a new year..

i finally decided to type something.. my camera is sitting in my drawer collecting dust..

i'm lagging behind some posts but i'm too lazy at the moment..

suddenly lost the drive to do alot of things..

resolutions.. hahaha..

new year resolution number one.
do not disturb monkey and let him study and do his thesis.

new year resolution number two.
find myself a decent job and start paying off debts (sch fees, hp/internet bills)

new year resolution number three.
save up so i can go bangkok/taiwan/new zealand

new year resolution number four.
be a better person. (this is so abstract haha)

new year resolution number five.
try to do some exercise to keep fit.

alrite.. i'll stop at five.. i dun even think i can accomplish all five.. hahaha.. at the very least number one and two confirm plus chop i must do it la..

speaking of saving up.. i jus bought a new adidas jacket recently.. $119.. win liaoz.. hahaha.. i jus can't resist it la.. aim adidas jacket for so long liaoz.. and i think i suddenlili have the craze over jackets.. perhaps due to the weather? maybe.. i jus like them la.. jus like how i like shoes and bags.. hahahah

this semester i'm lagging behind w readings and all, tho actually there isn't much to read.. stupid log module so many individual projects! what the hell.. but i have 2 s/u options left.. gonna make full use of them..

this is so incoherent but i'm starting to lose the motivation in my r/s.. things are gg fine actually, but somehow i start to get irritated easily and then cannot be bothered abt it anymore the next minute.. is this healthy? i use to be grouchy and ponder over it for a while. now when i'm irritated, i black face awhile, then the next moment i jus let it go and can't be bothered le.. it's not i give and take.. it's actually the can't-be-bothered kind of feeling.. i jus feel that if i continue being me, he's gonna blow up too, so i jus shut up and act like nothing happened. maybe i've changed. u ask if i'm happy. i can't ask for more in a bf le, but i'm not sure if i'm suitable for him and vice versa.. but for now, i wont' change anything..