lunch with jasc today! haha..

nice nice subway sandwich filling up my big stomach.. haha..

after lunch, she went back to office, and i wandered around alone for awhile.. i can't wait for the gss man.. got so many things i wanna buy! anyhow, i rotted for less than 3 hours til monkey end work..
then off to watch da vinci code! hahaha.. the movie so hot la, we book tix liaoz oso sit like 4th row from the front.. and when we were collecting the tix around 6pm, 9.30pm's da vinci code movie tix selling fast!

hmmm, after movie then come home.. so wanna rest today..

and why don't i get calls from companies for interviews still?!?!?! getting more scared i can't find a job i want.. haiz..

not very happy with him this evening.. and i'm not even angry when he flared up.. i duno, normally i do get pissed or annoyed but not tonight.. i just didn't feel like talking anymore after that..

well i noe of cos he was not entirely to blame, but i jus can't tahan the same things happening again and again that are causing me to be unhappy.. though these stuff may seem trivial to many, somehow i care about details.. he's not aloof, but what's the point of apologising whenever such things happen? it will happen again and AGAIN it will be cos of accident, not on purpose.. i told myself to forget it and not nag, but when i can't stand it anymore it jus came outta my mouth la.. and in a 'picking' tone.. haiz.. mayb i still need time to get used to these, mayb i will never be able to tolerate.

i can't exactly put everything up here cos it may cause him to become more furious..

and i can't talk to him properly cos it seems we don't understand.. he don't understand why these things are important to me and why am i unhappy, why i don't wish to talk sometimes.. and when i wanna talk, he's listening yet not listening.. he places emphasis on the product, i cherish the process.. different.

i really DON'T KNOW.

but the times spent with him truly alone and understanding each other are rare..

there are so many things i once said i wanna do with him that are not completed.. sure you may say there's still forever to do these stuff..

it's precisely becos of this mentality that instigates the procrastination..

i wonder if he remembers them at all..

it's not the end of the world, but i'm tired. somehow i've lost the ability to communicate.

and til i find the words for expression, no updates.