we're going to the zoo zoo zoo..
how about you you you..
you can come too too too..
we're going to the zoo zoo zoo..


the last time i visited the zoo was when i was in primary 3. that was like 12 years ago! and i've been dying to go to the zoo since earlier this year.. finally.. our zoo trip!!

dabee brings monkey to see monkeys leh!! wahahaha..

we woke up early today.. 9am!! reached amk to have my fav prawn mee and monkey's fav banana lor mee.. chop chop finish then took bus to mandai!!

m: see la, so late le, where got ppl so late go zoo wan?
b: where dun hav? need whole day to walk the whole zoo wan meh?
m: ppl is morning early early go wan leh, where got so late wan?
b: those taking bus with us not ppl lar?

haha i concluded monkey can't wait to see his friends. that's why.. wahahah

at abt 12 noon (with the bloody scorching sun), we stepped on to mandai!!

now u see me..

now u don't!

waha, lame lame lame..

the entrance is so cool la? i noe i'm sua ku la.. 12 years le leh!!! and when i see ben and jerry, my eyes went *ting ting*.. okie make tt a *TING TING!!!!!!* haha..

anyhow, see the tix? so cute! monkey's relatives!


first stop.. a small trail.. i love the baby ducks.. so adorable seeing them waddling in the water!!


and jus nearby abt 50m away.. we saw this!!


b: eh, tt wan is stone or real one ar?
m: (pengz) real one la!
b: real one meh? nv move wan leh..
m: (pengz more) u see the mouth la! moving leh.. real one!!
b: ... orh haha
m: eh, if fall down how ar?
b: u try jump down see how lo
m: ...

the trial not very interesting leh.. all the animals hiding.. haha.. off we went to other places..

before tt.. let's allow monkey to show off his 'photography skills' wahaha..



white tigers!!! i think they are super chio la.. esp the male one here..

look so fierce leh! chio chio chio!! i like! i wan to hug him!! (if i can i really will lor)

tt's monkey with white tiger!


feeding time feeding time.. they knew their food were coming.. for abt 10 mins before the zookeepers arrived, the tigers keep swimming and pacing around.. jus can't stay still la! heh..



when they finally see the zookeepers (i think it's more liek they see their food), they standby nicely at one area la.. so cute leh!



they had beef.. abt 2 kilos each.. jus sample feeding.. after the zoo closes, ehy are actualyl fed abt 13kilos (i think) worth of meat each.. fwah! wat an appetitie!

see the male tiger in action!!


this is taken by monkey.. haha.. quite a nice shot hor?

okie enuff of it.. let's proceed to the next stop! bbbbaaaaabbbbooooooonnss!

i think they are disgusting.. and cute sometimes.. erm.. barbaric.. i dunno how to describe la.. chauvanistic! okieokie.. tt's it! i shall declare they are not my monkey's relatives! humph!

i shall let the pictures do the talking..


i think tis baboon is damn funny la.. so bochap.. he was probably thinking you humans very funny leh.. keep wanting totake our pictures.. dun say dun have la.. limpeh pose for u! give u my side view can or not huh!??!


feeding time.. gosh they were damn noisy rowdy barbaric!
tis particular baboon keep jumping up and down to attract attention so ppl wil throw food to him! so smart hor?

along our way to see them.. we took some pictures.. heh




see my totem poles! (okie i noe it's last yr.. but still mine leh!)

hmmm, enuff of baboons.. dabee shall show u more animals we saw!!!


too many le.. so put them all tog.. wahahah.. warthogs stinks like hell la! and oh rhino rhino.. the one on the left got a wound! so poor thing!

wanna see cheetah in action?


courtesy of monkey! wahahah..

toilet break! toilet break! toilet break!


me and jasc trying to be funny.. take foto in the toilet! wahahah..

alrite alrite.. at tis point in time i'm really tired it's such a long post! more pictures then..


other animals we visited! wahaha.. tapir is so ugleee!~


madarin duck with one foot?!?!


reptile park! those creatures were really really close to meeee~ *eeks*


bloody hell the body of tt snake is as wide as my palm!!! i used to be so excited and absolutely not afraid of carry one around my neck.. that was when i was in kindergarden.. can u believe it?? (i can't)


penguins are so cute!! adorable bunch! hee


zebra~ with both of us infront hur hur~




we din get to see the real seals in action.. so we took photos with the erm.. metal ones.. ha


more monkeys~

oh and i haven't introduced u to my monkey's bacground!!


here it is! C-H-I-M-P-A-N-Z-E-E chimpanzee~


on our way to see the elephants.. or is it after?? anyhow.. i tot the garden is so pretty.. the well is jus part of it.. urm.. monkey's supposed to do the same pose a sme! urgh!~


'E' is for elephant!


elephant elephant
why is ur no-ose so-o-o long~
mama says no-ose long
is called pretty~

i noe it's lame but i dun care~!


on our way back.. i think the scenery is perfect! love it..


me and jasc showing u how cute we think the road signs are.. muahahaha!


this is where we took a short break after the long and 'sticky' walk!! air con shelter leh!! they should have more.. haha


my monkey resting..


our last stop inside the compund of the zoo.. the animal kingdom!!! dun buy the soft toys there.. cos if everyone does wat we did.. (that is to play around with the soft toys, hanging them around our necks) they will be full of ppl's sweat wahahaha..


oooo~ the 'thing' that made me went 'TING TING'!! simply yumilicious!


us with our lollipops!! so funnei!


bye bye to the zoo.. hee..


finally our long awaited dinner muahahaha.. tonkichi~~

a really well-spent day.. despite the extremely humid weather..

now.. where shall we go next?? birdpark? science centre? haha..

Happy Happy Happy 21st Birthday to Qian!!

another one to step into adulthood.. my turn soon leh.. haha.. i'm feeling oh so neutral.. wahahaha..

i get my half day leave today.. i'm so excited.. and i'm so gonna make use of the burner drive on my comp in the office.. the whole level only my comp can burn cdr.. i've accumulated 500plus mb of stuff to burn.. wahahaha.. all mp3s and mtv.. hahaha.. so fun.. it's a friday and it's a half day for me!!!

oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness!!!!

my cousin is pregnant again.. yes.. the one who is 2 days older than me and the husband is monkey's sec sch mate.. tt one.. the one who's son brandon is barely few months old..

she damn fertile la!! or should i say they damn active la! wahahahaha...

happy for her.. but this is definitely a BIG news.. came as a surprise shock to me.. i think if i tell my mama tonight she'll be so shocked oso..

damn! tt means if i ever get married and have a baby.. her children will be like attending pr sch at least le la!! aiyowey ar!

wo de ma ya! i haven't gotten over tis shock.. *traumatised*

(anyhow.. olympics in london in 2012!! i wan to go london then! haha.. 7 years later.. should be can make it.. can sve enuff money to go le! hee.. if can i wan to go with monkey!! woohoo!!)

I.H.A.T.E.T.O.F.E.E.L.S.I.C.K.F.A.L.L.S.I.C.K.B.E.S.I.C.K.A.N.D.N.O.T.G.O.I.N.G
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enough said.. i'm so sianded duhded siaoded tired sicded

i think u all understooded..

i hate period.

i dun wan to be a female. (okie i'm kidding)

other than having to carry sanitary pads around and use them during the period.. and maybe also having to be the one giving birth.. alot of other things i'm okie with being a female la.. haha..

speaking of pads.. it reminds me of an incident when i was 14 years old..

i was attending a symphonic band concert at victoria concert hall.. with yh and her classmates.. then one of the guys asked for tissue at some point in time.. and yeah, u might have guessed, one of the girls (i forgot who), rummaged through her bag in the dark and accidentally passed the guy a sanitary pad. the guy was so paiseh and stunned.. the girl oso la.. in the end everyone made a good laugh out of it.. yh later told me they are pretty open abt it.. they would jus ask out loud in class who has got a pad when one of them needed it and forgot to bring.. i tot this only happens in a girls' school.. i was wrong.. heh heh..

i used to hate periods more during sec sch days.. cos my uniform is white.. and i had some very embarrassing moments staining my skirt blood red on public bus.. (it's not so bad in sch cos they are all girls and most likely had been through the same thing).. then i get strangers coming up to me and tell me.. i always felt like digging a hole and bury myself.. haha..

but then again.. having period is a very good reason to excuse myself from classes, pe lessons.. haha.. i remember my jc classmates(guys la) used to complain we girls were jus using this stupid excuse to absent ourselves.. too bad la.. they happy can go wear skirt and ask for leave oso lo.. hahaha

okie i dun feel like writing le.. my boss bad mood this whole week so far.. how to ask for leave like tt? bloody hell.. damn it.. my stupid boss got menopause.. argh..

a whole of sunday spent on my own.. can't see my monkey.. tt's a bit unbearable for me suddenly.. i have no idea why..

went down to jp for a little shopping.. bought a hp pouch and ingredients for brownies before heading down to sch for rag meeting with tis yr's com.. i got my sis to bring the stuff home for me heh..

nothing much abt the meeting i want to talk about.. i miss rag (not flag).. haha.. i jus miss the times the whole bunch of us jus sit on the steps to eat our breakfast lunch dinner and supper.. the times we feel like machines measuring paper drawing lines and cutting papers.. the times we get all 'starchy'.. the times we get cut by wires, get blueblacks knocking into tables (okieokie it's just me haha).. the times we feel so sleepy we feel like dropping dead.. the lorry rides to bathe at src or ke7.. the late night or during the day gossips.. the booking in on sunday, booking out on saturday morning.. movie on saturday evenings then booking in on sunday again.. the little excitements i get here and there.. the satisfaction seeing everything done.. the day itself where many got burnt (by the sun as well as the whole experience)..

it's amazing how we never get sick and tired of one another during that 4-4.5 weeks.. we literally see one another everyday of the month! haha.. i miss my rag company.. i wanan go down.. i feel like quitting my job and go do rag.. but i can't.. haiz..

i've side-tracked quite a bit.. after meeting.. went to ah ma house eat dinner.. my fav fish porridge!! then went home to bake brownie.. chop chop curry pok bathe while the brownie is baking.. then made a little note-in-the-bottle thingy.. changed and off i go to hougang to pass monkey the hp pouch, brownie and note! wanan surprise him cos see him so sad over the lost hp.. hmmm..

my surprise failed.

failed failed failed failed failed.

i even sent this sms to jasc
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i'm stuck.

hey it rhymes! haha anyhow.. i was on my way to hougang (he told me he'll be home latest 10plus) apparently not.. he was still at serangoon playing mahjong.. so i asked for the addy.. and took cab there to pass him the stuff, thinking okie, then i'll go home.

but i'm not. he pulled me into the house giving the reason the fren's mother will think very weird i go then so fast leave.. and he say wil giv me cab fare home after midnight.. i was thinking wat the freaking hell i'm blardy tired after the whole day i wanna slp u wan me to watch u paly in SERANGOON?!?!?! and you think u very rich is it huh hmmm huh? but i was in and that's how jasc get that crazy sms of mine wahahah..

i became angry he din tell me he playing mahjong again.. and i was tired and the game still dun wan to end.. so i started crying while talking to jasc.. she can't sing cos talking to me haha i so bad but what the heck.. (it rhymes again!) sorry ger.. and thankz.. so in the end the game ends and took a ride to hougang..

and then he came home with me.. literally sent me home.

awww so sweet but silly.

and to think i was fuming (i was really tired okie) and screaming at him for not letting me go home.

he said i went all the way to serangoon so he can't let me go home alone.. haha.

but tt means my oredi poor monkey becomes poorer le.. =(

(sidenote: i was so freaking out when he insisted i go outside his place wait for him get his stuff.. i sat back facing his door on the steps.. my body tensed up when i hear his mum's voice.. can't let her see me la!! so lok cok and with puffed eyes.. for a moment i tot she's coming out to see i was prepared to fly run walk away wahahaha)

this is a common question among friends.. "eh, what you and your bf do wan ar? singapore like nothing much to do wan leh.."

i agree.. unless you are so hyperactive and have very unique common interests, the normal things couples do are eat (breakfast brunch lunch high tea dinner supper snack wateva), watch movie (many once attached become movie critics lor), shopping (mostly the ger do the shoppin the guy do the accompanying hor haha) and walk around and walk around and walk around..

some slack at home, watch vcds/dvds la.. cook/bake together.. or just nua (or have sex haha).. go sun tan, cycling, blading, ice skating, play pool (??).. canoeing? wat else? can't think of more at the moment la..

the point is.. there really isn't much things to do.. but hey.. it's the company that matters.. but even so, a change of activities once in a while is necessary to keep your dates from becoming a routine eh? hurm.. haha..

dabee's typical saturday with monkey..
(based on 2july, activities differ slightly each saturday)

9:30am
dabee rise and shine to vacuum floor mop floor
monkey continues to snore away..

10:45am
dabee takes a short break from the chores.. reads magazine..
monkey sleeping soundly..

11:15am
dabee makes something for monkey and herself to eat..
monkey is still sleeping due to lack of sleep since thursday..

12:00pm
dabee is done with preparing food..


menu of the day is something like western breakfast hahaha..

monkey rise and shine, wash up for breakfast cum lunch..

1:15pm-3:15pm
monkey and dabee after food nua-ing, watch romance of the 3 kingdom, bathe, prepare to go out..

3:30pm
monkey and dabee's long bus ride to all-so-familiar orchard.. talking, taking photos, watch tv mobile..

4:15pm
shopping time!! (taka WH zara, wisma charles&keith)

(insert: a rare happening.. the first and last i definitely hope)

4:45pm
while monkey and dabee were walking along the CROWDED underpass from taka to wisma, some BASTARD/BITCH stole monkey's nokia 3230!!! barely 5 mins after monkey made a call.. the stupid pickpocket! son/daughter of a bitch! and the hp is less than a month old la! new phone!! my pictures all inside leh! a few hundred bucks just fly away like tt! what the fuck?!?!

monkey and dabee curse the pickpocket like nobody's business.. tried calling monkey's number but oredi switched off.. gaanneeennnaaaa... damn the person la.. curse the persom go bald, poor forever, cross the road kena knocked down then paralysed, become so fat the person explodes, kena rob raped sodomized.. no no, dun get killed cos it won't prolong the suffering.. kena disease and rot to death slowly is better..

monkey curse the person's family as well.. wahahaha

dabee says if catch the person she'll scrape his skin and put salt on the open wounds.. esp that hand which took the hp..

yes, monkey and dabee are so evil.. but the pickpocket's worse..

(end of insert.. p/s: ppl when shopping in crowded places rem keep ur belongings with you properly.. better still, hold them in ur hand til u pass the super crowded area)

5:00pm
monkey and dabee no mood for shopping.. went hello singtel to report lost and replace sim card..
dabee is still cursing and swearing during the wait to be served..

5:15pm
monkey and dabee hunting for new hp at lucky plaza.. walked a total of 3 rounds before deciding to blow $300 on samsung E330C.. with warranty (it was supposedly $290 without warranty and $340 with warranty)

6:15pm
dabee's treat to dinner at paragon seeing monkey so poor thing (poor has double meaning)..
monkey takes out new hp and start figuring it out.. like a littleboy fascinated with his new toy.. only he's not fascinated..



7:30pm
walked over to cine's phins steak to meet ws l yt c ch wh.. talked awhile, the gang went to rag bash at rave.. and dabee decides not to join the gang seeing monkey so sad..

7:45pm
dabee feels hungry again.. want to eat takopachi at taka B2..

8:00pm
monkey and dabee walked past taka square and sees a triumph sale.. dabee stops and start shopping (totally forgot abt hunger)..

8:30pm-9:30pm
satisfied with a shopping bag in hand.. walked past mango and headed in..
picked out a dress, took foto for monkey to see (cos gentlemen has to wait outside haha), decides to buy dress and so tadah! another shopping bag..


this is the dress dabee got at $36 (>50% off)

9:30pm
went to watsons for the last item and then went to mos burger for dabee's ice milk tea..

10:45pm
home sweet home for dabee taking 143 and monkey taking train..

a rather simple saturday except for that incident.. which basically is the highlight of the day..

&^#^%(*)*^$)@#!$^@
i hope my voodoo doll works on that idiot!

Friday=Happy Day..

my place is full of hersheys n cadbury n calbee n ruffles n milo.. so fattening! *shrieks*

but i like..

cos i'm a happy ger again.. fat-and-gg-fatter but happy..

he'll never be beyond hope i'm sure.. wahahaha..

i shall be on salad diet.. so i can stuff myself with tidbits and snacks he bought me!

family are friends we cannot choose.. but friends are ppl i choose to be friends with..

so in actual fact i'm blessed with so many ppl i choose to know!

coreen is really an angel.. i'm a happier person oredi.. hee thanks ger!

i had a long post earlier on and dunno y when i published it, it miraculously dissappeared.. now let me recall..

rite.. i finally got my previous previous post up and running after uploading all the necessary photos wahaha.. tho my office comp is slow like tortoise.. my comp at home is like snail.. so aiya.. make do with it ba.. wahahaha..

remember i mentioned a birthday chalet at chevrons in september? BAD news.. saturdays from now til october all fully booked.. wow.. how lucky can i get? *hur*

so let it be at costa sands downtown east ba.. exceed my budget but nvm.. i'll work harder or save more lo.. BAD news again.. 10 sep is sch hols!! okie dokie.. i shall have it at the end of august.. sch jus started oso, not so busy.. shall confirm real soon.. so pEopLE.. keep your weekends in august FREE!! i'll be really devastated if you all can't make it.. really.. so must be free okie..

meanwhile i shall go source for necessary stuff.. haha and manpower.. woohoo.. tis is so fun..

every morning while waiting for my bus 51 (a fucked up bus cos the frequency is screwed), i'll always see this woman across the road waiting for cab.. the thing is.. pandan gardens is such ulu place that cab drivers hardly drive past.. so most of the time she calls for cab.. so.. booking charge and peak charge.. maybe she works nearby? haiz, i duno but it's definitely something i won't do.. everytime i wan to take cab i have to think 2 times 3 times 4 times 5 times lo.. unless u tell me you have been driving previously and it cost alot less to takecab everyday, or you sharing cab with 3 other ppl.. then i nothing to say la.. but if not hor.. saving cab fare = saving quite alot.. esp with all the extra charges..

sometimes it feels very strange to be saving and then at the same time wondering where the hell my money has gone to.. i think at the moment i try to save cos i wan to get something.. so not healthy sincei'll end up with the zero balance.. plus when i buy thngs for my sis or monkey and i see them happy i'll be happy too.. dun help in my savings plan at all wahahaha..

like now.. i dun shop so much cos i saving for birthday and phonebill and maybe even my new comp since my stupid mum used up my $400 again.. *big sigh*

you know the problem with my parents is they have extremely bad financial planning.. they are BRAINLESS when it comes to planning how to use the money.. plus.. they can't do proper housework for nuts.. by this i mean.. no matter how many times i remind them ortell them talk to them wrn them scold them scream at them.. they will still be the same old them refusing to mop the kitchen after cooking, leaving trails of black marks after washing clothes.. what the fuck?!?!

just in case you think i only all talk no action.. which idiot tells u i dun do housework? i kill the person lor.. with work and tuition you think i got energy and time everyday go home and mop the kitchen for them when i dun even eat at home? bullshit. and my father still dare to tell me "wait til very dirty then clean then got more satisfaction cos it wil then look clean" i was like what the fuck you talking about? now i dun really like to use my kitchen.. i love cooking.. but i just hate my kitchen.. if i'm the only one making the effort to clean it after i cook.. then?!?!?! might as well i dun use and let the place rot.. or i be the slave and slog all day and night trying to tidy the place 4 ppl live in.. i'm not saying i should not be cleaning.. but it shouldn't be a one person effort rite?

got time to watch tv read newspaper no time to do housework? never kena slapped by me before lor.. one and two and three idiots.. i dun evern watch tv or read newspapers when i got home k! bathe then pack abit then iron then make breakfast or lunch next day then sleep!

and one more thing.. don't you think it's logical for the last person to go sleep to empty the dustbin.. throw the trash.. to stop breeding more xiao3 qiang2 and ants alike? this one hor.. i can't be the one staying til they all go sleep then i can empty and go sleep rite.. i keepreminding them they still fucking throw the sweet stuff food stuff there and leave them overnite.. it really makes a difference if you stay with them since young.. look at my sister and me.. i dun grow up in my home.. so i'm abit different from my sis.. who abviously have no sense of cleanliness and tidiness..

when it comes to finances, worst still.. whose parents use up their children's savings without their knowledge til every single cent is spent? whose parents used up the money for uni education before the child start uni? whose parents need their parents to pay for their children's education, food, blablabla? whose parents borrow money from their children and never return them? whose parents scream at the children when she asks for money to pay the house phonebills? whose parents refuses to pay bills and let extra charges accumulate, at the same time refusing to cut cost by terminating the hp line? whose parents keep buying extra stuff here and there then tell the children sorry, i have no money for your exzink fare, sch shoes, band concert photos etc? whose parents are so stubborn they refuse to listen to their children's feedback and suggestions?

MINE..

i'm just sad things have to be this way..

they are alrite except for the above.. but then considering we are singaporeans.. living in singapore.. when you are brainless financially, many other things collapse as well..

before you shout at me saying i'm a bad daughter.. how many times must i say dun judge simply cos u are not me and u do not noe wat i've gone through..

do you have to cry at nite before sleeping knowing your parents spent ur money away again? because you run into deficit not because u spend too much on urself but cos you have to spend ur meagre intern pay on them and their stuff? NO? then shut up..

my grandma once told me what the parents suck at, the child excels.. i duno if it's true.. if really true, does it mean what the parents are good at thechild suck la? haha no la.. jus some rubbish from me..

i recognize that i'm still alot mre fortunate than many people and i'm grateful for that.. at least i have my relatives and friends.. it's just that i tot i should be receiving less and less help from them(esp relatives) since i'm turning 21.. cannot so stubborn like last time lor.. should take the burden le..

i still wish i'm outta house.. away from their bad financial planning and dirty habits.. i wanna clean and healthy place to stay in.. i wanna protect myself from trusting them again.. but things are different now.. cos i can't be so stubborn le.. ren3 ren3 ren3..

i wanna go blading with my gals.. so babes.. please reply my sms!!! dun ignore me can? can?? can???


i saw this at the roxy website.. think it's nice.. haha gotta get myself something like tt! black 3 quarts and a jacket.. hmmm..

when is my zara sale starting huh???

jasc is not replying me.. i'm sad.. =( she start work le then no reply me messages le.. hope she's okie.. gotta settle our outings, bookings, ramblings watnotz.. hahaha

getting all incoherent and cranky le.. see.. you get fat and your brain degenerates while working in a boring place.. *yawnz*

shall continue with my blog browsing and budgeting for my 21st bday.. (i know it's still early but i've got nothing better to do at the moment you see..)

i got a shock when the internet's down this morning.. heng everything's alrite now wahahah..

work is BORING.. at least mine is.. i wanna be tai tai.. haha.. counting down.. 5 more weeks maximum.. can't wait to have some real fun!

24 June

i cut my hair.. erm.. actually it's jus a trim.. haha.. my preious hairstylist y no longer works at je kimage so i decided to look for jy in stead.. she's erm.. not bad la.. very friendly person.. i'm still more used to y though.. anyhow.. i like the feel of my hair after the trim and wash! so soft and shiny! wahahaha..


not much diff in length i noe..


see now tie hair nicer le! haha

monkey watched initial D without me.. *sobz* i'm not happy. who wanna watch it with me? date me date me! i dun mind cute guys! wahahaha *crazy*

25 June

my uncle's wedding! went over to my aunt's place last nite to stay over.. discussing about the itenery for his BIG day.. haha.. it's a pretty simple wedding la.. no wedding banquet.. just buffet lunch, high tea and dinner.. the food's great!! one of the best caterer i've tried so far! there's actually 2 caterers.. one of it is best catering, got promotion for birthday and baby's full month leh!!

other than that.. we took lotsa fotos.. snapping away almost whenever possible.. wahaha.. can't show all the fotos la.. later take eons to load my page.. here's some of them.. hee



i did enjoy but it could get bored at times.. hee.. fell asleep for awhile in my grandparents' room haha.. on and off my grandma will ask for me and my cousin ht, bring us to see her friends/colleagues.. or our relatives.. cos they haven't seen us for a long time..

to me, these were the common words exchanged..
wa.. grown up already wor, so pretty.. so tall leh..
last time still so small and then always like to cry wan hor.. (bleahz, i'm a cry baby!)
eat more la, quite think hor.. (i'm oh so not skinny and i'm eating alot haha)
eh, you appeared on channel 8 one of the sim wong fu's show ar? (me: stunned, and then ????)
you look alot like xf ah yi when she's young leh! really so alike!
where you studying now? oh, graduating soon?
where's your other-half? why never ask him to come? (as if monkey dares to appear to be scrutinized ha, even my grandma kept asking me to ask him to come)

to my grandma..
wa, your grandchild so grown up le, you can relac liao lor.. can wait to drink her 'tea' liao..
all your grandchildren so pretty and handsome wor.. good la, can enjoy old age le.. (what's the link?)

this is ridiculous.. it's the same old stuff.. freak.. now i'm the eldest grandchild (maternal side la) guess what the relatives'll coment on the next time we gather? so expected.. *headache* no, i'm not pressured into settling down.. it has always been a dream of mine to settle down early (as if i haven't said enuff).. i'm not influenced or pressured i say again.. wahahaha..

anyhow.. my erm.. mum's cousin's children are so adorable leh!! yjia, yjun, m, j, b, b's little bro (i forgot his name) i haven't seen them in ages.. so adorable!!


yjun's only 2 years old and has a very healthy tan! he was having dinner and then fell off a stool.. he was so paiseh that he jus sat on the floor covering his face with his two hands!! when his father told him it's alrite and to get up, he lowered his head and continued to sit there with his face covered.. so adorable!


and b's little bro is very fond of the new bed!! he refuses to leave the room.. and even tried to climb back to the bed himself!! haha!


oooo, and my pretty pretty cousin lq!! she's so shy whenever i asked her to pose for a pic.. haha!

okie.. enuff of my obsessions with babies and children.. i can never have enough fun with (playing) with them.. haha..

at the end of the whole day.. i'm dead beat.. so i reached home at 12am.. bathed, and plonked on my nice comfy bed.. *ZzzZzzz*

monkey was enjoying his mahjong.. highlight of his game was 'all eat' qinq1 yi1 se4 zi4 mo1.. full tais.. haha..

i'm not too happy cos i din get to talk to him and wondered if he's going to sleep thru sunday as usual.. =(

26 June

i simply love slacking at home with monkey!! hee.. monkey's call woke me up (slightly).. i dun really remember wat he said except amk curry puff and prawn mee.. (i noe i'm a pig)

woke up, brushed teeth, realised my mum bought me prawn mee from nearby coffe shop.. i finished it *yum* and off i went to read my da vinci code.. fell asleep while reading (not that the book's boring.. i was too tired) and woke up again around 1245..

are you reaching yet? i dun wan to wait le lar!
yes, one more stop to je.. wait a while more okie..
i dun wan to wait!
i cannot fly leh.. wait awhile more only okie?
i dun wan dun wan dun wan dun wan wait! dun wan dun wan dun wan you!
wei =(
wei wei =(
wei wei wei =(
wei wei wei wei=(
...

haha tt's how silly i can get.. finally monkey reached after 1pm.. i had my amk prawn mee!! and curry puff!! monkey and i had to share one curry puff cos he din anticipate my mum to be home (he bought 4 and there's 5 of us haha) yum yum! munching on my puff and prawn mee while monkey constantly called me fat bee bom bom..

what's the best thing to do after lunch?

SLEEP!! haha.. pigging out session should include sleeping eh? wahahaha.. we slept all the way til 5pm.. then went je popular to buy assessment book.. walked to 7eleven for a simple and nice mr softie.. before heading home for dinner and spiderman! hehz..

monkey went home at 10pm..

fat bee bom bom sian diaoz..

cos monday gotta work..

i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl..

i dropped a sms to monkey saying i wan to see him.. hahahaha.. and he's here!!!!!!!! wahahahahahahahah.. he's never like tt leh!!!!!! wahahahahaha!!!!!

i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl.. i'm a happy girl..

enuff said.. i'm outta here!

i got my camera back with me yeah!!! (kiss my camera *muackz*)

tuesday wasn't good.. cos there's no sun! no sun = no tanning = raining = cold weather = waste my money = no mood = tired = feel like sleeping


haven't been to sentosa for eons.. now the tix looks like tt.. haha (suakoo)

initially tot i'll spent quite some amount (tix and dinner and drinking).. end up dinner provided! (cos alot of extra packets) and chill out session was not realised as i had to leave early.. later on oso can't make it for supper with the og kalta.. oh ya.. the dinner's not bad leh!! i think better than last year.. wahahaha..

no supper no staying over cos i working on wed.. very logical reason but it's barely enough to stop me.. so the overpowering reason and influence did the job..

yesterday after work went down to FOC sp nite.. at Baize China One.. Clarke Quay area.. beside Hooters on second floor.. the place's not bad la.. got many pool tables and chairs lor.. good for chill out.. not really for partying.. forgot to take pictures of the place itself *smack forehead*.. but managed to snap away with friends lor.. wahahah


erm, those pics taken later can see my face and neck abit red red from the beer.. (my gawd! it's only beer! i'd really lost touch)

monkey said the beer quite cheap haha..


monkey's the kai3 zi.. wahahah..

no clubbing no drinking too much no mambo no double o .. cos today working.. stil got tuition at nite.. cos i'm tired blablabla.. all the reasons logical but not put forth by me.. so end up leaving the bar at around 1045pm.. plonked on my bed after midnight..

(haha i'm just back from lunch! no apples today cos m and r brought us to havelock for yummy lor mee and prawn mee.. very quite abit paiseh m treat us la.. but yeah! lunch was fun! talk joke gossip complain wateva.. wahahaha.. )

feels kind of strange at the moment.. there's so many things i wan to say.. yet somehow words jus dun come.. erm.. can't exactly describe how i feel..

anything can be simplified.. it'll always be like that until u are in a r/s.. it's so simple yet complicated to say u love somebody.. many say r/s is jus like a roller coaster ride.. so there's ups and downs and swirling arounds.. at the end of it you'll either regret or be glad for the experience.. then u decide whether you'll take the ride again..

it's easier said than done rite.. jus a moment you can be on cloud nine and the next plummet into a deep valley.. you can feel so loved and protected at one moment and the next confined.. you can anticipate the date this instant and the next dread the itenery.. everyone if not most agrees give and take is necessary to strike a balance.. how to reach the balance?

many girls (i'm one of them) hope to meet Mr Right obviously.. and when they think that particular he is the one, there'll be no (or very difficult to) turn back.. especially when girls are serious in the r/s, they will try (very hard) to make it work.. simply becos they do not wish to shatter their dream.. and so subconsciously their demands become more compelling in the view of the guys.. and get utterly upset when their Mr Right does things that hurt them.. remember the girls are only hoping to realise their dream..

either wanting him to listen and be sensitive to her needs.. or to give her surprises to brighten her day.. to get along with every friend of hers.. or to put her in front of everybody else.. to accomodate to her requests.. or to give in to her stubborness.. to like almost everything she likes and stop doing all the things she do not like.. to be the first (or the only) to say sorry in an argument or to keep quiet and give in right from the start..

so what happens when he is more stubborn than her? when he stands by his principles and refuse to apologise? when he gives in but obviously unwillingly? when he can't get along with her friends? when there are just some things he can't stop liking or doing?

so where is the balance?

isn't it sometimes just a matter of perceptions?

she thinks tat she is the one always giving in to him, always the one giving him surprises.. wondering why hasn't the hell he been surprising her.. why doesn't he want to attend concerts and parties with her.. why does he puts his friends before her..

he thinks tat he has been putting in the effort, be sensitive to her emotions and treat her to many good dinners.. wondering why the hell she can't see it.. why does she have to force him to do things he don't like.. why does she not trust or understand him..

exasperated isn't it? you may think..

communciate la! talk it out lor! what the hell, sure got solution wan la!

no.. not so when you are facing the same situation yourself..

communication problems or not.. solving it or not.. when the same thing reoccurs too many times.. it comes to a point where both doubt the meaning of their r/s.. is it still worthwhile to continue with it? what should i do? continue to give in? stand up and be firm about certain aspects of my character and behavior? break up?

the most unintentional and hurtful words can just escape at the most apposite (or inapt) moment..

now, where is the balance?

or more so, how to attain the balance?

has she taken a step back and reflect.. whether it was a tad bit too much to demand certain things? whether there was room for allowance to give in to him instead? whether he has been putting in the effort? is it possible that she has overlooked the effort and magnified on his past doings?

has he on the other hand thought about how she feels for each action he took? how much more effort he has to put in for the balance? whether he needs to be firm regarding certain things or problems? whether he has not taken her needs seriousy enough?

there are indeed certain things that cannot be changed when it comes to character, behavior and hobbies.. he can always give in but ultimately she may chase him away with her own demands and aspirations.. similarly.. there's no point in staying with him if he doesn't see how she wants to be loved..

contradicting ain't it? ah ha.. there comes the notion of balance! give and take give and take give and take.. i can't and don't know exactly how simply becos it works differently in each r/s..

when zw wants to play 'expensive' mahjong.. i've learnt to sleep early, find my own entertainment.. when he doesn't like me clubbing esp when i've work the next day.. i've tried (and been successful since) to stop.. when i dun like the way he gets defensive, he accomodates to his best.. when i know he can't stand sitting in an auditorium for 2 hours watching ppl dance sing or act, i forget about inviting him to concerts.. when he can't seem to get along with my friends, i don't insist on him accompanying me to meet them.. when he hates the way i shout at him when i'm angry, i did stop shouting ever since.. when he complains i don't spend enough time with him, i reduced (tho sometimes reluctantly) my 'extra' activities.. when i disagree with his mentality with regards to shopping for clothes and whatnots.. i just decide not to shop with him as often.. when he gives in to me too much and complains to me about it, i ask him to not give in then..

the list can just go on and on.. we all have alot to learn..

i still am speculative of the 'balance'.. but at least i'm trying.. whenever in doubt i just ask myself

do i love him still?

and when i have the answer to this question, there's no uncertainty whether what i did was worthwhile or not.. *smilez*

quote from my friend.. you can love the person alot alot but you still need air to breathe.. never lose your friends for the one.. but if he/she forces too much things on you then she may as well not be the one..

how true..

a couple of days back i dreamt that i was getting married.. muahaha.. the funny thing is, i don't know who i was getting wed to! *laugh out loud loud*

and then since i have a little bit of time here before my half-day leave to join FOC.. let me continue to dream la..

i don't mind a wedding dress from here..

i wanna wear this(nine west) with my day gown..


then in the evening if my gown is pink then i wanna wear this(nine west)


so i can carry the pink bag!! (nine west)


eh? but brides dun carry bags wan hor? haiyaaa..

let me side track.. i like this pair.. pretty casual.. (nine west)


and i like this bag!! (nine west) simple la.. but nice leh..


but the bags dun look expensive according to monkey.. so he won't buy for me le lah!! *cries*

*slaps my face*
wake up le ba.. dun wan to dream le la..

i've officially gained weight (i trust the weighing machine).. and since monkey knows it, he's been calling me "fat bee bom bom" wat a cute name.. but i dun wan it! i shall have apples only for lunch from now on.. yes, i'm lazy, i dun wanna work out to lose weight.. i EAT LESS so i won't accumulate extras.. haiz.. so unhealthy..

looking forward to tanning abit tis afternoon.. but looking at the gloomy weather this morning.. *shakes head* nevertheless i'm gonna meet my ignite gang laterrrrr!!