i know this is abit outdated but hey!! better late than never!

i celebrated my 21st birthday very very early on 27aug05 (saturday) at pasir ris ntuc chalet! reason being my birthday week(13 sep) is the school holiday week (chalet more expensive) plus i figured most of my friends will be bogged down by sch work or what nots then.. so yep.. haha..

this will be a very picture loaded entry.. haha cos i lazy to describe la.. a picture speaks a thousand words.. i guess there are more than 15k words worth!

some random shots.. courtesy of my photographer jascelyn wahahah..

some of my friends here.. from top left: valerie, weisheng, valerie(again), jiahui, victor, my sister! the one on extreme right.. my good good gossip kaki! gw!!!

some of the friends i've known for 10 years! qy, matt, gw, yl.. they are the ones who've seen all kinds of me.. from the tomboy/tootkia blablabla.. wahaha
my beloved jc classmates! hunks and babes of 01S86! kind of miss the times we watch dvds, bake cheese cake, play mahjong, watch soccer together.. haiz.. time flies.. really flies..
eh.. according to my jc classmates, these are sd and my 3 co-op boyfriends.. wahahah.. no comments from me.. except i think they are really nice people.. nice friends la.. ar! my bizad seniors!! they are the ones who help me alot alot when i was still a blur blur year one sotong in bizad leh!! seniors are very useful resourceful.. from textbooks lobang to project groupmates.. *keke*woohoo~! da bizad guys.. haha.. kind of amazing.. some of the guys i used to 'bio' for fun are my good friends now leh! haha.. really amazing lor.. (yonghui will noe wat i toking abt)

what's ws trying to do?!?!?the bizad pretty pretty gals! yulun! too bad u go smu.. see the pretty gals are here!!! bizad!!! hahaha..

oh oh oh !!! happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me.. happry birthday to meeee.... happy birthday to me!! my nice nice chocolate cake from emi cakes! this one is called pure addiction.. the other one (no photo) i got was superb choc.. heavenly tasty!!!
make a wish.. and blow out the candles..

my family!! i think my cousins very pretty and handsome.. my sis will have her turn la! soon soon~ haha

my primary school buddies...
sajc friends..
my sa and bizad junior!
bizad seniors!
bizad gang!
my dear!! how can dun take photo with my dear hor? shot 1... we ugly.. look weird leh..
nvm... take again.. shot 2.. change sides.. i look better le.. but dear dear look abit blur!!!
okieokie one more shot! how come dear still look weird? no camera face wan.. *humph* i give up! *pouts*
cutting cake time!!! my cousin yr is really good man!! haha such a great helper and i do appreciate it very very much!!!
well, i din get to try the first cake (pure addiction) but my friends say it's nice! the one i ate(superb choc) is very very nice too!! haha i keep helping emi cakes da3 guang3 gao4 leh..

haha you think present so easy can get wan ar??3 envelopes to choose from.. choose the empty one then too bad le!!!
guess did i choose wisely? i would like to think that i did.. if not for monkey's itchy hand help me choose.. haha kidding la.. i tot it's a pretty interesting way to kajiao me.. of cos i get my present in the end la.. haha they are nice ppl okie!!
i guess the biggest eater will be ws la.. dunno how many pieces of cakes he ate.. haha even my mum recognizes him as the one who is so mischevious and eat alot of cake one.. hahaha
how can i forget my ny babes? never! here's later on in the night.. when everybody go home le.. jasc waiying yongling nellie liling~

haha the highlight of the night in my very own opinion.. my present from monkey is revealed upon some of our friends' instigation.. he said he'd give it to me quiely if they nv suggest they wan to see it haha.. but well.. quoting from del, "this kind of thing must show ppl mar!!!" and so monkey (gladly) did..

i had absolutely no idea what he was gg to giv me.. tho i suspected it'll be some accessories.. he did mention it was small but the value was big.. given these clues some of u will be like chey.. sure know it's ring rite.. i have absolutely no idea!! cos monkey once told me he'll not buy ring and if he were to buy, he'll bring me along.. so there..

i was so so so touched when i open the box up to see my goldheart trilogy ring.. first reaction was wow! it's a ring! second thought was my goodness! diamond ring leh! damn expensive la!!! third thing that went through my mind my dear monkey is so so sweet!! i wan to cry le lah!!

yep.. and my mind was kind of blank the instance i see the ring.. it's all very natural.. the tears jus came welling up.. it means alot to me okie.. monkey not rich wor.. he still willing to spend on what he deemed jus a piece of thing for me.. FOR ME OKIE!! *weeps* where to find this kind of guy?? (okie i noe there are guys like him la but... but i still wan to say he's one of a kind).. my first $1500 0.51carat diamond ring!!!

what followed i can't really remember le.. went around talking to my friends.. they exclaiming at my ring.. telling me monkey is the one oredi.. ask me dun play play liao.. when getting married must invite them blablabla.. touched or not.. telling me monkey is really a sweet person.. can see he loves me alot.. thinks he suits me blablabla.. haha.. i can't exactly remember who told me wat but haha.. yeah..

now.. a closer look at the diamond ring.. haha.. anyway if wanna see the pictures more clearly.. jus click on them to enlarge!!
my presents from all of you!! some ang baos.. some vouchers (yeah i love shopping!).. some accessorries.. i'm a really happy happy girl person! thanks so much!!
wanna thank all who came.. really appreciate your coming to make my gathering 'happening'.. thanks all who give me presents! haha.. big thanks to (in no particular order) nellie who helped me send things to chalet first.. ben for offering to help drive me and buy ice.. jasc for being my personal assistant cum photographer.. my family for preparing food and logistics.. my babes for staying over to keep me company.. and my dear for booking chalet and what nots haha..

i enjoyed myself thoroughly.. hope you did too.. *smilez*

(urgh.. back to slogging)

monkey walked out of the toilet..

eh, handphone wallet got hor? (a very habitual qn ever since be lost his hp)

eh, ya, (looked down) kukujiao oso got. ha.

*stunned* super duper amused *lol*

A preview.. I'm a happy happy girl.. wahahaha..

I shall wait til my actual birthday to update the wonderful event.. *smilez*

h.a.n.g.o.v.e.r.

and a very horrible one too..

i actually missed whole day of classes *slaps myself hard*

vodka. whiskey. tequila. sex on the beach. kamikaze. chivas.

the last time i'm gonna drink so much i s.w.e.a.r

thanks jasc wh gab

back to sleep..

now it's close to my early bday chalet.. i get smses, msgs on what presents i want.. hahah

i'm lovin it..

at least i can suggest things i want/need.. there's the lack of anticipation but i'd rather get something i want la.. i dunno how many of u agree.. but the point of buyin a present for the person other than making the person happy or out of bobian-ness, it's best to be something he/she wants so he/she will be happy ma hor?

some of the 'no no' for me are soft toys, food, perlini silver(i jus dun like it), storybook(unless it's one i've been dying to have haha)..

i'm jus like any other gals babes women wateva u call it haha.. accessories like shoes and bags and belts and necklaces and earrings and rings makes me a happy happy person.. shopping shopping and more shopping makes me happy too (provided i have the money la) clothes clothes clothes! cosmetics, fragrances.. these are the things we all like!

there a some items i'd like to own at this moment but of cos i can't possibly go around telling ppl hey, okie, tis is wat i wan u go buy hor.. u must buy hor.. this sounds so idiotic.. i'll only suggest 1 or 2 things if my fren asks me la..

anyhow the main point is seeing my frens come for my simple gathering! it really means alot to me to see u all come la.. i can't exactly describe.. i mean hmmm.. who likes to see their frens not turn up and get fat eating the food prepared alone?

that's y i try my very best to turn up for every fren's birthday chalet..

i'm tired.. looking forward to saturday!!

i finally get to eat my crab from amk ave 3 blk 232...

after so bloody hell long.. but the crab like not very fresh.. not as nice as the previous time i ate..

but nvm.. the chilli gravy nice nice nice.. finger lickin good!! hahaha..

3 of us (jasc monkey me) spent a grand total of $72.. the 2 crabs alone cost $54... wahahaha..

now i have a BIG pimple jus above my left upper lip.. urgh! the crab so poisonous!!! but oh well, i'm happy..

i was abit unhappy when i had to go home alone.. haiz.. esp since it's so late le and it's the seventh month.. yeah i'm scaredy cat.. but monkey wil owas be monkey.. no send me home means no send me home..

actually to me it dun matter wat kind of gifts i get from him.. as long as he does the little little things tt makes me happy.. u noe.. like surprising me at my doorstep with a little puff i like.. or sending me home seeing it's so late oredi.. he says he's stupid so he "covers" it with nice gifts from him..

but i dun exactly like tt.. i mean of cos i'll love to be showered with nice presents (who don't?) but what's more important to me are not tangible..

ask me if i prefer a 0.3 carat diamond ring or him being with me for a whole day i'll choose the latter.. simple because nothing can replace his company..

in other words.. it dun mean u buy me nice things then can dun care me hor!!! wahahaha..

i have no idea... absolutely no idea wat he got for my 21st.. but grace says i'm a lucky gal.. hurm.. makes me so excited leh!! whahahahah so i keep bugging him to tell me.. hahahaha

*anticipation*

on our way to amk makan crab!!!
when the journey get's boring due to the length of bus ride.... we start taking photos!! hahaha..

monkey digs nose!!! yucks! *pukes*

attempting a silly face... eh?? haha okieokie monkey's normal face is silly enuff!

hahah muackz! *eeeeeeeeeeeeeyer*

how come monkey smile til so mian2 qiang3??!?!

a more normal shot after the wacky ones.. heh..

we're reaching soon... so becoming more normal.. monkey solo!

oops.. did i mention normal? forget abt that.. hahahaha

i think i look like a guy.. *shakes head* what to do when everyone says i look like my father???


my favourite shot of the evening!!!
tralalalal.. crabby crab here i come!!!

monkey choose..
monkey 'giap'..

monkey 'aaarrrrmmmmm'.. *chew chew chew*

monkey drinks... *buuurrrrp*

Nary a word may have been exchanged recently,
yet not forgotten or abandoned.
To you out there listening,
bless you with luck and jovial tidings..

Recently life's been a blur,
everyone wanting to be assured.
Souls that flit from place to place,
to join a merry merry tour.
Lost i feel tonight,
even with throngs of bodies around me.
Such a notion seems unlikely.
Sadly this feeling settless inside me.

A river of tears, a shoulder to comfort.
Therein a story is born, cliched thou it may seem.
A ray of light, illuminates the night.
Like the stubbornness of men, which guides them i ntheir path of choice.
Fate, destiny, karma, i make my own.
I'll not cower, I'll persist, I'll endeavour, I'll triumph..

(courtesy of da pig)

i'm afraid i'll accidentally delete the smses.. or my hp will decide to rejuvenate it's own system,, so yep..

i had a really funnei tele conversation with monkey..

'A' is for Angmotan..
'B' is for Bo bo cha cha / Balookoooo..
'C' is for... erm...
chaocheebye..
*stunned* *laughs loud loud*
'D' is for Dulan..
'E' is for..
eeyore!!
'F' is for.. fuck lo wat else??
'G' is for Goooondoosammi
'H' is for Haolian haolian!
'I' is for Idiot..
'J' is for Jialat!
'K' is for Kaopei ar..
or Kok ur head.. wahahaha
'L' is for wat?
i dun wan to say later u scold me say bad word
hahaha i say Ladio..
'M' is for Mar de...
'N' is for Nabeh! Ninabeh!
*Laughs again*
'O' is for Orrrbbeeeeee..
'P' is for Pai kia!
orh...
'Q' is for Qoo~!
'R' is for Rao lan
??? duno wat is it leh..
'S' is for Sia Suay..
'T' is for Toot kia!
'U' is for Urbooden??
*laughs*
'V' is for Varnarkarmmm..
'W' is for.. i noe! Walau!
'X' is for Xialan..
duh duh duh...
'Y' is for Yoyo lor..
eee so not innovative wan..
can't think of any le lar!!!
'Z' is for Zengwee!
*laughs very loud* why u associate urself with all the rubbish we jus said!??
hur~
hahah u so stupid leh!!!! *continues to laugh like a crazy bee..*

see wat the time of the day and uni life do to us? hahaha..

dabee was having lunch with monkey earlier today.. we tried another coffeshop (S11) at jurong east.. turned out the mee pok and wanton noodles not bad la..

and guess wat? there's mr bean there!!! beside the S11!!! means i get to drink my pearly soya!! woohoo~! hahah all the while i've been running to amk toa payoh to satisfy my cravings for it.. and there's actually one in je! but hey! the mr bean card didn't tell me there's one at je!

eh, have u thought of wat u wan to become in the future when u were very young?
erm.. yala.. alot alot lo... it changes with the tv shows i watched then..
haha mus be u wan to become homemaker rite..
eh, no leh, then was teacher, lawyer, forensic scientist. u leh?
hmmm, zookeeper.
*laughs*
very funny meh? not very common to wan to be zookeeper ar?
not to me.. dunno anyone except u who wants to be zookeeper..
*continues eating*

now i noe wat monkey's childhood dream was.. how appropriate!! hahaha.. i thin kthe closest i've come to know is my sis la, who wanted to become a vet..

panasonic VS2

i love this phone.. i love it the moment the commercial on tv caught my attention.. i think the pink one is very very pretty.. i think the black one is cool.. the silver one is too common.. it's $598 without mobile plans.. haiz.. seems like i can only look at it and salivate..

my mum commented tt my new hairstyle makes me look stupid.. oh well *shrugs*

my sis dun like it either.. she's still not used to it.. haha..

but i like it.. i like that it's soft and straight now.. i like it that i dun have to spend much time blowing it and combing it.. i like it tt finally monkey stops saying my hair's ugly..

though now he says i'm fat.. urgh~

i'm trying to sell some textbooks here wahahah... can't find any use for them sitting on my cupboard..


Leadership, Enhancing the Lessons of Experience by Hughes Ginnett and Curphy
Ed4, International Edition
MNO2311 Leadership in Organisation.. Taught by Dr William Koh.. nice module..
as u can see, it's in good condition.. and i have 2 copies with me.. price negotiable.. haha


Human Resource Management For Southeast Asia and HongKong by Tan Chwee Huat and Deren Torrington
Ed2 Prentice Hall
SS module. Employe Management in Singapore.. this is the older edition but more than 50% of my batch students (last semester) still uses it.. definitely useable and it's gg less than $15.. by the way it comes with notes as well it's an open book exam..


International Business An Asian Pacific Perspective by Andrew Delios Paul W.Beamish
Prentice Hall (both sold)
BSP2005 Asia Pacific Business and Society.. a core for all business students.. my worst (as in amount of readigns and work) core module as yet.. i have 2 copies and price negotiable..

contact me either through hp or email chuanhui@nus.edu.sg

clubbing with the gals yesterday was um.. fun.. we shall try mroe places next time.. rather than only momo and zouk..

tried a new drink (i forgot the name) and it was great! i love it muahahah..

joke of the nite..

q:guess how many holes my skirt has?!?
rest of us: ?!?!? *stunned*

oh and it's a nice feeling to be not not wanted.. hur~

yesterday i spent the whole afternoon sitting in kimage to rebond my hair.. cos i wanna surprise monkey on out one year anni.. haha.. lame rite.. he keeps saying my hair fugly.. so i tot yeah i should do something about it.. so there goes my 200big bucks.. for a good course of cos la!

so today i'm so excited haha .. to show monkey my new 'look'.. but too bad he's really sick.. kind of erm.. dampen the mood abit la.. anyhow.. i think i look abit fat in this leh.. urgh..

hahaha.... me trying to act cute.. hahaha.. can't stand myself..

met monkey in town and off we went to walk walk before our dinner.. supposed to go buy my speakers la.. but din see one i want/he wants.. so end up sulking while walking.. monkey too sick le so we sat down for rest.. that was when he took out the eeyore for me!!

see the eeyore so cute leh!! i love it!! (yeah yeah i like stupid donkey named eeyore to bits!) i got a card too.. but i'm not supposed to read it til i got home..


it aches me to see him so sick still wanna come out.. haiz.. finally when we went to lemon grass for dinner.. i ended up finishing about 80% of the food.. cos monkey has no appetite.. i'm such a glutton! and let me tell u.. eating so much is as good as eating them alone.. it did not feel nice at all.. tho the company is right..

jus look at the spread of cuisine..

no pictures of monkey today.. too sick to take pictures.. so it's all me me and me.. with eeyore and food..

happy 1 year dear... and for the many many years ahead... *winkz*

i love cutting nails for monkey.. i dunno y.. i jus love it.. wahahaha.. probably cos he suck at it.. *lol*

i think it kinds of makes me feel only i can cut his nails so nicely.. fingernails toenails wateva..

i jus love cutting his nails..

I. SO. HATE. THE. BIDDING. SYSTEM.


who the hell bids so high? got pts anyhow throw lar huh hmm huh?!?! what the freak.. screw you all!!! play friendly la! low low bids all happy wat! see la.. now hons lower requirements.. now more ppl wan to bid the same module!!

i'm majoring in marketing so those not majoring mktg shooo shooo shooo SHOOOO!!! go away! dun touch my consumer behavior!! what the heck.. i want that slot la!! such a nice time table oredi.. and i purposely planned to end late on fri!! and u still wanna snatch my consumer behavior??!?!

i curse those who anyhow throw hundreds and thousands of pts.. drop hair.. grow fat.. have pimples covered ur face till no one can recognize u..

i'm so busy in office and so bloody pissed with bidding!!!

4 more working days to end of my intern.. i can't wait for it to end..

was talking to another smu intern mil on my way to sch yest.. she said she will tell us something after we leave the company.. apparently it's something my boss did in the past.. which probably earned her a bad reputation.. ahah.. i'm so eager to hear it.. shall msn chat with her after i leave!

today jan's on mc.. so we'll treat r and m lunch tmr then.. now i'm thinking where we should go for lunch today.. it's jus me and s.. the 2 smu interns are on leave too.. wat a quiet thursday.. haha.. despite the calls coming in very frequently..

it's been nice to chat on msn with ppl everyday during work.. if not i wonder how i can tahan the boring life here in office.. but as the days go.. more frens are ending interns.. so which means i have less to chat with.. haha.. but it's definitely a nice one to be able to chat with yh.. a very very nice feeling to keep in contact so constantly.. it's like back to the past.. when we were very very young..

we have different thinking now.. we've become open minded. talking abt really anything under the sun haha.. and of cos with her marriage and my graduation in another yr.. we've our different problems and worries.. basically our lives are pretty much different.. but we're still able to talk like we're the same.. haha.. it's NOT easy being a wife, d-i-l and mother okie.. all at the same time.. she's a strong one i know.. so she will pull through.. plus if she believe love can overcome almost anything.. then yep.. no prob wan.. of cos sometimes cant tahan certain things.. and you really get to see the UGLY side of ppl supposedly ur family.. haiz..

and to think that i BELIEVE such politics only exist in offices.. when u work.. not when u wan to go back to a home to rest and be free from all the rubbish.. all the sickening ppl..

who's gg to tell me this is modern world.. modern times.. so modern thinking.. definitely no conservative thinking that women are on the losing end??

who who who??

jus like what yh said.. only those who not married will think so..

and who's gg to tell me marriage is abt 2 individuals??

again.. those who are not married.. haiz.. seriously..

can't you adults leave things to the young adults?!?!?

why must u get the kick out of being 'por-ed' by kins and relatives? is it such a big deal when ppl praise you for something they do not think of u as?? who is the immature one here now?? huh?? aren't u all sick of these ugly sides of human beings outside?? why must it continue in the family??

i'm disgusted.

now i worry for myself too. can't afford to be naive.. still naive.. meaning to think things are the way they are or as they said..

ALWAYS DOUBT..

maybe i should really marry someone (should i intend to) without kin.. no families or no relatives to interfere..

okieokie i'm kidding la.. i'm not tt selfish.. i can accept marriage is not abt 2 indiv only.. but only on the account that the husband is totally so understanding and supportive to the wife.. of cos i do know it's such a yucky feeling to be sandwiched in between the parents and wife.. but can u who else can the wife turn to when she has problems with YOUR family? like i mentioned.. it's NOT easy at all being a wife d-i-l and mother at the same time.. she needs LOTS of understanding.. inclusive of her thinking that she dun wan to bother u with it since she noe u wil feel frustrated to be sandwiched..

so the husband needs to wake up his idea la.. always doubt.. even if it is his family.. not everything he sees is the truth.. does he really know wat is happening behind his back?? and i'm oh so disgusted adults can bear to use her love for her husband (since they know she cant bear to burden him with more stuff) to their satisfaction..

these adults are so fako.. and i've learnt it's a common practice.. everyone oso like tt wan..

can you all please bloody hell wake up ur idea or not?

ppl marry into ur families oso humans brought up by their own parents leh!!!! not slaves for you to (badly spoken) play around wan leh!!

okie.. enuff venting of frustrations..

r/s between d-i-l and m-i-l..

tough one here..

*shakes head*

super duper monday blues.. with a sore sore left eye (i realised it's always the left eye..) does it mean anything?? jialat..

really no motivation to come to work today but had no choice la.. still dragged my ass to office.. esp after m knows i wasn't on mc last fri.. haha.. shite.. should have jus taken urgent leave.. urgh.. so paiseh.. now i jus pray my boss dun ask me to show mc.. *cross fingers*

the weekend trip was alright.. i dun like to rate things la.. my first time with monkey overseas.. even tho only 1 causeway away.. still overseas haha.. and his frens are good company.. plus the food is great! (i've gained weight).. a good rest for the weekend.. i wished i could rest for a few more days..

Friday 15 july

woke up bloody early in the morning..

Saturday 16 july

Sunday 17 july

to be updated..

i need to get a new pair of contact lens soon.. the current ones are giving me probs.. my eyes are getting irritatingly irritated as and when they like.. and i have to wear my old and ugly specs (i still like them but i want a new one la) to work! haha not tt i really mind (since nobody looks at us anyway).. i jus bu4 shuang3 la.. haiyoweyar..

have you ever felt that your fren's gf is too controlling?

or that your fren is too hum4 cos he listens to his gf?

do you have frens who think that guys should have the commanding prescence in a r/s?

or do you have frens who listens totally to their bfs regardless of how ridiculous their demands may be?

how abt how do u feel when you bf is being considered scared of you..

or YOU are being considered by ur bf's fren(s) as too demanding? tt they dun really like u?

for me, i think i'll feel very very weird when i see his frens.. and i despise MCPs.

no.

i shouldn't despise them. tt's not right.

i just dun like them.. can't live with one.

YES. i can't stand mcp esp if my bf is one..

wait. an mcp won't even be my bf in the first place. they are disgusting. they make me feel that gers are jus slaves without human rights.

maybe it's not that bad? no. it's that bad. at least in my opinion.

my thoughts are if you are really the one for him, he'll give in to you(tho not evey time) no matter how unreasonable you are.. shouting at you and then later on pacify you is not counted as giving in. that's thinking you are stupid enuff to buy in his sweet words for the hurt caused earlier on..

want someone to listen to you and do anything and everything anytime upon ur command? go train a dog la.. as quoted from someone even a dog bites sometimes when you throw tantrums at it.. i can't imagine how can someone practice 100% compliance to his demands?

i know i shouldn't judge. i'm not. i'm confused as to what is gg on in this person's mind should there be one..

whatever happens to mutual respect, trust and understanding when he thinks there should be his commanding prescence? what a revolting statement this is! ican't believe it!

if any of my frens are like tt and i happen to find out, i'll be disgusted.. no. i won't hate the person or stop being frens.. jus disgusted cos i think it's not right to be an mcp..

i dun see anything wrong in expressing to him my qualms abt his passion since i dun gamble. this situation is like tt cos his gf (which is me) happens to be someone who dun gamble! kudos to your gfs being able to play and gamble like u do.. (i'm absolutely okie with tt since it's none of my business)..

see.. it's none of your business!!

he has his own way of thinking perceptions way of life blablabla.. who are you to say he is afraid of me? so when u respect ur gfs means u afraid of them la? see?!?!?! it's perception!! he is the one who understands me and my issue with ppl who break promises.. tt's y despite how much he wants to join u all yesterday he stayed with me!

to me tt's a hell lot of respect for me and i do appreciate that.. appreciate it bloody hell so much i felt like tearing..

cos in their eyes he has become one who's afraid of gf and always listens to me, dun have his own dignity.. blablabla.

he may not care wat others say or think, esp since those are his buddies.. i do care but i wil pretend i don't.. since i dun wan to put him in a difficult spot.

imagine wat happens when i totally dun wan to see them anymore.. haha.. so badrite.. so cannot.. i jus have to understand and stand by the fact that we have our own thinking.. this is the way we like our r/s to be and to work out.. who the fuck cares abt whether we are like you all?

sheesh. i still feel awkward.. and i felt really bad he has to be tot by others this way.

for goodness sake i wanna scream I DID NOT NOT ALLOW HIM TO GO OVERSEAS WITH U ALL WITHOUT ME!!!!!!

when there was a plan to take a short trip, i oredi agreed with him i'll hav my own stuff to do during tt weekend he's out of town.. i never once say he can't go without me! i'm not that selfish okie.. what the hell do you think i am? if i dun allow him to go might as well i take a rope and tie him to my house rite?

has what u all said ever been through your BIG brains?

or is it verbal diarrhoea?

which part of he dun have money cos he lost his phone and has jus blew a few hundred on another phone do you not understand? yeah. of cos the trip will be more fun with him but how can keep forcing him to go like tt? so what if he jio the trip? unforeseen cirstumstances oso bobian rite?

yeah i won't judge cos i don't. i jus voice out wat i feel towards you actions to my bf.. despite the fact u all are buddies and are in more of a position perhaps to talk like tt..

to monkey: i'm sorry i jus voicing out my thoughts. i have absolutely no intentions of despising discriminating stop socialising and knowing them. they are fun to be with and they are UR FRENS.. i respect you so i will try my best.. i will not say anymore cos i noe it's not nice to hear bad stuff abt frens.. i jus wished they understand better..

i wonder when will i have the time to upload the zoo pictures and post them(so pls check back for 9july post on zoo).. haiz.. so busy at work with all the calls coming in.. not to mention the niao customers asking everything and anything and demanding this and that.. makes me all the more wan to end this intern faster faster faster..

haven been out to lunch during work for abt a month.. survived on my apples and bread and cookies once in a while.. no, not a healthy diet.. how can BIG chocolate buns and bread be healthy?? haha.. how can chocolate chips cookies be healthy? if i on diet sure wat vege and vege and fruits only.. hahaha.. i jus wan to save money.. and there isn't any fantastic food around here that can make me spend on.. (erm, except ikea la but i have enuff of tt le)..

i wanna end intern early.. so i can go for rag.. i so wanna go for rag.. argh.. please let me go for rag.. i hope my boss will let us end early.. argh.. i really really wan to go for rag.. i have so much memories there..

i noe i said this so many times.. but rag is so special for me.. foc oso so special.. if no foc, no monkey and dabee.. if no rag.. no monkey and dabee le.. haha so i wanna go rag! plus the kind of bond and satisfaction with all the bizaders.. i miss rag so much!!!!

anyhow.. i'm so glad liling wanna do volunteer work leh! haha. shall go ask around wat we can do.. hmmm.. anymore? the more the merrier leh!!

monkey told me the 4yr old boi with brain cancer stays in his block.. oh my goodness.. such coincidence heh.. but oh well.. nothing much la, so wat if stay same block.. hmmm..

such an incoherent post.. random ramblings all over the place..

oh ya.. gg for dinner and movie with monkey and my sis later!! haven brought my sis out for so long le.. so tot since she wan to watch fantastic four.. plus she wasnt able to make it to zoo with us last saturday.. so bring her to town (i think she only been there once ba).. haha i'm a happy ger!! i'll treat dinner and monkey treat movie!! such a nice sis i am!! muahahaha...

anyone watched the nkf cancer charity show last nite?

i watched abit of it.. and i made one call to make donation.. tell me i've not been tricked.. i saw the clip of the 4 year old boy who suffered from brain cancer.. i was so sad i felt guilty not donating.. haiz..

i'm not rich la, so i call once only..

i dun really give a fuck abt what performance they do la.. if i wan to donate i donate.. haha.. am i contradicting here? i mean my family dun do this kind of calling to make donation.. i used to not do it.. having the tot if i wan to donate i will do it myself directly to the organisation.. not through singtel and pay the $0.21 fee..

but yesterday i jus called.. hahah.. probably on impulse.. but i did feel better after tt call.. the boy is really so poor thing..

many think aiya, jus another gimmick to zhuan4 ren2 re4 lei4 so can garner more donations.. yeah ppl like me will probably call la.. they win lo.. hmmm.. i have nothing much to say abt tis..

but what went through my mind was the scary tot of having the same thing to happen to me.. i haven't got a close kin kena-ing (TOUCHWOOD) cancer but i can't help fearing how i would face it when it really happens..

perhaps i'm dumb la, but i do agree that we can help by donating.. since we can never understand the pain and troubles these patients go through.. of cos we can help by volunteering out services.. but money definitely goes a long way to help ease their burden..

this i can so understand..

by the way my grandfather was telling me an encounter he had with a girl trying to ask him to donate at sgh..

uncle, want to donate to charity?
huh? for wat wan?
orh, for the patients who aren't able to pay medical fees
eh? i gg to see doctor i haven even pay u wan me to pay now?
(stunned)
u go ask govt dun charge so high fees lo..

my grandfather so funny hor.. ha, cos he was quite bewildered seeing someone asking for donations at the hospital where many are there to spend money la.. i noe this behavior is a bit too irritating but given his character, he could have been worse.. wahahaha

back to the charity show thingy..

one reason i don't want to call is cos i'm skeptical abt how the money is being used.. i mean, they can say the money goes totally and directly to ease the patients' burden.. but how much truth is there? which is why i said i'll rather donate directly myself la.. but then again my method oso won't guarantee 100% money help the patients hor.. haha..

and then hor.. u see through the tv show so many ppl call to donate.. the proceedings only go to nkf cancer fund.. what abt other smaller organisations trying to help? i mean when they try to collect donations ppl wil like "eh, i donate alot oredi leh, dun ask me to donate anymore la.." or "huh, i donate got luckry draw or not?"

u see.. donating becomes not solely for the purpose of helping.. the ppl wan to get something in return.. this culture is bad.. although not everyone is like tt la.. i oso dunno what i'm trying to say.. it jus appears to me that other organisations/beneficiaries in tt sense are many times neglected.. and it makes the job tougher for them..

jus like when i was doing fic last year.. the most common response was that they had called the nkf line, hence dun wish to donate anymore.. the small beneficiaries we were helping whre got resources to have tv shows like nkf? somemore the ppl will be so bored of the charity shows la.. (as if we are not sianded by them le)..

haiz.. what is it coming to man..

i wan to do volunteer work.. i always want to.. but i'm not ready to just walk in to a place and go "hey i want to volunteer, jus tell me wat to do.." i need company.. i don't think i can do this alone.. and i tot the more the merrier.. it's kind of fun volunteering with friends.. and i want a fixed one.. i mean helping out at a fixed place u noe..

when i have the company.. i'll arrange time for it.. i like the sense of satisfaction from helping ppl.. anyone wanna go volunteering with me?