mind-boggling how transition impinge on each and every one of us.. somedays, somethings we jus dun wish to remember.. what constitutes not remembering? how can i possibly forget everything in the blink of an eye?
i just opt to ignore it..
i just conclude there's more things worth my attention..
i just assume i won't see you again.. tho i don't want it to be so..
presumingly after what happened you never wan to have anything to do with me eh..
i do not even understand why do tears fell for you.. and they are still falling because of you..
i'm puzzled at my words and actions..
as much as i told myself you are like that and i've no right whatsoever to interfere, plus perceptibly i'm inferior to whoever, i still break down..
"chuandabee, why you always do the same thing everytime?"
gosh.. i wish i know why.. you walk into my life and want to leave and i'm not ready for you to do so perhaps..
i do remember your words and actions..
"are you very sian?"
"are you okay with our pace of walking? are we walking too fast?"
"is it xin ku for you to sit like that?"
pulling me away from someone i'm blocking, offering to carry my bag and you did..
"how can i not care when i knew how you feeling, you think my heart made of steel ar.."
"if even for a second you feel alone remember i'll always be here for you.."
dunno why but i feel diffident when you hold on to me.. just that split second i was pleased..
come to think of it, you'd have done it if it's her.. anyone else right? i can't believe i'm so naive..
was it just another test of your charm? congrats, you passed with flying colors..
you picked an easy test paper..
i deleted your number from my phone memory.. whether it was on purpose i'm not sure..
what the hell, the number's still in my head, i just realised.. wtf..
maybe it was meant to be? for wateva fucking sake she's my friend.. thanks for allowing me to learn another lesson..

to my friends, i felt despondent causing you to feel or think the way you did..
it wasn't premeditated definitely..
in due course it was my fault for asking you out..
we should have all stayed bloody at home watching tv munching goodies study till giddy..
then so many things wun happen to us..
having said that.. guys are just bastards right.. okieokie, most of them.. er, some of them??
let's all study okie..
"always look forward to after the exams.."
sounds familiar? hehz.. after the exams we'll shop, sing, party all day and night!
erm.. of cos must work and go work out!

puiee, jiayou jiayou jiayou faster catch up with ya work.. then can go venture on your greener pastures! *winkz*

yongaling, come join us study group! dun be bothered with them now, they're not worth it.. yet.. =)

qian, i'll join ya in trying to work out but end up saying 'damn it, so tiring, i dun wan le!' after the exams k! heez..

ian, time is everything.. it does many things.. the possibles and the deemed impossibles.. believe in yourself.. friendship's important.. that's what i think..

jing, wan, shu, inez, siva, meet up soon again! had a fun time catching up with ya peepz during nez's bday!!! all the best for exams!

nel, so long yo've been 'in' your life.. take care of yourself okie! study study hard hard too! keke..