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ntu release of results today..

congrats to simon tho he thinks his results not tt good but i tot it's not bad wor..
congrats to siva too! *winkz*
to other friends.. now hols.. can work and play like crazy lar.. when the next sem starts.. we must b nerd liao wor.. jiayou jiayou okie! dun think too much now le! hee.. *hugz*
for now.. look forward to ur upcoming foc camps eh? and of cos look forward to seeing me? *silly grinz*

man survived the last ice age.. we can survive this one.. and the next, and the next.. only if we learn from our mistakes..
watched day after tmr at jurong theatre.. rather scary in the sense tt makes us really wonder when is the next ice age coming.. natural diasters are so so so devastating.. hurm.. made me interested in knowing more about hurricanes tho.. hur.. some conversations were witty and funny.. esp the part where they were arguing which books to burn and which books to not burn to keep themselves warm.. when another guy informed them there's a whole shelves of tax law books to burn.. *haha*
after the movie went to coffeeshop for teh peng.. met huat and gang there, drinking beer and smoking and chitchatting.. they left earlier.. we left around 11.30pm.. simpe and enjoyable night.. thanks matt..

it was a funfilled day at changi naval base open house.. at the same time tiring helping out at the games booth for the whole day..

for the first time in weeks.. perhaps even months.. i woke up at 5am on saturday morning.. prepared my stuff to bring and eventually dragged my heavy legs outta house at 6am.. i managed to catch the first bus at 6.03am!! *weeeeeeee* unfortunately the bus crawled.. now i wonder if i'd have reached the interchange faster by foot.. haiz.. anyway i was glad to hav boarded the train and slept all the way to bedok station.. was stoning on the way walking to bedok mac.. i din even hear yingyin calling me from behind.. hur~ *gongz gongz*

so.. happily chit chatted w the gang on our way to the naval base after which we were divided into various groups.. so me wendy coreen were i/cs for the outdoor games gladiator and sumo wrestling.. my my.. before 12pm there aren't many visitors since the open house was open to public only after 12.. we were basically wearing the event's company's super duper oversized tshirts, roasting ourselves under the scorching sun.. before long.. the exposed parts of our body were red.. hated myself for not bringing along a cap.. at least to protect my face.. argh.. *bang my head on wall*

while we were rotting and meanwhile getting to know one another better.. yihui called! she has graduated w diploma in busines administration.. got herself a job at KEA as a marketing assistant.. she don wan me to tell my parents first.. wait til she start work and settled down in the environment then let others know.. hee.. well, happie for her!!! *smilez* jus when i hung up w her, there's this army truck driving past our station.. i was standing near the entrance facing the truck.. then this guy popped his head outta window and said hi.. harhar.. i tot it was a rather idiotic action.. but oh well, i returned the greeting, since there's nothing better to do anyway.. hur~

later on in the day i was asked to help the rodeo bull station.. i learnt how to control the bull manually leh!! *woohoo* got to know 2 friends who are i/cs for the station as well.. andy and guowei.. they taught me how to control the spinning speed and buck speed of the bull.. it's interesting and i must say suitable for sadistic ppl like me.. guowei said just make them fall.. *evil laughter* and so i did, happily! along the way met some interesting children, students, teens, parents and etc who chatted with me.. at least made my day not so boring wor.. it was fun suaning crapping and yakking away w my new friends and some of the perm staff of the events company who came over to help, slack wateva.. *shrugs*

i din eat much for lunch so by the time we can go home, i'm starving.. plus my back is aching due to the long hours of standing, carrying children blablabla.. i was roasted, tired, stinking like shit, in pain cos of blisters on my feet.. we intended to take the shuttle svs to expo then take train back home.. but the queue is like dunno how many miles long we couldn't even see the starting point.. plus many ppl are cutting queue.. some of the guys tried calling for cab but there are actually no cab available!!!! *shocked* can you believe it.. NO cab available.. haiz.. tt place is so darn ulu no cabs want to come in.. eventually jac's mum fetched us to tanah merah ferry terminal.. me adel coreen took cab to raffles place (coreen's having dinner there) then me adel took train home.. is the day eventful or wat.. *heehee*

totally worn out from the day's activities.. i concussed soon after i reached home.. only to be constantly awaken by the calls from i cant remember who.. i don shut off my hp cos i think it's safer jus in case there's any emergency calls.. so i kept answering them but i guessed i must haf sounded super pissed off with my gosh!-i'm-sleepin-can-u-dun-bother-me-if-not-i'll-kill-u 'hello', so no one managed to make me listen or even remember who they are.. *hur hur*

a little pinch of regret.. i din get on to the ships and took a ride, take a look at the interior.. well.. there'll b a next time eh?

barely 3 more days to the end of may.. and my sms usage's way beyond the limit of 700.. means my bill's enuff to make me bankrupt.. since i don't have much to start with..o_O

singapore's mid year sale has started but i wont b able to benefit much from it cos i'm broke.. at least for now.. -_-"

"Hong Chuanhui! Hong Chuanhui! Such a nice name i always remember..." adapted from a msg i received from my pr1 friend huifen thru friendster.. yes.. friendster's kokked up now and then.. but it still works wonders at times for me.. *winkz* the feeling of meeting old friends online then meet up and catch up on wat's gg on in one another's life is simply amazing.. reminds me of how my life was like then.. *hee*
to be frank, my p1 to p4 memories were pretty vague.. until msgs come flowing in.. the names.. like yuyan yuhua rex raineer yaowei started popping out one by one.. hope to find them all.. not too ambitious rite.. haha.. then perhaps gather.. i guess it'll b great fun bar.. *hehe*

freaking incident
i was on bus 143 gg to je interchange around 830pm.. the bus stopped at a junction beside the tree before turning right to the interchange.. i was looking out of da window..
I FREAKING SAW A MAN WALKING INTO THE TREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i sms jasc immediately.. the whole thing happened so damn fast lor..
the first tot was reflection from the bus window tt makes it like tt? proven wrong when i turn to see no roughly age 60 man on da bus..
second tot was the man walked round the tree to the other side but parallex error so look like walking into it? proven wrong when there are fences at both sides of the tree and the tree's not tt big for me to not see the man walk over the other side..
conclusion.. i don even know whether it's a man tt i saw.. *shudders*
i hate to be reminded of this.. it's darn FREAKING to me.. i swear i won't look out to tt bloody tree ever.. i do not want to be near it even if possible.. don't ask me to show you which tree or which junction wateva.. *hair stands*

gotta wake up super duper EARLY tmr.. cos need to reach Bedok at bloody 7am! *pulls hair*
i know i'm whiny but i jus cant help it.. such a pig like me needs sleep.. lots of them.. guess i'll be like a walking zombie tmr.. perhaps seeing familiar faces coming for the carnival will be great! *hopeful*
rite now.. i'll go zzzzzing...

man are apt to offend.. where they find most goodness to forgive.. to err is human; to forgive, divine.. i'm but human..
true, like all said, definitely aint a deliberate act whatsoeva.. it's the repetition i hate.. dodobird knows it best mayb?
heeded gaozi's advice, tried sorting out the root prob of recurrence.. if only she listens.. if only she'll put down her i'm-ur-mother-so-i-noe-best attitude to TALK and LISTEN to me..
but i won't give up yet..
sometimes i think it's a pity my parents arent actors..

Patience, n. A minor form of despair, disguised as a virtue..
preservation of patience can only be for so long..
quarrels sparked off when anguish was too much to bear..
thoughts of 'i ought to be cherished this and that way by so-and-so' triumphed with egotistical approach..
break-ups sometimes occur when intolerance replaced acceptance and forgiveness..
perfect love is rare indeed..for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain..
if i seek perfection in love where evidently it isn't viable ever, i'd most probably remain a spinster..
but no harm for some who chose to perceive as reaching for the stars and fall on the clouds..
most of us agrees that we're never lonely, there's someone who dreams of our smile,
and finds in our presence that life is worth while..
but we are never satisfied aren't we?
for we do not consider those whom we don't know, neglect, overlooked or even detest as 'someone'..
anyhow.. don't allow defeats to cast shadows on imminent dreams..
minor despairs tt disguise as virtues like it or not.. carries us a long way..

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck... i am fuming..
my black BUM top, yellow doggy tshirt and saints tshirt tt i've worn only once got spoilt during wash..
this is for dunno how many fuck times my clothes are spoilt..
so u noe y i owas wear the same few tops..
i meant to wash them myself.. but cant find them, so i panicked..
found them in one of the pails my mum washes the clothes..
i was too late to save them from discoloring..
FUCK.. i am not calling home and not coming home..
call me childish and irresponsible..
i don't give fucking care
those who know what it's always like should understand..
sth wrong with the fucking pails and detergent? i think it's more like the fucking problem with my mum..
asked her what happened and she just fucking shrugs..
not even a fucking sorry said..
so she's fucking glad to see my clothes getting spoilt then i have to buy again lar? then she'll say i anyhow spend money and refuse to give me allowance?
or i have to spent my own savings or salary then she will complain i owas buy my own stuff and never care about family?
i fucking don't give a shite anymore about this family..
if not for my sister you fucking think i'll be here smiling huh, mum?
what the fuck.. sorrie abt my usage of the word..
i wish i can be gone for good..

happy happy 19th birthday to weikien~!
stay pretty and 18 yr every year from now on yeah yonghui!! keke, happy birthday! can't wait to see you with rebonded hair!
old guy shaoyong.. 23rd year on earth sia.. haha! enjoy!

release of results today..
mno A-
Mgt Acct C+
Finance C+
Nature of Lang B+
Social Work A-
overall cap score of 3.55, better than last sem 3.5.. appalled by my finance though.. always don like to see grade C in my results.. haiz.. but then given the effort and my noy-so-interested-in-it attitude, i ought to be satisfied.. o_0

who has the right about judging another?
is keeping a smiley face then curse and swear behind the person unacceptable?
tell me about quality service when serving customers..
is staying calm and cold towards adversity, overcoming it ruthlessly high EQ?

self centered.. we all are but human beings..
stop all the humans are intelligent, best beings blablabla shite..
we may be intelligent or superior to other kinds in our view..
what makes you think the chickens and cows aren't looking down on how pathetic we humans can be?

well, just some random thoughts here..

i tot there was no jap restaurant at bugis junction.. so i was wrong, sua ku me.. haha.. had dinner with sean da pig at chanko masakatsu restaurant in a ulu corner (oh oh think i forgot which corner even..) initially wanted to makan at tampines mall cos i was at expo giving out chinablack flyers for fund raising.. ended up we changed location to bugis so he came down since there's more variety of food hehz.. after dinner da pig wanted dessert so decided to go intercontinental hotel see the pastries and cakes.. bought four portions at 50% off.. they owas sell the pastries at half price from 8pm to 9pm.. yep, haha.. we finished 2 portions and i brought home the remaining 2.. haha, thanks ya!

i had a good time, tho initially was upset by a quarrel before da pig came.. poor him gotta bear with my black face and whiny complaints.. he had to entertain me, haha, oops.. thanks for picking up the tab too wor.. he had tempura set, me had unagi set.. the shake sashimi was delicious, at least to me.. tot it was abit ex even with 50% off le.. dunno whether u really don wan it or let me finish them off haha.. but thanks anyway..

feels comfortable when out with da pig.. can just crap and crap and crap.. looked at the messages in my hp he's holding.. deleted many of them le.. kept those that still gives me some amusement harhar.. he was pretty much amazed by the smses he sent as well.. muahahaha.. 4 of us haven't met up for a long time, even when the last time 3 of us went out was last year to catch infernal affairs like he said.. hurm. okie, shall see when we can meet up sometime soon okie.. i guess it's known i do miss those days la so no need to keep repeating when i noe it's almost impossible it'll happen.. yep..

a man who lives by the day receiving income on the basis of the number of girls he get to sign up as porn stars or prostitutes..

a woman who is a music teacher in a girls' college..

she had a one night stand with him in an attempt to escape from her mundane routine.. before she get married to 'A'..

ended up they fell in love with each other despite their differences..

multiple barriers lay ahead..

the man got involved with the police and underground guys after being betrayed by his boss..

she cancelled her wedding, forced to quit teaching and left her home due to numerous harsh rumours..

finally after overcoming all problems, they were united as one..

she was ready to break the news of her pregnancy on xmas eve a year later, preparing a sumptuous meal awaiting for his return from work..

he bought her favourite strawberry shortcake from her favourite confectionary before setting for home..

but he never got home.. he did not get to hear the news of her pregnancy.. he never will see the arrival of their child..

he was stabbed by 'A' on his way home while walking thru an underpass..

"a toast to sweet revenge," was all that 'A' said followed by a cynical laughter before he left..

the man staggered a few moments then fell to the ground..

the last thing he did was to think of her and wish for her happiness..

went rag FIC on wed.. the most tiring one so far.. walking a long long distance the whole day.. even got chased by a big black ugly dog from one of the warehouses.. *phew* good thing the owner caught hold of it just in time before my wits were totally out of me..

met puiee yongaling qian nel at chinablack later in the evening for a chill only to realise it was rather packed with members dur to its 3rd yr anniversary.. met some friends there.. we stayed for a short while before gg to mambo..

took a cab down to zouk only to find the queue so darn long.. even phuture's queue was horrendously long.. heng i remembered joseph was there so gave him a ring.. then so he got all 5 of us in within 5 mins of our arrival.. thanks man! i know i can be such an ass but the angry cum bewildered cum bu4 shuang3 looks of the many ppl in the queue gave me a good feeling i haven't felt before.. *grinz*

was a little too wild for me.. 1 whiskey 1 brandy 2 lambo some vodka some heineken and i'm almost gone.. conscious but cant walk in a straight line.. thank god the gals were there.. *big hugz* we had fun teasing one another, dancing and meeting ppl.. too bad phuture's so packed.. so we were stuck at mambo.. nvm.. had fun anyway..

by the time i got home, was awake, drank lots of water and hot tea to cear my mind.. packed my stuff and clothes for FIC on thurs.. bathed.. slept! only to wake up in the morning today with a sore sore sore sore throat.. cant even speak properly when answer phonecalls.. darn.. in the end.. CANNOT MAKE IT for FIC.. so angry with myself can??? argh.. felt bad to CMI last min.. then some more not many ppl turn up this time.. if only FIC no need much of my voice.. *sigh*

anyway i hope the remaining FICs i'll be well and okie for them.. no more drinks for me on wed nite if FIC on thurs morn! *promise!*

watched blood brothers this week, it has an intersting twist.. not as fantastic as infernal affairs but good enough.. yeah..
had sake sushi student buffet too.. yum yum!!!
my first time in crystal jade for dinner and the food's great!! dessert was a disappointment tho.. the one with the mixed fruit and another with glutinous rice.. totally sucks..
van helsing's not bad too.. some parts were funny.. some gave me a few frights.. i rate it 3.5 stars...

wow! blogger has a new erm.. look? har, anyhow...

encounter 1

nurse1: yesterday i went holland v flea market, quite interesting..
nurse2: wat flea market?
nurse1: neh, those place tt sells 2nd hand stuff, stalls in open air, tt kind lar..
nurse2: orh.. y call flea market? which 'flea'? cannot be f-l-e-a 'flea' rite?
nurse1: no lar.. not f-l-e-a.. i think is f-l-e-e.. yep..
nurse2: i see..
me: *frown* ?!?!?!?!

was on my way to bras basah on monday for choosing paper color when i overheard the 2 sgh nurses beside me on the mrt talking.. wanted to concentrate on my book but they were audible so heh..

encounter 2

me: *walking fast fast* (cos already late meeting isabel steve francis jean at bras basah)
man1: *walking beside me* hey girl, where are you going?
me: *look at him* huh?!?!
man2: xiao meimei, why walk so fast? gg where?
me: *ignore and walk faster*
man1: eh, don walk so fast leh, wat's ur name? don scared, fren fren only..
man2: ya lo, where u wan go, we pei2 you la..
me: *walk even faster* (irritated and abit scared)

fwah.. the 2 guys really irritating.. aged abt mid 20s bar.. follow me to bras basah! heng i continue ignore them then i went up the escalator they never follow liaoz.. took out my hp to act busy.. hur~ tho man1 is quite cute.. *brrrrr*

encounter 3

mrt: door closing... dood dood dood dood... next stop, tiong bahru
me: reading my story book
man3: hey! is this agatha christie? i love her books too! where you get this book?
me: erm.. *smile* got it frm book fair..
man3: i see, so you still studying?
me: ya, uni.. *continue to read*
man3: how old are you?
me: *frown* huh?!?! er, 20..
man3: gg home? can i know ur name?
me: *puzzled* ya, gg home.. erm, i don think u need to know my name..
man3: oh.. er, i'm mark by the way, tot can b frens since we have common interest *points to my book*
me: hur, hmmm, hi mark, you mind i jus continue with my reading?
mark: *shrugs*
me: *lowers head to read*

rite, this happend on my way home on monday from bugis.. am pretty amazed by them this day.. the last 2 kept me puzzled and annoyed though.. *?!?!?!?*

met yonghui at bugis to shop after my rag stuff at bras basah.. was not hungry so decided to shop around..
seiyu has super sale storewide! muji 30-70%!
i bought 2 sets or underwear from pierre cardin for $25..
we then proceeded to level 1 to smell fragrances.. like 'summer' from gucci (if my memory doesn't fail me) and this fragrance from anna sui.. forgot the name.. hee..
we walked to OG too.. there's sale there too.. OP has season clearance sale.. i bought a pair of OP shorts and a pouch for my sister $30.. tot she'll like them so yep.. *smilez*

alrite, i noe i'm not working shouldn't spend so much.. haiz.. the worst thing is i got a job lobang in a office but i cant work!!! like i said becos of my schedule i can only work in the evening or night.. *sadz* and office job is in da good o shine morning..

anyway, tue gg sake sushi student buffet! then after that meeting another fren for dinner! i shall b a glutton!!! *munchy crunchy yummy goodie~!*

the very first official rag FIC proved my physical weakness... esp my back...

was supposed to reach yio chu kang mrt station at 830am.. darn early can!?!?! it's been many donkey years since i dragged myself out of bed as early as 645am.. hur~ slept on the train and woke up 2 stops after my destination.. woohoo, how nice.. but then i still reached before 830am at yio chu kang.. *grinz*

there were 16 of us.. isabel val kailee apple diana alice seok me larry yantyng francis jean kevin jacq steve ronnie.. we split up into 4 groups to cover different blocks of the amk industrial parks.. break for lunch at about 1230, continued with FIC at 130 til abt 330.. it was tiring, not easy also, esp when some ppl are so unfriendly.. some even 'diao' us! or look at us like we're aliens.. *bish bash*

however, we do meet ppl who are rather spontaneous.. some even interesting.. *heehee* one of the companies we approached, the HR personnel actually introduced us to her collegues so that we can speak to them regarding our FIC.. still remember her name's veron.. *thumbs up* hope i'll meet as many ppl as nice as her in my remanining 11 FICs!!! *prays hard hard* there's another company we went to, the employees were 'talkative'.. tho they din give much, the short interaction with them certainly added at least a teeny weeny bit of spice to my day.. *muahahaha* then there's this auntie who's talks a whole lot but gave quite alot too.. *hiakz*.. her son happens to be in nus too! perhaps that explains her generosity.. *nods head*

i havent found my bed so comfortable for some time.. havent tot sitting down on a chair drinking water is such a blessing.. til today.. having slacked the whole sem without exercising... today's walk definitely gave my body a 'teaching'.. shall get my arse out to do a little bit of exercise soon.. i did mention i hate exercising yeah? *sulks* oh well.. we shall see.. my next FIc's on friday... wish me luck..

did a little schedule planning for may and june, slotting in all the possible FICs i haf to complete together with FOC com stuff to help in.. guess wat? i can work! only at night.. how 'great' can this be.. i have an average of 3 day rest per week including weekends! *sheesh* rite... i need a contingency plan.. or contingency planS...*pulls hair*

i'll love to give more details regarding FIC cos it's rather enjoyable but i'm damn shack.. meeting zhou gong after watching american's next top model! *skips around*

happy birthday to yanting~!

it's always nice to meet up with friends and have dinner, sit around and chat..

had dinner at pastamania-cine (020504) with ben junming jinglin wanhui valerie.. finally got my free pasta with the completed stamped card! hee.. chat and yak abit before proceeding to paragon for gelato ice cream!!!!!!!! yummy yum yum.. i luurrrrrrve ice cream!!!!!!!!

well, jinglin's working at iras while wanhui's working at sph.. val still looking for a job.. seeing all of them work.. i oso want to.. but i can't blame anyone for not being able to settle for a stable job since i've already put myself into quite abit of committments in sch.. with foc and rnf gg on, it's unlikely i can get the job i want.. worst come to worst i shall commit to teaching tuition.. hurm.. but then considering the financial crisis i'm in, i don think i've got much of a choice yeah.. shall hope to hear good news from yongling regarding the $9 per hr job.. *cross fingers*

well, meanwhile i shall continue on my bikini hunt and hopefully do all the things i wanna do this hols!

anyway, 50 first dates is a really sweet movie.. can't help wondering if i'll b able to find someone who can make me fall in love with him everyday.. feeling ever so fresh with him, so u noe.. things will never get dull or become boring with him around.. *slaps head* wake up! haiz.. this kind of things only happen in movies right? hurm.. *shrugs*