a couple of days back i dreamt that i was getting married.. muahaha.. the funny thing is, i don't know who i was getting wed to! *laugh out loud loud*

and then since i have a little bit of time here before my half-day leave to join FOC.. let me continue to dream la..

i don't mind a wedding dress from here..

i wanna wear this(nine west) with my day gown..


then in the evening if my gown is pink then i wanna wear this(nine west)


so i can carry the pink bag!! (nine west)


eh? but brides dun carry bags wan hor? haiyaaa..

let me side track.. i like this pair.. pretty casual.. (nine west)


and i like this bag!! (nine west) simple la.. but nice leh..


but the bags dun look expensive according to monkey.. so he won't buy for me le lah!! *cries*

*slaps my face*
wake up le ba.. dun wan to dream le la..

i've officially gained weight (i trust the weighing machine).. and since monkey knows it, he's been calling me "fat bee bom bom" wat a cute name.. but i dun wan it! i shall have apples only for lunch from now on.. yes, i'm lazy, i dun wanna work out to lose weight.. i EAT LESS so i won't accumulate extras.. haiz.. so unhealthy..

looking forward to tanning abit tis afternoon.. but looking at the gloomy weather this morning.. *shakes head* nevertheless i'm gonna meet my ignite gang laterrrrr!!

many things are never the same once your are not single and available.. and it totally absolutely definitely sucks to be stuck in between.. sacrifices sacrifices.. decisions decisions.. i made one earlier on and i could not be sure if it is right.. hur~ what the hell la..

watched mr & mrs smith since i din catch it with my gals.. i dun really like it leh.. plot abit stupid.. but yeah, angelina jolie's so sexy huh hmmm huh? she has BIG boobs.. why no scenes of her stripping in the movie?? *disappointed* haha..

finally i can say i've made use of the gss this june.. went shopping with zw (i noe it's rare but i dun really have a choice).. bought my undies, a blue bag and a blue dress (i almost bought another blue jacket from isetan and a pair of blue heels from noda).. ate thai food at sakura.. i'm already broke before i shop.. i'm afraid i'm in deficit at the moment..

here's what i bought..


the bag in front.. i paid $44.27 for this bag (the rest is subsidized by zw haha).. from taka shopping centre..

according to zw it's my first decent bag.. i should collect more.. urgh.. but hey! i dun mind adding to my collection leh! at least i won't grumble that i have too many bags to choose from!

oh and the dress.. it's the OP dress i had wanted long ago.. it was like $49.90 lo.. now isetan got sale.. i got it at $19.90!! good buy hor?!?!



sorry no photos of the undies i bought wahahah..

i din have my camera with me (lent it to frens for their hk trip) so i had to constantly tell zw "eh, take out ur hp leh, i wanna take picture" haha, so poor thing gotta entertain me using his camera phone.. so here goes..

we were at robinson shopping for undies when i decided i wanna look at heels!! instead i saw this nine west bag i like alot leh!


but it's white, scared it'll get dirty easily.. think it's about $100.. shall be in my wish list!

this one oso not bad..


the same series wan... jus a bigger size.. hee..

and then i see this Fion bag.. simple and elegant.. forgot to take a pic of it cos zw dun like it.. haiz.. instead he dragged me to see this..



this..



this..



basically the series la.. haha.. if i ever become a tai tai.. then yes.. i'll think about getting the blue or pink one.. hehz..

speaking of pink.. look at what i have after dinner??


raspberry gelato ice cream!!! wahahaha.. my nails are pink too!!

by the way i'm not sure what was it with me and the color blue.. and erm bags and shoes.. but erm.. just seem to be obsessed with them for the day.. (or possessed?)

oh and ya.. saw a couple of tops from topshop which i lurve!! haha.. if i feel rich enough i'll go get them!!

on our way to the bus stop outside heerens.. we saw this..


haha!! 5 'super' men hanging in mid air pasting gigantic poster lah!!
CITIBANK HAS MOVED TO SERVE YOU BETTER.. etc (i can't remember)
many ppl also taking photos of them.. so we dun feel paiseh to be so sua koo!! muahaha..

You kill with
magic.
You are very skilled with magic, but have poor
fighting skills. But it doesn't really matter
anyway since it can be as powerful as other
weapons. You are probably missunderstood by
people and have some pain inside you. You are
not the kind of person to start a fight, but if
you are provocted you respond. You probably
don't have that many friends either though you
might want some. According to you life is a
lonely journey and you try not to care to much.
Most people who are witches or anything similar
is thought to be evil and want to see all
people suffer. That however is not true. You
don't feel that much joy seeing others in pain.
You are probably peaceful and quiet when left
alone.

Main weapon: Potions and spells
Quote: "A man can be destroyed but
not defeated" -Ernest Hemingway
Facial expression: Blank eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla

ha so.. here's another quiz from jasc.. it's like back to 2003 when i'll keep doing and posting quizzes.. some veri veri silly ones.. haha what the hell is it with quizzes huh hmmm huh?? but oh well, i have better things to do you know.. just that i bloody hell can't la.. stuck in the office doing a report that is oh-so-flawed..

my manager came over to tell us about the amendments for the first report while i was happily chatting on msn hur~ anyhow, i realised how a manager can be so stupid. all of us understand what jan was trying to say except her.. what's the outcome? haha, the manager CAN'T be wrong lo.. so we continue with the flawed report.. amend to the manager's preference.. nvm abt the whole grp of surveyees being omitted.. i can't reveal too much, i scared.. basically i'm not happy but can't be bothered with the manager and report le la.. i will do whatever you like *bows and pouts*

since i'm here.. a little abt my office life.. every morning i walk into the office.. then to my department.. then *pom* my ass settles onto the chair (consolation is the chair's green in color and comfortable)..
this is what i see..

look at the monitor!!! *shrieks* excel documents! i really really hate them! who the hell invented excel huh hmmm huh??? (another consolation is i got my own personal line.. ppl can call me at my office number directly)

there's nothing much abt life in office leh.. so boring.. oh! wait.. i have this to brighten up myself a little!

my hot milo from the recreation area! (the one at pantry not as nice) i need the milo to survive my day ya noe.. they keep me warm and happy! i have at least one every working day.. so far my record is 4 in a day! (still, nothing beats the milo zw makes for me!)

oh ya.. wanna know how i get fat? other than sitting whole day long.. i had this!

the biggest packet available at the ntuc near my office!! haha.. i share it with another colleague sw la.. but still.. it's so sinful and gives me lots of extras!! my colleagues from HR oso once in a while gives us chocolates, biscuits and blablabla leh! haha.. (happy, but sinful)

so far that's about it.. haven't got other pictures.. will tell more when i get my pictures uploaded haha.. office is still boring.. *sulks*

oh ya oh ya! i wanna show off my pretty pretty pink nails!

so nice!! nvm about my dry and rough fingers!! look at the nails! i painted them myself leh! (gosh i so veri bimbo buay tahan).. can't see properly?

this one can see properly le ma?

wahahahaha.. too bad they lasted max 3 days.. today they look torn and tattered le.. oh well, i'm not one of those rich gers who can keep their hand off washing dishes or clothes okie..

enough of the craze over nails.. haha

i was rather upset yesterday cos i was looking for my fav underwear (yes i have a favourite, in fact a few favourites la) but it was nowhere to be found.. then thinking it must be my blur mama put it in her own cupboard le, i went to ask if she has seen it..

ma, you got see my white g-string?
huh? which one?
i only have one leh.. i wanna bathe le, can help me find? the black one oso can.
oh, that one. i forgot to tell you i was washing it...
then drop downstairs ar?
no, i tot the pail no more clothes le then i pour the water into the toilet bowl and flush lo.. then before i can save your black underwear it got flushed down le..
(stunned) what?!?!?!?!?! my favourite leh!!! y so sotong?
haha, few days back le i forgot to tell you..
that one very comfortable and nice to wear leh! triumph wan leh!! walau!
sorrie la.. i tot no more clothes le ma.. you go buy new one lo..
but that one is during robinson sale buy wan.. i like it alot!!! *pulls hair* then the white one leh?
i dunno la.. i go find.
@%!^#&(

so that's it.. i was so upset i told zw about it haha.. in fact i keep whining abt my got-flushed-down-the-toilet-bowl black g-string.. so i need to do some underwear shopping le.. i will buy the same one if possible.. haiz..

tried this from jasc's blog.. had nothing better to do..



i'm not a nerd!!

rite... *rolls eyes*

seems like recently i like to post little smses or messages.. keeping them in my hp inbox occupies space which makes my oredi slow hp slower.. and they run the risk of being accidentally deleted.. when i post them here.. at least i have the chance to look back and smile.. going through the memories again.. no matter for laughs or for tears.. it's a much better way than to cry over the messages i lost.. which i did more than enough for me to start posting them online..

the first time (all of sd's and frens') gone when i trade in my hp.. a tinge of sadness too overwhelming at that point in time..

the second time (bh's) which i kept for years gone when i accidentally deleted it while sleeping (dun ask me how i did it).. i cried buckets at jing's place man.. tho i always say it's the korean drama vcd we were watching..

the third time (all sm's) when i decided it was time to move on.. i cried for a long time..

the fourth time (my beloved dapig's folder) gone when i was too drunk to realise wat i was doing.. *smacks forehead* i had a 7x7=49 days of mourning over it.. not to mention the constant niaoing from dapig himself.. *bish* i dun mean to be exaggerated but tears did fall the moment i realise i deleted the folder.. *sobz*

the fifth time (all of k's) gone when my a800 decides it's too old to keep them.. see how fucked up technology can be.. i haven't seen those messages in months and finally when i thought i can look thru them before changing hp.. they decided to disappear.. some things are just not meant to be haha.. i've learnt to stop crying over him him.. ahem.. them..

the sixth and perhaps the 'stupidest' time.. (many of zw's) gone in a moment (okie a few moments..erm.. actually many moments) of anger.. did i cry over the messages i can't remember.. haha..

the above mentioned refers to hps smses only.. i did not include irc, icq, msn chat history..

there.. my reasons for posting messages once in a while all too often here.. hehe..

side note: i think the fourth time's the worst.. all my zy's j's gw's hs's ad's m's t's yl's zw's sg's smses gone leh!! GONE!!! DELETED!! (gosh seems like i haven gotten over it huh~)

(A goodnight sms forwarded)
HahA. DA pIg. EAt moRe thEn cutEr. LikE a rEaL pIg. HAhA
wa, thanks. just realised my thighs get fatter le.
...

tot it's quite funny la.. out of the blue tell me to eat more.. i'm telling you i AM piggin out like nobody's business!!

but too bad.. you still fatter than me.. muahahahahahahahah~

let me back track a little.. since i've got the photos available.. and yes.. it's another round of piggin out!!!
*muahahahahahahahaha*

7 June Tuesday



my calamari, rosti w cheese pork sausage, chunky mushroom soup and ice cream waffle!! (i had no choice but to choose banana since monkey is there *keke*) yummy yummy yum!! i had one helluva dinner on a tuesday!!

all of these as a pleasant surprise after a night of fight between monkey and me.. according to monkey, coming to pick me up from office and treat me to marche dinner was an act to appease me (i'm that fierce huh?!?!).. but oh well, like i said, it was indeed a pleasant surprise.. despite the "where to find this kind of bf?" etc self-boasting remarks by monkey after the dinner.. *shakes head*

there are guys more sweet lo.. for example in shoe sessions.. the entry on troubles.. go check it out..

by the way i left out a pic that finally made me laughed my head off (yeah yeah gone is all the anger and unhappiness!)


monkey eating banana!! lol
*rolls on floor*

i was browsing through my blog archives this morning.. and i realised how naive and childish i used to be (not that i'm not already).. it seems to me i start to kai1 qiao4 starting 3rd quarter of 2003.. which happens to be the time when my life was the most happening and at the same time messed up.. in terms of family (financial instability) and bgr..

and all thru this while i've received tremendous help from my friends (esp jasc n sean) during this period, listening to me, giving me advices.. or just simply being there.. i'm most appreciative of them..

if things weren't the way they were, then things won't be what they are today.. history cannot be re-written but it definitely can be prevented from repetition..
so yes i'm fine with it..

to me, i just don't like things to be hanging somewhere or nowhere.. just like when i had a big crush for sd during jc years i decided to tell him abt it before we graduate and i'm glad we did talk about what was going through our minds.. then when it comes to k, which obviously now i SEE the stupidity and impetuous side.. i did not have a chance to talk it out and get it out of my system. it's like going thru and recovering from an operation to remove a fork only to realise a small piece of metal was left inside of me.. haha.. not fatal, yet not fully rid of the fork.. on the other hand, i can pretend the metal is not there (but never that the fork hadn't been inside of me) or simply forget the existence of the metal (which is not possible too).. but of course i'm afraid going through another operation to remove the metal may diagnose me with other problems more severe. worst still, they may never be curable.. i don't know what to do.. just want to enjoy the simplicity of the company.. just like this one

"oei, what's ur msn?
oei, it is ------at hotmail.com..
oei, ok, add you le
oei, got fot it fit liao fiao la fa!"

oNe dAy, LovE mEt fRieNdsHiP. LovE aSkEd fRiEndsHiP, "wHy dO yOu eXiSt wHen i aLrEaDy eXiSt?" fRiEndShIp rEpLiEd, "tO pUt a sMiLe wHeRe yOu LeFt tEaRs..."

indeed, i'm smiling.. *grinz*

i was too stubborn and ignorant of the consequences back in those years (2 years ago oso very long le okie).. to actually be a third party, i must have been more than overwhelmed by my ideals (you noe, bballgoodlookinggentlesweetnicefunnyandall).. and i'm guilty for all the rubbish caused to my friends.. and at this moment in time i wanna say BIG thankyou to puiee.. a very forgiving person.. and with principles.. yeah, there were real bad times but she did not leave me at any point of them.. i just can't thank her enough la.. you know can le la hor haha..

i think the second period i started to kai1 qiao4 would be 2nd to 3rd quarter of 2004.. when again, my life seems to be the most happening and messed up.. (hey ppl really do grow in times of adversity eh?) with foc and rag going on, i started to meet my friends less.. ironically, i got to know more people (not friends) through the partying every wednesdays (and sometimes saturdays).. i became a bitch and did alot of things (sometimes ridiculous).. i tried smoking, stayed out all night, dirty danced, lied to sm just to name a few.. the short break in between foc and rag camp gave me an excellent opportunity to do some reflection.. i recognize the kind of life i wish for and the kind of person i want to be with.. in short i woke up. plus i met the person who made me make a decision. and to my pleasant surprise, i became what i am this very day..

zw has definitely tamed me alot alot haha.. he made me appreciate how much one can change (or give up) for a person you love.. he is what i hope for (although not exactly there yet haha).. at least now i can see a future and work towards it.. at least now i have the security i long sought after (yes, really LONG).. and recently, i finally prove i can study well if i want to (i'm still oh-so-fun-loving ok, not nerdy)..

despite that i have to admit that i miss those 'carefree' days.. minus the ridiculous doings.. i still want my gatherings and outings with pigumao(ses is me).. i still like the excitement of gg on dates (silly).. my long long dinners with gw yl matt.. my dinner dates with dapig.. i still wan many ktv and shopping sessions with the gals.. i still wan mahjong sessions at my place.. and i do miss the long meetings and preparation work for foc and rag..

i'm glad to become a better person.. i'm glad to see my friends becoming better and happier each day..

and with that.. life goes on.. =)

hello
hello ya?
forgot to say thank you la, so ya, thank you haha..
ha, silly la you.
wat..
(short pause)
okie, nothing else.
orh, bye bye
wait. i've got a question.
ya.. what?
er... aiya, nothing, dun wan to ask le.
ask la, what question?
er, nothing nothing. bye bye.
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hm.. what you wanna ask i think i roughly know. when you feel like asking le then ask ba.. go sleep le la. gdnite.
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verbal constipation.. lost for letters to put into words to form the question. this word hasn't appear for a long time. mixed emotions.

once again. the scar hidden underneath layers of concealers reveals the lack of lotion to soothe and lighten the texture.

dabee's a zombie in office today.. cos haven't slept last nite.. was @ jasc's bday chalet.. she's a real babe by the way.. birthday girl owas so chio wan hor?? anyhow.. i had fun, and i'm sure she did.. haha.. photos to be uploaded soon (once i on my comp at home) thanks pUieee for da desperate housewives episodes!! the ones i have at home is 15 and 16!!! so i shall need 17 to link it up! haha..

meeting 'pi' 'gu' and 'mao' is like realizing a lifelong dream haha. the pigumaoses finally gathered after 2 Loooooooonnnnnnngggg years.. when we were playing bridge upstairs in the bedroom, i suddenly missed the times during ESN so much.. i mean it's really SOOOOOOO MUCH.. so much i wan it back, i wan to cry.. at the same time i felt confused, wasted, overwhelming.. haha.. and seriously i'm looking forward to a dinenr or movie or mahjong or wateva outing.. i hope the one in black *muahaha* will not MIA again..

that aside, sports bike is cool. riding on it is even better.. taking a ride on it at night when the weather's so fine is ze best.. haha.. thanks kel for sending me home.. i wan more rides on bikes!! haha *cranky bee*

thanks jasc for da chalet.. have fun with all the presents! thanks da pig for taking care of my a800 (no matter how it looks now) *giggles*

tHiS eNtRy iS jUs fOR yOu.. jaScELyN tEo cHiN puaY!! mUaHhaHha

hAppY 21sT biRtHdAy tO yOu~

eNjOy tHiS sPeCiaL dAy oF yOuRs.. mAy aLL yOur dReAms bE fULfiLLeD aNd bE aS hEaLThY aS eVeR..

LoVe yA lOts!! *mUAckz*

as dabee's zoo trip tmr is cancelled, plus dabee thinks dabee&monkey deserve a little rewarding treat... dabee&monkey head down to tonkichi @ suntec for a sumptious dinner! after much thoughts.. (actually more like dilly-dally-ing) monkey decides on katsu don



while dabee decides to have something more 'dabee'.. kaisen don!!


dabee: the chawanmushi is fabulously fantastic! (erm, is it coorrreeecct 'inkerlish'?)
(monkey started gobbling down his katsu don while dabee savors the salmon and prawns..)

after dinner.. dabee wants more! monkey suggested hagen daz fondue.. dabee's eyes went *ting ting*.. wait, make that *TING TING!* and off they go hagen daz @ esplanade for that wonderful fondue!

(dabee&monkey browsing menu..)
monkey: eh, later you order hor, not sure if 'fondue' is read as 'forndew' or what..
dabee: aiya dunno just point to menu la! or ask the person how to read lo..
monkey: dun wan la, so sia suay..
dabee: rolls eyes. okie, i order lo..

and so dabee orders a fondue that serves 1.. (yes it's pronounced as 'forndew')
more than enough for two of them especially after tonkichi dinner..



at a cost of $15.90, dabee&monkey get to enjoy a real mini choc buffet *haha*.. four flavors of mini ice cream scoops (choc chip, coffee, vanilla, raspberry) to dip in hot choc followed by bits of nuts.. look at dabee!! salavating before she can put that ice cream scoop into her mouth!! *YUM* for the fruits.. there's green apple, banna and strawberry!! to dabee&monkey's preference, monkey only takes banana (duh) and dabee can have the rest! as monkey dun get to have more banana (they only give a few slices), monkey decides to take sips of melted chocolate for satisfaction.. *nehnehneh* dabee&monkey finally have enough of the chocolate fondue(actually dabee has more of the serving heh) and so leave the rest of the chocolate alone..

**BbBbBuUUuUuuuRrRrRrrrRRRrrPPppPPpppp**

let the picture do the speaking for me... *ecstasy*


wait a minute.. i think it's not enough man.. my best sem ever.. 3As leh!! ffwwaaahhh! power sia! mai siao siao okie.. muahahaha.. i wan to show off-------here lo.. who say i can't study i box them! haha.. (but then again it may be luck la) whatever the reasons... i'm still happy.. tis sem alone i got 4.4 leh!! but too bad past sems bu4 zheng1 qi4 so overall below 4 la.. but i'm still elated haha.. a little regret why never put s/u option for employee mgt.. if not my cap tis sem wil be 4.62+leh! haha.. then got chance to be on dean's list leh! what the h***.. nvm la.. i shall zhi1 zu2 chang2 le4!!

maybe zw's intelligence and luck pass to me liaoz.. *evil grin* for my last year i an relac abit liaoz la! as long as dun fall below 3.2 cap point can le la!! *hops around*

no no, not celebrating or treating anyone for good results.. haha, waiting for ppl treat me leh! haha.. back to work for now lo... -_-"

IT'S NOT YOUR CLOTHES.
IT'S NOT YOUR HANDWRITING.
IT'S NOT YOUR TV SHOWS.

IT'S YOUR WATCH THAT TELLS MOST ABOUT WHO YOU ARE.

Got this from the seiko website.. muahahaha... it's so zw.. i can't stand it i have to put in here.. *bleahz*

anyway.. i think this men's watch is really chio..


but then again this is not bad too..


so which looks nicer? haha personally i prefer the white one.. ha, just browsing the net as usual, when i taking break during work la.. so what do u think? haha.. *white one white one!* by the way it's seiko criteria SNA series.. bloody hell >$400..

let's continue with watch viewing muahaha.. i think the following tag heuer link watches are not bad too.. picture quality not very good la.. but can try the website.. it's so user friendly.. showing an array of their series!!!



you realise it's either black or white don't you? haha but what the hell, the other colors are not nice la! at least to me heh.. white gives that kind of 'prince charming' (and rich) look.. the black gives the cool, calm and sophisticated feel.. don't bother asking the prices of tag heuer.. *vomit blood* i think it's worth one europe tour per watch..

i'd love to continue with breitling and watnots.. but it's time for me to start packing for home! haha.. maybe tmr..

i noticed some incoherence in my previous post.. but what the heck.. haha..

my p5 tuition kid refuses to have tuition today.. i'm glad i won't miss my desperate housewives.. i'm glad i dun have to travel all the way to cck.. but there GOES MY MONEY!!!!!!!! argh... i'm broke broke broke.. OH-SO-BROKE... what the f***.. i need the money.. my goodness.. it's the great singapore sale leh!!!! wah biangz.. that's it la.. there goes my shopping spree.. *ppooooooffff* and i still haven clear my debt leh! i still owe him $400 BIG bucks!! what the hell.. my internship pays me minimum!!! and if i take leave they deduct the pay!! *puiee* SUPER SUPER PUIEE!!! *pounds table stomps foot* and i wanna get my dear good pressie!!
Seems like i can't rebond hair and shop le.. no ktv no movie.. can only window shop and at most cut hair.. *Baaaaaaaaa*

Meanwhile i dunno what to get for my dear fren... *scratches head*

me, zw and some other frens were at a restaurant having dinner.. then 2 guys walked towards our table. one started putting his arm around one of my frens saying hi.. and the other seemed interested in zw's hair.. so he started playing around with his hair, while looking seductively at the my guy fren opposite him.. i realised they are gays.. i'm not against them but i just thought it's weird for them to just come over.. then i looked across the restaurant.. i saw a table of 6 girls all dressed up 'gothly'.. why they hell were they dressed up like that in a chinese restaurant?? i was intrigued, so i continued staring at them fumbling with their chopsticks and asking one another how to eat the beiking roast duck.. meanwhile zw was totally disgusted with the 2 strangers who tried to make frens with them.. i frowned real hard and wanted to ask them to leave.. then i saw there were other men behind me, all looked weird.. they are cross dressers..
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then i woke up.. W-E-I-R-D dream i had.. is it a hint for me to buy 4D?? hurm.. *ponders*
anyhow, i took the trouble to leave house early (7.15am) so tat i can reach office before 830.. and guess what? the bus broke down.. i was late for 15 minutes in the end.. is this bad luck or is this bad luck? urgh.. disgusted.. i haven been punctual this whole week! *gaaaaaaaaaaaa*
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yesterday went party world ktv @ orchard.. jh's birthday.. my first time gg ktv with them.. jh sing DAMN NICE la! the best i've heard so far.. yes yes.. MUCH better than mel.. haha.. my goodness.. when he started singing i just went *stuuuuunnnnnneeeedddd*... cos it's so nice la.. haha.. i had fun.. but not so much fun cos nobody rap with me.. they dun like to rap.. *sulk* anyway, zw sing very nice too leh!! muahahaha.. before gg ktv we were walking around la.. then i keep noticing gers looking at him.. is it just me? what? just becos he look better in shirt and pants? *pui* he said they are just looking at his shirt maybe.. *huh?!?!* i told him it's a girls' thing.. i can't help but notice.. then i told him dun wear this shirt le.. haha he gave me that you-are-crazy look.. *bish*
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back to work.. "gd morning, may i speak to... hi i'm calling from... we're obtaining feedback regarding.. if you complete this survey we'll send you... within a few weeks.. can you spare me a few minutes..."
(-_-)zZZz

quite many things have happened the past week.. i hardly have the time to have enough sleep until yesterday night..

17may tuesday
went cuppage party world sunlight city celebrate wanhui's 21st birthday.. i had fun.. cos really very long never sing with them.. especially since i missed shuhui's celebration the previous week.. let's see.. 7 of us went.. wanhui shuhui me jingling inez ben and jm.. by the time i reached home and had a decent bath.. it's like past 1am.. and i had to wake up at 645am the next morning!
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18may wednesday
keep yawning during work.. my collegue told me my eyebags are getting obvious.. after work i went for tuition and my gosh.. i actually fell asleep while teaching them for the first time.. in the end i couldn't take it anymore i called it a day, ending tuition half hour earlier.. then i went home, bathed, and collapsed after 1am.
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19may thursday
yonghui's 21st bday celebration at aranda country club that evening.. my dear came to pick me up at my workplace! hee.. then took a bloody long train ride to pasir ris.. it'snice seeing the uni gang.. haven't met them since end of exams.. we entertained ourselves.. taking photos, playing cards, talking rubbish.. hehz.. left at abt 1030 and guess ehat timei reached home? 1230! then bathed and again.. i collapsed after 1am.. by that time i looked like a panda..
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20may friday
went to work a little later today cos i overslept.. TGIF! my productivity was super low today.. and we even took a 1hr15min lunch! when by rite my lunchtime was only 45mins.. haiz.. we surfed the net, chat online, eat the sweets and cakes other collegues bought and gossiped.. managed to call 25 customers today only, when my target was 30.. after work, my dear came to meet me and we went to old airport road market to eat dinner! it'sour first time there.. the market is so darn huge!! you know you get spoilt for choices when there's so many kinds of nice food.. in the end, we decided on wanton mee andhalf a herbal chicken!

this is the stall as introduced by the channel U program.. and there's my dear collecting our wanton mee! queue number 100~

tadah!! my $2 wanton noodle!!

*salavating* presenting da delicacy.. herbal chicken!!!

GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE GUYS

i'm not sure is it a good or bad thing to cry over the person you love, for the things he did, for the things i did that upset him, for the rough times, whatever.. i'm a crybaby or almost one, but never in my life have i cried so hard and so much over a person. and to think that i'm a strong believer of 'the only man worth crying for is the one who knows he can but will never make you cry' *slaps myself* wake up please..

i wonder what are guys made of. whenever there's a problem, they say sorry and if that's not enough, they ask what the gals want them to do. when the gals say dunno, the guys go berserk and decide there's nothing else to be done.. when gals are more concerned about the way problems are solved, they way they deal with them.. depending on the situation and time and other things that happened.. they do things not understanding why they are doing it, just for the fact that the gals asked for it.. they stand by strong to their thinking and don't agree to the gals' way of thinking. when things turn bad, they rake up the fact that they din even think they should've done what they did and that the gals are just sensitive and worrisome creatures making their lives stressful.. they see minor problems as minor problems, ignoring the little details which can grow big without proper dealings. they think they do not need to agree with the gals as long as they do what the gals like, which worsens the viscious cycle when they rake up their 'reluctance'.. they become angry when talking about the little details the gals mention which the guys think are of no issue. their anger overpowers the gals ability to convey their feelings and importance of these details. they are able to act as if nothing has ever happened before the next instant when either the problem is solved or not. and perhaps the most brilliant of all which the gals falls for.. they have the ability to make the whole situation turnaraound.. it becomes the gals' fault or wrongdoing to start with..

at least it almost holds for me.. i feel so so tired at this moment in time with us.. a whole day's absence resulted in at least 8 calls for a comforting assurance. which happened to not be fulfilled, driving the level of worry uneasiness and anger.. turn out it was unintentional, last minute, only a short while (30mins).. so i wasn't subjected to the liberty to be angry. (when in the first place the whole day's absence is enuff to drive me crazy.. not mentioning the 30mins) nvm abt tt, since i know it was unintentional.. then came the "what u wan me to do" strategy that ignites the fury.. i should be sedated by all these times.. but it's a first offence doing so there's no second time according to him.. i dunno how to say it's not the first time u used this strategy (and it is this that matters).. i felt like i'm running a program, manipulating to my pleasure.. worse still when he said he dun deserve 'punishment' it wasn't a grave sin. true it wasn't a grave sin but i'll feel guilty and try to do something to make up.. oh well, he isn't me and so i'm not allowed to judge.. like i said. i'm really tired.. i want a break..

i shall go use my 'toothpaste strategy' to prevent swollen eyes.. i dun wan to look like a puffer on my first day of work!

-to my dearest (ya u still are cos i get upset over the tiniest thing with u).. i dunno if this is considered immature but i will run away when i'm tired.. there are so many things i don't like and i know i can never change them. i don't want to be the silly woman who thinks she can change a man.. i'm sure there are many things you don't like about me. i'm getting incoherent already, damn it.. what i'm tryng to say is, i wish you can understand girls.. there's no harm speaking to others, asking your friends or others.. there are so many things i don't know how to tell you.. and whenever u become irritated when i want to tell you, the words disappear to the back of my brains, it's really difficult for me to talk. i'm beginning to think my tears are of no use since u think i'm a crybaby.. but i can tell you there is not a single time my tears fall for the sake of falling.. while you may think guys are just different and girls' thinking are weird.. i still wish u can understand.. i want to understand you but i dun seem to be doing well.. i'm really tired now.. really.. dun even think that i'm just pmsing.. i'm sorry, for worrying, for calling u at that time, for being angry at you.. when each and everytime there's such a coincidence or excuse that condemns my feelings.. as much as i feel wronged, feel angry to be treated the way i was, to hear those hurting words (either with or without ur knowing), for each time i cried that made u think i'm just a crybaby.. i'm SORRY.. -

my my.. i can feel the 'extras' accumulating around my waist and thighs.. from the amount of food i've consumed and failed to be worked away by my declining metabolism rate.. urgh..
had steamboat dinner @marina south.. now my stomach's full of prawns and all kinds of shrooms they hav.. *buuuuurrrrrrpppp* then went to harry's esplanade to chill out.. i'm not a fan of beer.. neither a fan for contemporary jazz.. but the company's enough reason to go.. haha..


my bbq prawns!!!

what time is it? it's tiger time! *lame*

m asked me what's so good or bad abt zw, this made me think through it seriously.. ended up not saying cos he's paiseh ha! hurm.. in short.. i think i like the fact that he has an idea of what he wants in life and works hard for it.. isn't this trait just so attractive? *nods furiously* doesn't matter the present value.. as long as the future value will be infinity as quoted from mr teoh muhahaha.. perhaps he can be more open minded.. i feel there's potential for him to see more and be more accepting.. yep.. haha..

yes, it's another round of pigging out today!

wanted to watch 1245 movie but ended up sleeping and sleeping.. catched the 1530 kingdom of heaven @ cine instead.. hmmm, orlando bloom's still good-looking.. without blue eyes and blonde hair haha.. the movie's to me.. nice! like jasc said made me think but not much impact.. other than that, i like the war scenes.. fighting scenes.. so bloody and so COOL! muahahaha.. oh ya, that reminds me nel mentioned i'll like house of wax haha.. by the way, we bought nachos @ cine and i felt so bloody hell cheated la! the cheese has no chesse taste and looks so orangy.. zw said it taste like they put pepper and flour and water only.. it sucks totally.. and the chips' so little! the only consolation is the chips alone taste better than GV ones haha..


see, the cheese's so watery.. *puke*

before the movie we went taka for some finger food.. there's a sale @taka square.. women's shoes and bags.. until 23may.. guess? bags going at 50%! i think i'll go down again.. saw a couple quite nice ones.. and affordable haha.. do go down and take a look ya? haha

dinner @amk central.. 2 of us had chix cutlet, prawn mee and lor mee.. it's PIGGING OUT! haha.. nice nice.. finger lickin good leh! how the hell do they fry that chix til so crispy and tasty? gosh, i'm starting to get hungry now..

after dinner went to visit yihui.. her baby boy's so adorable!! my gosh.. a cousin 2 days older than me is already a mother!! her husband's only 23yrs old! and he happens to be zw's sec sch mate!! haha.. is singapore small or what? anyhow, they related their story on the day of giving birth to me.. haha she made it sound so easy! and she plans to have 3 children.. when she asked when will it be my turn i said maybe 10yrs later.. then she said "my! then my youngest child will be 4yrs and oldest 10 le leh!" well, i told her it's different la.. her husband love kids so much and they are looking for a different kind of lifestyle from me.. i mean it's not up to me to have how many children rite.. have to see my partner oso ma.. so then she asked me in a soft tone (i think zw din hear it la) "orh, he don't like children is it?" haha i laughed and replied "how you know he'll be the father of my children?"

so we continued chatting, playing with her baby, taking photos.. i told her when i went to shop for something for the baby and when i see her baby i want to have my own too! haha.. so silly hor.. you know it's indescripable when i see that kind of tenderness in her eyes when she look at her baby.. *awwwwww*

so cute rite?? he's brendon.. the 2 week old member of the family! haha

finally i get to sing my ktv todayeeeeee!!! wheeeeeeewwwwwheeeeee!!! *gaaa*

woke up early in the morning (but still late meeting jasc).. accompanied her to terminate her california membership.. walked around awhile, had lunch and walk around some more.. before going back to je kbox to sing! cine kbox didn't have student promo and it's $12+++ 2to7pm.. je kbox student promo $6+++ 2to7pm.. why not rite? so four of us (nel qian jasc me) ended up paying $10.50 each.. if more ppl go, will be cheaper la.. cos the tidbits charge is fixed wan.. muahahaha.. date me date me! i still wanna sing!

i shall say it again.. i love my gals!! they are a hell of fun!! took alot of photos.. silly photos funny photos, scary photos.. blablabla.. will upload and put the link soon.. i laughed til i teared and my jaws and stomach ache when i looked at them.. hmmm, perhaps one downside would be the bloody cold room la.. it's so so cold!! *shivers* hehz.. it was superb fun nevertheless!

went to makan dinner @ chomp chomp after ktv.. with my dear! haha. we're so pig.. okieokie.. i'm so pig.. finished almost the whole stingray alone! simply love it! yummalicious! why is all the nice food good food i like in the north or east? argh... i wanna move to the north.. haha