i noticed some incoherence in my previous post.. but what the heck.. haha..

my p5 tuition kid refuses to have tuition today.. i'm glad i won't miss my desperate housewives.. i'm glad i dun have to travel all the way to cck.. but there GOES MY MONEY!!!!!!!! argh... i'm broke broke broke.. OH-SO-BROKE... what the f***.. i need the money.. my goodness.. it's the great singapore sale leh!!!! wah biangz.. that's it la.. there goes my shopping spree.. *ppooooooffff* and i still haven clear my debt leh! i still owe him $400 BIG bucks!! what the hell.. my internship pays me minimum!!! and if i take leave they deduct the pay!! *puiee* SUPER SUPER PUIEE!!! *pounds table stomps foot* and i wanna get my dear good pressie!!
Seems like i can't rebond hair and shop le.. no ktv no movie.. can only window shop and at most cut hair.. *Baaaaaaaaa*

Meanwhile i dunno what to get for my dear fren... *scratches head*

me, zw and some other frens were at a restaurant having dinner.. then 2 guys walked towards our table. one started putting his arm around one of my frens saying hi.. and the other seemed interested in zw's hair.. so he started playing around with his hair, while looking seductively at the my guy fren opposite him.. i realised they are gays.. i'm not against them but i just thought it's weird for them to just come over.. then i looked across the restaurant.. i saw a table of 6 girls all dressed up 'gothly'.. why they hell were they dressed up like that in a chinese restaurant?? i was intrigued, so i continued staring at them fumbling with their chopsticks and asking one another how to eat the beiking roast duck.. meanwhile zw was totally disgusted with the 2 strangers who tried to make frens with them.. i frowned real hard and wanted to ask them to leave.. then i saw there were other men behind me, all looked weird.. they are cross dressers..
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then i woke up.. W-E-I-R-D dream i had.. is it a hint for me to buy 4D?? hurm.. *ponders*
anyhow, i took the trouble to leave house early (7.15am) so tat i can reach office before 830.. and guess what? the bus broke down.. i was late for 15 minutes in the end.. is this bad luck or is this bad luck? urgh.. disgusted.. i haven been punctual this whole week! *gaaaaaaaaaaaa*
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yesterday went party world ktv @ orchard.. jh's birthday.. my first time gg ktv with them.. jh sing DAMN NICE la! the best i've heard so far.. yes yes.. MUCH better than mel.. haha.. my goodness.. when he started singing i just went *stuuuuunnnnnneeeedddd*... cos it's so nice la.. haha.. i had fun.. but not so much fun cos nobody rap with me.. they dun like to rap.. *sulk* anyway, zw sing very nice too leh!! muahahaha.. before gg ktv we were walking around la.. then i keep noticing gers looking at him.. is it just me? what? just becos he look better in shirt and pants? *pui* he said they are just looking at his shirt maybe.. *huh?!?!* i told him it's a girls' thing.. i can't help but notice.. then i told him dun wear this shirt le.. haha he gave me that you-are-crazy look.. *bish*
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back to work.. "gd morning, may i speak to... hi i'm calling from... we're obtaining feedback regarding.. if you complete this survey we'll send you... within a few weeks.. can you spare me a few minutes..."
(-_-)zZZz

quite many things have happened the past week.. i hardly have the time to have enough sleep until yesterday night..

17may tuesday
went cuppage party world sunlight city celebrate wanhui's 21st birthday.. i had fun.. cos really very long never sing with them.. especially since i missed shuhui's celebration the previous week.. let's see.. 7 of us went.. wanhui shuhui me jingling inez ben and jm.. by the time i reached home and had a decent bath.. it's like past 1am.. and i had to wake up at 645am the next morning!
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18may wednesday
keep yawning during work.. my collegue told me my eyebags are getting obvious.. after work i went for tuition and my gosh.. i actually fell asleep while teaching them for the first time.. in the end i couldn't take it anymore i called it a day, ending tuition half hour earlier.. then i went home, bathed, and collapsed after 1am.
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19may thursday
yonghui's 21st bday celebration at aranda country club that evening.. my dear came to pick me up at my workplace! hee.. then took a bloody long train ride to pasir ris.. it'snice seeing the uni gang.. haven't met them since end of exams.. we entertained ourselves.. taking photos, playing cards, talking rubbish.. hehz.. left at abt 1030 and guess ehat timei reached home? 1230! then bathed and again.. i collapsed after 1am.. by that time i looked like a panda..
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20may friday
went to work a little later today cos i overslept.. TGIF! my productivity was super low today.. and we even took a 1hr15min lunch! when by rite my lunchtime was only 45mins.. haiz.. we surfed the net, chat online, eat the sweets and cakes other collegues bought and gossiped.. managed to call 25 customers today only, when my target was 30.. after work, my dear came to meet me and we went to old airport road market to eat dinner! it'sour first time there.. the market is so darn huge!! you know you get spoilt for choices when there's so many kinds of nice food.. in the end, we decided on wanton mee andhalf a herbal chicken!

this is the stall as introduced by the channel U program.. and there's my dear collecting our wanton mee! queue number 100~

tadah!! my $2 wanton noodle!!

*salavating* presenting da delicacy.. herbal chicken!!!

GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE GUYS

i'm not sure is it a good or bad thing to cry over the person you love, for the things he did, for the things i did that upset him, for the rough times, whatever.. i'm a crybaby or almost one, but never in my life have i cried so hard and so much over a person. and to think that i'm a strong believer of 'the only man worth crying for is the one who knows he can but will never make you cry' *slaps myself* wake up please..

i wonder what are guys made of. whenever there's a problem, they say sorry and if that's not enough, they ask what the gals want them to do. when the gals say dunno, the guys go berserk and decide there's nothing else to be done.. when gals are more concerned about the way problems are solved, they way they deal with them.. depending on the situation and time and other things that happened.. they do things not understanding why they are doing it, just for the fact that the gals asked for it.. they stand by strong to their thinking and don't agree to the gals' way of thinking. when things turn bad, they rake up the fact that they din even think they should've done what they did and that the gals are just sensitive and worrisome creatures making their lives stressful.. they see minor problems as minor problems, ignoring the little details which can grow big without proper dealings. they think they do not need to agree with the gals as long as they do what the gals like, which worsens the viscious cycle when they rake up their 'reluctance'.. they become angry when talking about the little details the gals mention which the guys think are of no issue. their anger overpowers the gals ability to convey their feelings and importance of these details. they are able to act as if nothing has ever happened before the next instant when either the problem is solved or not. and perhaps the most brilliant of all which the gals falls for.. they have the ability to make the whole situation turnaraound.. it becomes the gals' fault or wrongdoing to start with..

at least it almost holds for me.. i feel so so tired at this moment in time with us.. a whole day's absence resulted in at least 8 calls for a comforting assurance. which happened to not be fulfilled, driving the level of worry uneasiness and anger.. turn out it was unintentional, last minute, only a short while (30mins).. so i wasn't subjected to the liberty to be angry. (when in the first place the whole day's absence is enuff to drive me crazy.. not mentioning the 30mins) nvm abt tt, since i know it was unintentional.. then came the "what u wan me to do" strategy that ignites the fury.. i should be sedated by all these times.. but it's a first offence doing so there's no second time according to him.. i dunno how to say it's not the first time u used this strategy (and it is this that matters).. i felt like i'm running a program, manipulating to my pleasure.. worse still when he said he dun deserve 'punishment' it wasn't a grave sin. true it wasn't a grave sin but i'll feel guilty and try to do something to make up.. oh well, he isn't me and so i'm not allowed to judge.. like i said. i'm really tired.. i want a break..

i shall go use my 'toothpaste strategy' to prevent swollen eyes.. i dun wan to look like a puffer on my first day of work!

-to my dearest (ya u still are cos i get upset over the tiniest thing with u).. i dunno if this is considered immature but i will run away when i'm tired.. there are so many things i don't like and i know i can never change them. i don't want to be the silly woman who thinks she can change a man.. i'm sure there are many things you don't like about me. i'm getting incoherent already, damn it.. what i'm tryng to say is, i wish you can understand girls.. there's no harm speaking to others, asking your friends or others.. there are so many things i don't know how to tell you.. and whenever u become irritated when i want to tell you, the words disappear to the back of my brains, it's really difficult for me to talk. i'm beginning to think my tears are of no use since u think i'm a crybaby.. but i can tell you there is not a single time my tears fall for the sake of falling.. while you may think guys are just different and girls' thinking are weird.. i still wish u can understand.. i want to understand you but i dun seem to be doing well.. i'm really tired now.. really.. dun even think that i'm just pmsing.. i'm sorry, for worrying, for calling u at that time, for being angry at you.. when each and everytime there's such a coincidence or excuse that condemns my feelings.. as much as i feel wronged, feel angry to be treated the way i was, to hear those hurting words (either with or without ur knowing), for each time i cried that made u think i'm just a crybaby.. i'm SORRY.. -

my my.. i can feel the 'extras' accumulating around my waist and thighs.. from the amount of food i've consumed and failed to be worked away by my declining metabolism rate.. urgh..
had steamboat dinner @marina south.. now my stomach's full of prawns and all kinds of shrooms they hav.. *buuuuurrrrrrpppp* then went to harry's esplanade to chill out.. i'm not a fan of beer.. neither a fan for contemporary jazz.. but the company's enough reason to go.. haha..


my bbq prawns!!!

what time is it? it's tiger time! *lame*

m asked me what's so good or bad abt zw, this made me think through it seriously.. ended up not saying cos he's paiseh ha! hurm.. in short.. i think i like the fact that he has an idea of what he wants in life and works hard for it.. isn't this trait just so attractive? *nods furiously* doesn't matter the present value.. as long as the future value will be infinity as quoted from mr teoh muhahaha.. perhaps he can be more open minded.. i feel there's potential for him to see more and be more accepting.. yep.. haha..

yes, it's another round of pigging out today!

wanted to watch 1245 movie but ended up sleeping and sleeping.. catched the 1530 kingdom of heaven @ cine instead.. hmmm, orlando bloom's still good-looking.. without blue eyes and blonde hair haha.. the movie's to me.. nice! like jasc said made me think but not much impact.. other than that, i like the war scenes.. fighting scenes.. so bloody and so COOL! muahahaha.. oh ya, that reminds me nel mentioned i'll like house of wax haha.. by the way, we bought nachos @ cine and i felt so bloody hell cheated la! the cheese has no chesse taste and looks so orangy.. zw said it taste like they put pepper and flour and water only.. it sucks totally.. and the chips' so little! the only consolation is the chips alone taste better than GV ones haha..


see, the cheese's so watery.. *puke*

before the movie we went taka for some finger food.. there's a sale @taka square.. women's shoes and bags.. until 23may.. guess? bags going at 50%! i think i'll go down again.. saw a couple quite nice ones.. and affordable haha.. do go down and take a look ya? haha

dinner @amk central.. 2 of us had chix cutlet, prawn mee and lor mee.. it's PIGGING OUT! haha.. nice nice.. finger lickin good leh! how the hell do they fry that chix til so crispy and tasty? gosh, i'm starting to get hungry now..

after dinner went to visit yihui.. her baby boy's so adorable!! my gosh.. a cousin 2 days older than me is already a mother!! her husband's only 23yrs old! and he happens to be zw's sec sch mate!! haha.. is singapore small or what? anyhow, they related their story on the day of giving birth to me.. haha she made it sound so easy! and she plans to have 3 children.. when she asked when will it be my turn i said maybe 10yrs later.. then she said "my! then my youngest child will be 4yrs and oldest 10 le leh!" well, i told her it's different la.. her husband love kids so much and they are looking for a different kind of lifestyle from me.. i mean it's not up to me to have how many children rite.. have to see my partner oso ma.. so then she asked me in a soft tone (i think zw din hear it la) "orh, he don't like children is it?" haha i laughed and replied "how you know he'll be the father of my children?"

so we continued chatting, playing with her baby, taking photos.. i told her when i went to shop for something for the baby and when i see her baby i want to have my own too! haha.. so silly hor.. you know it's indescripable when i see that kind of tenderness in her eyes when she look at her baby.. *awwwwww*

so cute rite?? he's brendon.. the 2 week old member of the family! haha

finally i get to sing my ktv todayeeeeee!!! wheeeeeeewwwwwheeeeee!!! *gaaa*

woke up early in the morning (but still late meeting jasc).. accompanied her to terminate her california membership.. walked around awhile, had lunch and walk around some more.. before going back to je kbox to sing! cine kbox didn't have student promo and it's $12+++ 2to7pm.. je kbox student promo $6+++ 2to7pm.. why not rite? so four of us (nel qian jasc me) ended up paying $10.50 each.. if more ppl go, will be cheaper la.. cos the tidbits charge is fixed wan.. muahahaha.. date me date me! i still wanna sing!

i shall say it again.. i love my gals!! they are a hell of fun!! took alot of photos.. silly photos funny photos, scary photos.. blablabla.. will upload and put the link soon.. i laughed til i teared and my jaws and stomach ache when i looked at them.. hmmm, perhaps one downside would be the bloody cold room la.. it's so so cold!! *shivers* hehz.. it was superb fun nevertheless!

went to makan dinner @ chomp chomp after ktv.. with my dear! haha. we're so pig.. okieokie.. i'm so pig.. finished almost the whole stingray alone! simply love it! yummalicious! why is all the nice food good food i like in the north or east? argh... i wanna move to the north.. haha

i wonder what's the problem with savings and insurance plans outdoor direct selling (esp jurong east interchange cos i go there most frquently) they are getting on my nerves with each time they approach me with such a fake smile and then asking "hi, can you take a few minutes to help me with this survey?" or "hi miss, are you a student or are you working?"

bloody hell almost the majority knows this is no fucking survey la.. just trying to make us stop, listen to you and give you our information so you can gather cust database.. hopefully sign up a plan or two with you rite? i know it's not the sales ppl's fault la, they're working afterall.. is this method really effective? i really didn't mean to be so rude or bitch when someone attempts to stop me.. initially i'll return their greeting and listen for a while when i have the time.. when it comes to the third or fourth time, i just smiled and said "i don't want to waste your time but sorry i'm not interested" or "i'm late for my work, in a rush, sorry".. sometimes i tried pretending talking on my phone or simply plug on my earpiece. i'm surprised listening to music doesn't help, they'll wave at you and stand in front of you just so you can stop.. come to think of it, it's kind of rude isn't it?

recently when i see them wandering around the compound on my way down on the escalator, i'll start to frown, cringe my face up like i had a really bad day or pms.. giving them the you-better-don't-talk-to-me-or-i'll-bite-your-head-off look.. ha.. it works, most of the time la.. or i'll walk real fast (not much use cos the guys will walk as fast and talk to u at the same time).. sometimes i'll start talking to prevent them from asking questions. "i know, you are from blablabla, it's abt savings and insurance plan rite? many of your collegues have told me. i'm still studying and i don't want any plans until i graduate." then i'll walk off.

i'm not sure how effective their selling methods are or how stiff the competition is with all the banks trying to sell their plans.. but this method is simply getting on i believe, many ppl's nerves. not to mention some of the sales people are trying too hard and it's intimidating.. (i'll be shocked if they're taught to be intimidating) consequences on potential customers like me is not pleasant at all, i'll bitch them, be mean if they step on my toes. some of you may be thinking if each time the person who approached me is not the same, then it's unfair to be mean to them.. DO I HAVE TO CARE? anyway, i've met more than one person who tried to stop me twice within 3 hours on the same day..

i just hope someone brlliant come up with a better direct selling approach.. it's not nice to see the sales people chasing after people and cheating them by asking them to do a short survey that ends up taking more than half an hour to explain and sign a contract that dimishes your cash flow at the wrong time..

tuition today was tiring.. it's so frustrating when 2 students refuse to pay attention and concentrate on doing problem sums.. side tracking is common.. turn out the p5 student ended up asking me other questions..

d: why do people want to have sex?
me:(stunned) have you tried asking anyone else?
d: nope, are they sick or what? those online people keep seeing porn, having sex, they are so sick..
me: take out your science textbook.. people have sex so they can reproduce.. you know like you learn in science reproduciton is needed for continuity of own kind.. if not how do you think you are born?
d: my father and mother married so got me lo, my father is not sick what, he don't have sex wan..
me: how are you so sure your father dun have sex? how your mother pregnant? science textbook teaches you the sperm has to meet the egg rite? most common wan is through sexual intercourse lo..
d: i know my father la, he never have sex wan.
me: so you think people just get married then will have children la?
d: ya, not meh? i won't have sex.. it's so sick. teacher, you have sex before? pain or not?
me: huh? nope, anyway you are not born just because your parents are married. you can ask them later.. or your other friends online.

so we got back to doing problem sums after this.. was quite appalled by his 'innocence' considering the fact that he has the freedom to and actually acquires whatever explicit information available thanks to the globalisation of technology.. and he's such an addict to his comp.. oh well..

today's lunch is so yummalicious!! cos it's cooked by my dear!! muahahahaha... so xing fu to be served u noe? haha..


the smiley face so so cute!!!! love them!


simple but nice macaroni soup!!!


see the chef in action!!!

i've always wanted a digicam for so long.. and now i'm finally the proud owner of casio exilim Z57!!! so much so that when i hold it in my hand, i didn't feel anything.. hurm, sort of like dumfouded, stunned.. didn't expect it to be mine so soon.. was thinking go sourcing for some time before i decide which model to buy.. but since i got a good lobang so might as well.. so yeah, few hundred bucks off my account but hey! i'm a happy gal! *hops around* thanks so much dear!! haha..

well, exams are over.. so i'm officially busy with enjoying hols before i start work on 16th.. these few days received some calls from the companies i applied for.. but since i've got a placement already, no need to go for other interviews.. so it's not that no companies want me afterall.. muahahaha..

it's so nice to club after so so long.. mambo was quite fun.. as usual, i din queue to get in.. it's so nice to know my cousin's always there to bring us in *grinz* thanks so much!!! i love my gals!!!! it's so fun dancing and drinking with them!!! (and i tot us giving one another pecks on the lips was pretty silly-ingly fun) i also love my lamboghini!!! but i shouldn't drink one after another immediately next time, too overwhelming for me.. and now i'm down with sore throat. *ahemhem* perhaps due to the amount i drink too.. i oso forgot what i drank exactly.. no stamina le.. cos too long never drink.. oh ya! the lychee martini's so nice!! my first time trying it at phuture la.. shall have some more next time! felt abit bad didn't join da nus ppl for long.. but i tot that day phuture's music was better.. anyhow.. i'm so gonna club again next week..

i wan to cycle, slack at the beach, watch movie, sing ktv, and what nots!! so people.. date me date me!! muahahaha..