to my friends out there who are frustrated or bewildered or whateva cos i seem to haf disappeared or became hostile the past weekend, i'm sorry.. either i deliberately, accidentally, unknowingly, subconsciously.. or abit of all... my hp was either not with me or in silent silent mode.. not even vibration.. the tranquility won much of my adoration.. to not haf to answer a single call or reply a single sms can be a blessing as well..

nobody can find you..
nobody can ask you for opinions or get answers..
nobody can irritate you with their persistence..
to be perfectly done with a pinch of egotism..
or efficiently with a serving of can't-be-bothered attitude since no one's perfect..

gor.. i'm fine here.. once in a while loves to coop myself up in my room with jus a book or magazine.. read them til my eyes are tired then close them to rest.. thinking about the things that i've done, doing and going to do.. abit like soul searching you can say.. why have i become like that i hope to fully grasp the reasons but with my according-to-you puny or non-existent brain perhaps it will not be easy.. my exams have ended and i'm relieved.. tho i'm almost 100% sure i won do well this semester.. nevertheless i've one less worries now.. as for family, sis's getting on fine.. grades are improving slowly but steadily.. parents still the same since u last heard.. am living off my grandparents and aunts.. yep.. would love to go out and party and shop like nobody's business but no mood as yet.. hope ya doing fine..

i guess if i were to take the personality test again.. i may end up to be more introverted than before.. don seem to be as energetic anymore.. but then i'm still appreciative of friends who are always there.. like he said.. time spent together don't make a friendship last, rather being there at the rite time does.. hee, does it mean being there at the wrong time does the opposite? *nvm* sort of miss the sarcastic and vocab-churning exchange of trying-to-make-sense words.. don mind me.. random thoughts here..

if it wasn't the incessant pleadings..
if not for the earliest notice given..
if not for the old times' sake..
i shouldn't have obliged..
but then again.. it's simply cos of remaining affection perhaps..
i don't wish ur ego to be washed down the drains..
u jolly well understood i did not wish for more..
i just want you to noe i'm not one to be taken for granted for..
at least not totally..

i need comments about this one.. am i too demanding? when it comes to bgr, i thought i am easily contented.. *scratches head* or is it just me? haha.. no, not sad.. just abit puzzled.. is it too much to leave when you know the neglect may not be personal faults?

anyhow, i'll be in sentosa for the next 2 days.. chalet!!!!!!!!!!!!