happy birthday to junming and benjamin wong!!

another monday has passed.. tuesday's here.. this means another day closer to exams.. *gosh* haven't settled down to mug, though i've been wanting to do that.. super duper inertia due to forces of emotional disorder.. call me crazy or wat.. i jus can't stand the mess on my table any longer so did a little tidying up.. dug out some stuff and kept pondering whether to dipose of them or to keep them a while longer for memo's sake.. decided to stacked them up nicely in a corner of my cupboard.. thanks goodness i still have space for those stuff.. actually they were stuff from jc days.. co-op days in fact.. brings back alot of memories.. good ones, bad ones... those times bitching around with fellow com members ever complaining some teachers.. slacking around using co-op stuff for personal uses.. hectic times juggling sch work and co-op events.. lousy times kena scolded by teachers, when students don't cooperate with you..

anyhow, it's nice doing some packing.. relieves stress too.. feels happier when things are in order.. this time round not bad lar.. pack table instead of cleaning toilet haha.. maybe pms bar.. was down with cramps in the morning dun even feel like moving a finger.. but took panadol and felt better so hands become itchy.. made a small pouch today too.. for wat i dunno.. jus feel like doing something with the extra cloth and needles and thread.. not beri pro but stil usable la.. hehz.. felt accomplished in another way.. completed my tutorial on time too!

am feeling so excited cos in a few hours' time i'm gg back to sajc for my fav lasi lemak!!! so long never go back.. wanna go back makan then study.. hurmmm jus got to now i've got lecture at 2pm.. still thinking whether i should go cos there might be tips.. shall see how bar.. glad i'll be meeting up with wanz jingz ben siva again so soon!! hehz..

...it's meaningless to hold on to someone who takes you for granted.. perhaps it's due to ur own fault that ignites this up-to-u-i'm-fine-with-anything-as-long-as-u-like-it behavior.. leaving everything to you, so that any consequence has to be due to the decision make as well.. i know it hurts to let go but if this is what it takes for the person to realise what has really gone wrong and to bear the consequences.. you have to do it.. anyway it is for your own good to take a step back and think carefully whether it's worth to continue carrying emotinal burdens.. if the person comes back then you decide whether to give it another shot.. if the person is gone for good, let it be.. grant the wish of looking for someone much much better..

single hood is bliss... (='v'=)