la..

i've officially gained weight (i trust the weighing machine).. and since monkey knows it, he's been calling me "fat bee bom bom" wat a cute name.. but i dun wan it! i shall have apples only for lunch from now on.. yes, i'm lazy, i dun wanna work out to lose weight.. i EAT LESS so i won't accumulate extras.. haiz.. so unhealthy..

looking forward to tanning abit tis afternoon.. but looking at the gloomy weather this morning.. *shakes head* nevertheless i'm gonna meet my ignite gang laterrrrr!!

many things are never the same once your are not single and available.. and it totally absolutely definitely sucks to be stuck in between.. sacrifices sacrifices.. decisions decisions.. i made one earlier on and i could not be sure if it is right.. hur~ what the hell la..

watched mr & mrs smith since i din catch it with my gals.. i dun really like it leh.. plot abit stupid.. but yeah, angelina jolie's so sexy huh hmmm huh? she has BIG boobs.. why no scenes of her stripping in the movie?? *disappointed* haha..

finally i can say i've made use of the gss this june.. went shopping with zw (i noe it's rare but i dun really have a choice).. bought my undies, a blue bag and a blue dress (i almost bought another blue jacket from isetan and a pair of blue heels from noda).. ate thai food at sakura.. i'm already broke before i shop.. i'm afraid i'm in deficit at the moment..

here's what i bought..


the bag in front.. i paid $44.27 for this bag (the rest is subsidized by zw haha).. from taka shopping centre..

according to zw it's my first decent bag.. i should collect more.. urgh.. but hey! i dun mind adding to my collection leh! at least i won't grumble that i have too many bags to choose from!

oh and the dress.. it's the OP dress i had wanted long ago.. it was like $49.90 lo.. now isetan got sale.. i got it at $19.90!! good buy hor?!?!



sorry no photos of the undies i bought wahahah..

i din have my camera with me (lent it to frens for their hk trip) so i had to constantly tell zw "eh, take out ur hp leh, i wanna take picture" haha, so poor thing gotta entertain me using his camera phone.. so here goes..

we were at robinson shopping for undies when i decided i wanna look at heels!! instead i saw this nine west bag i like alot leh!


but it's white, scared it'll get dirty easily.. think it's about $100.. shall be in my wish list!

this one oso not bad..


the same series wan... jus a bigger size.. hee..

and then i see this Fion bag.. simple and elegant.. forgot to take a pic of it cos zw dun like it.. haiz.. instead he dragged me to see this..



this..



this..



basically the series la.. haha.. if i ever become a tai tai.. then yes.. i'll think about getting the blue or pink one.. hehz..

speaking of pink.. look at what i have after dinner??


raspberry gelato ice cream!!! wahahaha.. my nails are pink too!!

by the way i'm not sure what was it with me and the color blue.. and erm bags and shoes.. but erm.. just seem to be obsessed with them for the day.. (or possessed?)

oh and ya.. saw a couple of tops from topshop which i lurve!! haha.. if i feel rich enough i'll go get them!!

on our way to the bus stop outside heerens.. we saw this..


haha!! 5 'super' men hanging in mid air pasting gigantic poster lah!!
CITIBANK HAS MOVED TO SERVE YOU BETTER.. etc (i can't remember)
many ppl also taking photos of them.. so we dun feel paiseh to be so sua koo!! muahaha..

You kill with
magic.
You are very skilled with magic, but have poor
fighting skills. But it doesn't really matter
anyway since it can be as powerful as other
weapons. You are probably missunderstood by
people and have some pain inside you. You are
not the kind of person to start a fight, but if
you are provocted you respond. You probably
don't have that many friends either though you
might want some. According to you life is a
lonely journey and you try not to care to much.
Most people who are witches or anything similar
is thought to be evil and want to see all
people suffer. That however is not true. You
don't feel that much joy seeing others in pain.
You are probably peaceful and quiet when left
alone.

Main weapon: Potions and spells
Quote: "A man can be destroyed but
not defeated" -Ernest Hemingway
Facial expression: Blank eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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ha so.. here's another quiz from jasc.. it's like back to 2003 when i'll keep doing and posting quizzes.. some veri veri silly ones.. haha what the hell is it with quizzes huh hmmm huh?? but oh well, i have better things to do you know.. just that i bloody hell can't la.. stuck in the office doing a report that is oh-so-flawed..

my manager came over to tell us about the amendments for the first report while i was happily chatting on msn hur~ anyhow, i realised how a manager can be so stupid. all of us understand what jan was trying to say except her.. what's the outcome? haha, the manager CAN'T be wrong lo.. so we continue with the flawed report.. amend to the manager's preference.. nvm abt the whole grp of surveyees being omitted.. i can't reveal too much, i scared.. basically i'm not happy but can't be bothered with the manager and report le la.. i will do whatever you like *bows and pouts*

since i'm here.. a little abt my office life.. every morning i walk into the office.. then to my department.. then *pom* my ass settles onto the chair (consolation is the chair's green in color and comfortable)..
this is what i see..

look at the monitor!!! *shrieks* excel documents! i really really hate them! who the hell invented excel huh hmmm huh??? (another consolation is i got my own personal line.. ppl can call me at my office number directly)

there's nothing much abt life in office leh.. so boring.. oh! wait.. i have this to brighten up myself a little!

my hot milo from the recreation area! (the one at pantry not as nice) i need the milo to survive my day ya noe.. they keep me warm and happy! i have at least one every working day.. so far my record is 4 in a day! (still, nothing beats the milo zw makes for me!)

oh ya.. wanna know how i get fat? other than sitting whole day long.. i had this!

the biggest packet available at the ntuc near my office!! haha.. i share it with another colleague sw la.. but still.. it's so sinful and gives me lots of extras!! my colleagues from HR oso once in a while gives us chocolates, biscuits and blablabla leh! haha.. (happy, but sinful)

so far that's about it.. haven't got other pictures.. will tell more when i get my pictures uploaded haha.. office is still boring.. *sulks*

oh ya oh ya! i wanna show off my pretty pretty pink nails!

so nice!! nvm about my dry and rough fingers!! look at the nails! i painted them myself leh! (gosh i so veri bimbo buay tahan).. can't see properly?

this one can see properly le ma?

wahahahaha.. too bad they lasted max 3 days.. today they look torn and tattered le.. oh well, i'm not one of those rich gers who can keep their hand off washing dishes or clothes okie..

enough of the craze over nails.. haha

i was rather upset yesterday cos i was looking for my fav underwear (yes i have a favourite, in fact a few favourites la) but it was nowhere to be found.. then thinking it must be my blur mama put it in her own cupboard le, i went to ask if she has seen it..

ma, you got see my white g-string?
huh? which one?
i only have one leh.. i wanna bathe le, can help me find? the black one oso can.
oh, that one. i forgot to tell you i was washing it...
then drop downstairs ar?
no, i tot the pail no more clothes le then i pour the water into the toilet bowl and flush lo.. then before i can save your black underwear it got flushed down le..
(stunned) what?!?!?!?!?! my favourite leh!!! y so sotong?
haha, few days back le i forgot to tell you..
that one very comfortable and nice to wear leh! triumph wan leh!! walau!
sorrie la.. i tot no more clothes le ma.. you go buy new one lo..
but that one is during robinson sale buy wan.. i like it alot!!! *pulls hair* then the white one leh?
i dunno la.. i go find.
@%!^#&(

so that's it.. i was so upset i told zw about it haha.. in fact i keep whining abt my got-flushed-down-the-toilet-bowl black g-string.. so i need to do some underwear shopping le.. i will buy the same one if possible.. haiz..

tried this from jasc's blog.. had nothing better to do..



i'm not a nerd!!

rite... *rolls eyes*

seems like recently i like to post little smses or messages.. keeping them in my hp inbox occupies space which makes my oredi slow hp slower.. and they run the risk of being accidentally deleted.. when i post them here.. at least i have the chance to look back and smile.. going through the memories again.. no matter for laughs or for tears.. it's a much better way than to cry over the messages i lost.. which i did more than enough for me to start posting them online..

the first time (all of sd's and frens') gone when i trade in my hp.. a tinge of sadness too overwhelming at that point in time..

the second time (bh's) which i kept for years gone when i accidentally deleted it while sleeping (dun ask me how i did it).. i cried buckets at jing's place man.. tho i always say it's the korean drama vcd we were watching..

the third time (all sm's) when i decided it was time to move on.. i cried for a long time..

the fourth time (my beloved dapig's folder) gone when i was too drunk to realise wat i was doing.. *smacks forehead* i had a 7x7=49 days of mourning over it.. not to mention the constant niaoing from dapig himself.. *bish* i dun mean to be exaggerated but tears did fall the moment i realise i deleted the folder.. *sobz*

the fifth time (all of k's) gone when my a800 decides it's too old to keep them.. see how fucked up technology can be.. i haven't seen those messages in months and finally when i thought i can look thru them before changing hp.. they decided to disappear.. some things are just not meant to be haha.. i've learnt to stop crying over him him.. ahem.. them..

the sixth and perhaps the 'stupidest' time.. (many of zw's) gone in a moment (okie a few moments..erm.. actually many moments) of anger.. did i cry over the messages i can't remember.. haha..

the above mentioned refers to hps smses only.. i did not include irc, icq, msn chat history..

there.. my reasons for posting messages once in a while all too often here.. hehe..

side note: i think the fourth time's the worst.. all my zy's j's gw's hs's ad's m's t's yl's zw's sg's smses gone leh!! GONE!!! DELETED!! (gosh seems like i haven gotten over it huh~)

(A goodnight sms forwarded)
HahA. DA pIg. EAt moRe thEn cutEr. LikE a rEaL pIg. HAhA
wa, thanks. just realised my thighs get fatter le.
...

tot it's quite funny la.. out of the blue tell me to eat more.. i'm telling you i AM piggin out like nobody's business!!

but too bad.. you still fatter than me.. muahahahahahahahah~

let me back track a little.. since i've got the photos available.. and yes.. it's another round of piggin out!!!
*muahahahahahahahaha*

7 June Tuesday



my calamari, rosti w cheese pork sausage, chunky mushroom soup and ice cream waffle!! (i had no choice but to choose banana since monkey is there *keke*) yummy yummy yum!! i had one helluva dinner on a tuesday!!

all of these as a pleasant surprise after a night of fight between monkey and me.. according to monkey, coming to pick me up from office and treat me to marche dinner was an act to appease me (i'm that fierce huh?!?!).. but oh well, like i said, it was indeed a pleasant surprise.. despite the "where to find this kind of bf?" etc self-boasting remarks by monkey after the dinner.. *shakes head*

there are guys more sweet lo.. for example in shoe sessions.. the entry on troubles.. go check it out..

by the way i left out a pic that finally made me laughed my head off (yeah yeah gone is all the anger and unhappiness!)


monkey eating banana!! lol
*rolls on floor*

i was browsing through my blog archives this morning.. and i realised how naive and childish i used to be (not that i'm not already).. it seems to me i start to kai1 qiao4 starting 3rd quarter of 2003.. which happens to be the time when my life was the most happening and at the same time messed up.. in terms of family (financial instability) and bgr..

and all thru this while i've received tremendous help from my friends (esp jasc n sean) during this period, listening to me, giving me advices.. or just simply being there.. i'm most appreciative of them..

if things weren't the way they were, then things won't be what they are today.. history cannot be re-written but it definitely can be prevented from repetition..
so yes i'm fine with it..

to me, i just don't like things to be hanging somewhere or nowhere.. just like when i had a big crush for sd during jc years i decided to tell him abt it before we graduate and i'm glad we did talk about what was going through our minds.. then when it comes to k, which obviously now i SEE the stupidity and impetuous side.. i did not have a chance to talk it out and get it out of my system. it's like going thru and recovering from an operation to remove a fork only to realise a small piece of metal was left inside of me.. haha.. not fatal, yet not fully rid of the fork.. on the other hand, i can pretend the metal is not there (but never that the fork hadn't been inside of me) or simply forget the existence of the metal (which is not possible too).. but of course i'm afraid going through another operation to remove the metal may diagnose me with other problems more severe. worst still, they may never be curable.. i don't know what to do.. just want to enjoy the simplicity of the company.. just like this one

"oei, what's ur msn?
oei, it is ------at hotmail.com..
oei, ok, add you le
oei, got fot it fit liao fiao la fa!"

oNe dAy, LovE mEt fRieNdsHiP. LovE aSkEd fRiEndsHiP, "wHy dO yOu eXiSt wHen i aLrEaDy eXiSt?" fRiEndShIp rEpLiEd, "tO pUt a sMiLe wHeRe yOu LeFt tEaRs..."

indeed, i'm smiling.. *grinz*

i was too stubborn and ignorant of the consequences back in those years (2 years ago oso very long le okie).. to actually be a third party, i must have been more than overwhelmed by my ideals (you noe, bballgoodlookinggentlesweetnicefunnyandall).. and i'm guilty for all the rubbish caused to my friends.. and at this moment in time i wanna say BIG thankyou to puiee.. a very forgiving person.. and with principles.. yeah, there were real bad times but she did not leave me at any point of them.. i just can't thank her enough la.. you know can le la hor haha..

i think the second period i started to kai1 qiao4 would be 2nd to 3rd quarter of 2004.. when again, my life seems to be the most happening and messed up.. (hey ppl really do grow in times of adversity eh?) with foc and rag going on, i started to meet my friends less.. ironically, i got to know more people (not friends) through the partying every wednesdays (and sometimes saturdays).. i became a bitch and did alot of things (sometimes ridiculous).. i tried smoking, stayed out all night, dirty danced, lied to sm just to name a few.. the short break in between foc and rag camp gave me an excellent opportunity to do some reflection.. i recognize the kind of life i wish for and the kind of person i want to be with.. in short i woke up. plus i met the person who made me make a decision. and to my pleasant surprise, i became what i am this very day..

zw has definitely tamed me alot alot haha.. he made me appreciate how much one can change (or give up) for a person you love.. he is what i hope for (although not exactly there yet haha).. at least now i can see a future and work towards it.. at least now i have the security i long sought after (yes, really LONG).. and recently, i finally prove i can study well if i want to (i'm still oh-so-fun-loving ok, not nerdy)..

despite that i have to admit that i miss those 'carefree' days.. minus the ridiculous doings.. i still want my gatherings and outings with pigumao(ses is me).. i still like the excitement of gg on dates (silly).. my long long dinners with gw yl matt.. my dinner dates with dapig.. i still wan many ktv and shopping sessions with the gals.. i still wan mahjong sessions at my place.. and i do miss the long meetings and preparation work for foc and rag..

i'm glad to become a better person.. i'm glad to see my friends becoming better and happier each day..

and with that.. life goes on.. =)

hello
hello ya?
forgot to say thank you la, so ya, thank you haha..
ha, silly la you.
wat..
(short pause)
okie, nothing else.
orh, bye bye
wait. i've got a question.
ya.. what?
er... aiya, nothing, dun wan to ask le.
ask la, what question?
er, nothing nothing. bye bye.
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hm.. what you wanna ask i think i roughly know. when you feel like asking le then ask ba.. go sleep le la. gdnite.
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verbal constipation.. lost for letters to put into words to form the question. this word hasn't appear for a long time. mixed emotions.

once again. the scar hidden underneath layers of concealers reveals the lack of lotion to soothe and lighten the texture.

dabee's a zombie in office today.. cos haven't slept last nite.. was @ jasc's bday chalet.. she's a real babe by the way.. birthday girl owas so chio wan hor?? anyhow.. i had fun, and i'm sure she did.. haha.. photos to be uploaded soon (once i on my comp at home) thanks pUieee for da desperate housewives episodes!! the ones i have at home is 15 and 16!!! so i shall need 17 to link it up! haha..

meeting 'pi' 'gu' and 'mao' is like realizing a lifelong dream haha. the pigumaoses finally gathered after 2 Loooooooonnnnnnngggg years.. when we were playing bridge upstairs in the bedroom, i suddenly missed the times during ESN so much.. i mean it's really SOOOOOOO MUCH.. so much i wan it back, i wan to cry.. at the same time i felt confused, wasted, overwhelming.. haha.. and seriously i'm looking forward to a dinenr or movie or mahjong or wateva outing.. i hope the one in black *muahaha* will not MIA again..

that aside, sports bike is cool. riding on it is even better.. taking a ride on it at night when the weather's so fine is ze best.. haha.. thanks kel for sending me home.. i wan more rides on bikes!! haha *cranky bee*

thanks jasc for da chalet.. have fun with all the presents! thanks da pig for taking care of my a800 (no matter how it looks now) *giggles*

tHiS eNtRy iS jUs fOR yOu.. jaScELyN tEo cHiN puaY!! mUaHhaHha

hAppY 21sT biRtHdAy tO yOu~

eNjOy tHiS sPeCiaL dAy oF yOuRs.. mAy aLL yOur dReAms bE fULfiLLeD aNd bE aS hEaLThY aS eVeR..

LoVe yA lOts!! *mUAckz*

as dabee's zoo trip tmr is cancelled, plus dabee thinks dabee&monkey deserve a little rewarding treat... dabee&monkey head down to tonkichi @ suntec for a sumptious dinner! after much thoughts.. (actually more like dilly-dally-ing) monkey decides on katsu don



while dabee decides to have something more 'dabee'.. kaisen don!!


dabee: the chawanmushi is fabulously fantastic! (erm, is it coorrreeecct 'inkerlish'?)
(monkey started gobbling down his katsu don while dabee savors the salmon and prawns..)

after dinner.. dabee wants more! monkey suggested hagen daz fondue.. dabee's eyes went *ting ting*.. wait, make that *TING TING!* and off they go hagen daz @ esplanade for that wonderful fondue!

(dabee&monkey browsing menu..)
monkey: eh, later you order hor, not sure if 'fondue' is read as 'forndew' or what..
dabee: aiya dunno just point to menu la! or ask the person how to read lo..
monkey: dun wan la, so sia suay..
dabee: rolls eyes. okie, i order lo..

and so dabee orders a fondue that serves 1.. (yes it's pronounced as 'forndew')
more than enough for two of them especially after tonkichi dinner..



at a cost of $15.90, dabee&monkey get to enjoy a real mini choc buffet *haha*.. four flavors of mini ice cream scoops (choc chip, coffee, vanilla, raspberry) to dip in hot choc followed by bits of nuts.. look at dabee!! salavating before she can put that ice cream scoop into her mouth!! *YUM* for the fruits.. there's green apple, banna and strawberry!! to dabee&monkey's preference, monkey only takes banana (duh) and dabee can have the rest! as monkey dun get to have more banana (they only give a few slices), monkey decides to take sips of melted chocolate for satisfaction.. *nehnehneh* dabee&monkey finally have enough of the chocolate fondue(actually dabee has more of the serving heh) and so leave the rest of the chocolate alone..

**BbBbBuUUuUuuuRrRrRrrrRRRrrPPppPPpppp**

let the picture do the speaking for me... *ecstasy*


wait a minute.. i think it's not enough man.. my best sem ever.. 3As leh!! ffwwaaahhh! power sia! mai siao siao okie.. muahahaha.. i wan to show off-------here lo.. who say i can't study i box them! haha.. (but then again it may be luck la) whatever the reasons... i'm still happy.. tis sem alone i got 4.4 leh!! but too bad past sems bu4 zheng1 qi4 so overall below 4 la.. but i'm still elated haha.. a little regret why never put s/u option for employee mgt.. if not my cap tis sem wil be 4.62+leh! haha.. then got chance to be on dean's list leh! what the h***.. nvm la.. i shall zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4!!

maybe zw's intelligence and luck pass to me liaoz.. *evil grin* for my last year i an relac abit liaoz la! as long as dun fall below 3.2 cap point can le la!! *hops around*

no no, not celebrating or treating anyone for good results.. haha, waiting for ppl treat me leh! haha.. back to work for now lo... -_-"

IT'S NOT YOUR CLOTHES.
IT'S NOT YOUR HANDWRITING.
IT'S NOT YOUR TV SHOWS.

IT'S YOUR WATCH THAT TELLS MOST ABOUT WHO YOU ARE.

Got this from the seiko website.. muahahaha... it's so zw.. i can't stand it i have to put in here.. *bleahz*

anyway.. i think this men's watch is really chio..


but then again this is not bad too..


so which looks nicer? haha personally i prefer the white one.. ha, just browsing the net as usual, when i taking break during work la.. so what do u think? haha.. *white one white one!* by the way it's seiko criteria SNA series.. bloody hell >$400..

let's continue with watch viewing muahaha.. i think the following tag heuer link watches are not bad too.. picture quality not very good la.. but can try the website.. it's so user friendly.. showing an array of their series!!!



you realise it's either black or white don't you? haha but what the hell, the other colors are not nice la! at least to me heh.. white gives that kind of 'prince charming' (and rich) look.. the black gives the cool, calm and sophisticated feel.. don't bother asking the prices of tag heuer.. *vomit blood* i think it's worth one europe tour per watch..

i'd love to continue with breitling and watnots.. but it's time for me to start packing for home! haha.. maybe tmr..