anyone watched the nkf cancer charity show last nite?

i watched abit of it.. and i made one call to make donation.. tell me i've not been tricked.. i saw the clip of the 4 year old boy who suffered from brain cancer.. i was so sad i felt guilty not donating.. haiz..

i'm not rich la, so i call once only..

i dun really give a fuck abt what performance they do la.. if i wan to donate i donate.. haha.. am i contradicting here? i mean my family dun do this kind of calling to make donation.. i used to not do it.. having the tot if i wan to donate i will do it myself directly to the organisation.. not through singtel and pay the $0.21 fee..

but yesterday i jus called.. hahah.. probably on impulse.. but i did feel better after tt call.. the boy is really so poor thing..

many think aiya, jus another gimmick to zhuan4 ren2 re4 lei4 so can garner more donations.. yeah ppl like me will probably call la.. they win lo.. hmmm.. i have nothing much to say abt tis..

but what went through my mind was the scary tot of having the same thing to happen to me.. i haven't got a close kin kena-ing (TOUCHWOOD) cancer but i can't help fearing how i would face it when it really happens..

perhaps i'm dumb la, but i do agree that we can help by donating.. since we can never understand the pain and troubles these patients go through.. of cos we can help by volunteering out services.. but money definitely goes a long way to help ease their burden..

this i can so understand..

by the way my grandfather was telling me an encounter he had with a girl trying to ask him to donate at sgh..

uncle, want to donate to charity?
huh? for wat wan?
orh, for the patients who aren't able to pay medical fees
eh? i gg to see doctor i haven even pay u wan me to pay now?
(stunned)
u go ask govt dun charge so high fees lo..

my grandfather so funny hor.. ha, cos he was quite bewildered seeing someone asking for donations at the hospital where many are there to spend money la.. i noe this behavior is a bit too irritating but given his character, he could have been worse.. wahahaha

back to the charity show thingy..

one reason i don't want to call is cos i'm skeptical abt how the money is being used.. i mean, they can say the money goes totally and directly to ease the patients' burden.. but how much truth is there? which is why i said i'll rather donate directly myself la.. but then again my method oso won't guarantee 100% money help the patients hor.. haha..

and then hor.. u see through the tv show so many ppl call to donate.. the proceedings only go to nkf cancer fund.. what abt other smaller organisations trying to help? i mean when they try to collect donations ppl wil like "eh, i donate alot oredi leh, dun ask me to donate anymore la.." or "huh, i donate got luckry draw or not?"

u see.. donating becomes not solely for the purpose of helping.. the ppl wan to get something in return.. this culture is bad.. although not everyone is like tt la.. i oso dunno what i'm trying to say.. it jus appears to me that other organisations/beneficiaries in tt sense are many times neglected.. and it makes the job tougher for them..

jus like when i was doing fic last year.. the most common response was that they had called the nkf line, hence dun wish to donate anymore.. the small beneficiaries we were helping whre got resources to have tv shows like nkf? somemore the ppl will be so bored of the charity shows la.. (as if we are not sianded by them le)..

haiz.. what is it coming to man..

i wan to do volunteer work.. i always want to.. but i'm not ready to just walk in to a place and go "hey i want to volunteer, jus tell me wat to do.." i need company.. i don't think i can do this alone.. and i tot the more the merrier.. it's kind of fun volunteering with friends.. and i want a fixed one.. i mean helping out at a fixed place u noe..

when i have the company.. i'll arrange time for it.. i like the sense of satisfaction from helping ppl.. anyone wanna go volunteering with me?